Indefinable

[Trisha Volkov]

I could not express what I was feeling right now. Alone and disappointed are words that define my feelings the least.

When Dominic had suddenly kissed me, I was left shocked and like I was betraying someone on top of that.

When he kissed me, I could not feel anything, only Christian's face was flashing in front of my eyes. I don't even know why.

After all, we are not together even, I am just a plaything for him. And it's not like he feels anything for me at all after he slept with the girl when I was in his bed.

Then why can't I just forget about him and form a connection with Dominic?

'Cause you are stupid' My inner voice said to me.

I heaved a sigh before walking out of the mall. It was past seven, I can hardly see any cabs or someone to ask lift from.

I wrapped my arms around myself. 'Even if I did find a cab, I hardly know where exactly I will ask him to drop me' I thought.

Just as I was about to sit on the pavement of the road. I heard a honking of a car, as a black Porsche parked in front of me.

The windows rolled down, revealing the driver's attractive face.

I huffed, "What are you doing here," I asked him.

Christian as always ignored my question, "Get in the car" He demanded not looking at me. Rude.

"Okay so if you want to play games, so be it!" I exclaimed.

He narrowed his eyes at me, confusion written all over his features.

Ignoring the glare he sent my way, I walked away from him, straight onto the road.

The never-ending long road seems to be very silent.

Footsteps behind me caught my attention, a second later, Christian was walking beside me.

"Where do you think you are going?" I asked him.

He side-eyed me, "Where you are going," was his simple answer.

I arched a brow at him, "So now you are staking me! It just keeps getting interesting," I said to him.

He rolled his eyes at me, "The other option was to pick you up and get to you in my car by force, but I came to realise you will only resist me more cause you hate being manhandled. But you can't stop me from following you," He explained looking ahead.

His words stuck in my heart, I turned my face in the other direction to hide the smile that came from listening to him.

"Are you forgiving him that easily for what he said today?'' My inner voice asked me.

I ignored it because I am not forgiving him, but he is right that I can't stop him from following him.

"What about your car? It's too expensive to be left like that," I tried to reason with him.

He just shrugged, "Not important," he said.

My heart warmed by his show of affection towards me. Yet I could not understand why he can't just apologise to me. Is it too hard?

I hadn't noticed that we had gotten close to the forest. I saw a map while we were coming here today. This city is mostly covered by forest. It excites me because I am a nature lover.

Christian noticed me looking at the forest intently. "Do you want to go there?" He asked me out of a sudden.

My gaze widen slightly, "Is it possible?' I asked. Then a thought came into my mind. "Will you show me your wolf?'' I asked him with a smile.

He gazed into my eyes, finding something there, what? I don't know but whatever he found there made him agree to my request.

He nodded before walking into the jungle, I followed him.

When we were a little away from the roads, Christian stopped and started to remove his shirt.

I shrieked "What are you doing!'

He turned to look at me with a smirk, "I am shifting, don't worry I can keep my jeans on," He told me.

Then he did something extremely cool, his skin started writhing, I heard the snapping of the bones, and his skin replaced itself with furs in front of my eyes.

Where once Christian was standing, now a large Grey wolf stands. His back facing me. His form was almost larger than my four inches tall height.

When the wolf turned to look at me with his golden wolfish eyes, I took a step back, scared.

My heart started beating faster as he came close to me.

Just when I was about to run screaming, he did something unexpected.

He kneeled on his forelegs. Bowing to me.

I laughed hysterically. Taking a step close to him, when he didn't move an inch, I closed the distance between us.

''Hey! You are soo gorgeous!... Can I touch you?" I asked him looking at his form from close.

He inclined his muzzle, offering me to touch it. I bite my lips and crouched in front of him.

Grazing my fingers on the fur on his back, "Jesus Christ! Your fur looks so firm yet it's so soft," I told him.

I was busy playing with my eyes closed trying to feel its cosiness that I didn't notice when the fur was replaced by hard muscles.

I opened my eyes to find golden eyes staring at me intently. Christian was laying on his back, his hard chest and muscles on display.

I blushed at the sight of him, "Ahh–Why did you shift back?" I asked as I stood up to put space between us. Or tried to.

Christian yanked me on his chest by my arm. I yelp as I fall on top of him.

"The wolf had his fill of attention, It was my time," He said with a serious look.

Looking into his eyes, I was at a loss for words. "I can't keep up with your mood swings, One second you'll pull me on top of the sky, then the next second you'll only push me down to fall hard," I said to him although my voice betrayed my seriousness.

He tucks the hair, which has scaped my ponytail, behind my ear. Caressing my checks with his thumb. But didn't say a word.

The silence was oddly comforting, we were looking at each other without saying anything, just looking.

At that moment, I saw something in his eyes that I never thought he was capable of.

Emotions.

I saw emotions in his eyes, feelings that were there but can't be explained. They just sat at the surface beneath his golden eyes. Waiting for someone to find them, understand them.

They took the better of me. I licked my lips and Christian's gaze followed the moment.

I did something unexpected.

I leaned and kissed him.