the shame

From the beginning, the number 00045 was awakened after only 30 minutes of his sleep. He didn't charge the battery yet, so he could not stay awake long, after feeling the warm and comfortable. He could not stop himself from sleep. Perhaps it was just a hallucination, but he heard a blurry crying sound.

He did not have any feelings in his previous life because of the shock and the medication he was taking. The shock is still there, but the effect of the accumulated drug has disappeared. For the first time in two lives he could feel Even if this feelings was pathetic, For the first time he feels sad . As if the sound of wailing did not hit his ears, but hit his soul.

' What is happening to me what is this strange feeling?

Why does my heart hurt?

Is this related to the sound of crying? ' This was his last thought before he broke up.

This is how the first day of the new number 00045's life ended .What follows is a repetitive routine of eating, sleeping, and trying to learn anything with the sense of hearing. But everything is useless without interaction between the senses of hearing and vision, learning from the world becomes many times more difficult .

Or so it went for a month. It is now in the morning with autumn weather with some cold winds. They back home a week ago.

the Changes began to occur in his visual system. The vision of the number 00045 is getting better little by little. It is not difficult for him now to recognize objects a few meters away. and He knowed his own name witch is noah.

He can now identify his body's family members .

He also learned their names too, the old hug is Mea and two little girls named alisha and lisa 10 years for the oldest and 9 years for youngest. He was able to identify their personalities and some details about them, such as the ruby ​​red color of his grandmother's eyes and the golden eyes of his two sisters. This surprised him for a while, but he did not have enough brains to care about that.

Now, after a full month has passed, he was able to diagnose his condition more reliably. He has begun to recover his feelings if he was in his previous world he Will definitely ask referral. The emergence of feelings is a red line, given to the circumstance that he is in another world and doesn't know the existence of the organization in this world, He decided to cancel the suicide order. The priority now is gathering information.

Now his stomach has become larger and can handle more milk, which means less frequent feeding. The difference between mealtimes now is 6 hours. It also seems that his initial conclusion of the industrial capacity of this world is wrong. The bottle of milk he is currently feeding with is definitely better regulatory requirements of manufacturing materials than previously wooden bottles.

He is currently on mea's lap being fed. The hug always talks during the feeding sitte, Noah may not know what the words mean, but that didn't stop him from feeling interest in her voice.

' As much as I love this feeling, it scares me just as much. I must be careful not to indulge in it '. A whole life's training of ignoring feelings and eliminating them can't breach by some flimsy feelings based on family relationships.

( ok son you are scaring me right now please stop staring at me I will understand if you stared at your mother, she is one of the most beautiful women. and i will understand if you stared at me 20 years ago. But now you makes me feel like a kind of Sarkis show ).

Mea said these words with a smile expecting an answer or a sign from him. But what she got was an emotionless stare with black eyes that did not reflect light. She began to be suspicious of Noah a while ago, the level of intelligence and awareness that he showed far exceeds his age.

For example, interacting with sound. The average child will cry after hearing a loud sound such as closing the door forcefully or something similar. But for Noah, the only interaction she got from him were intelligent eyes watching everything with curiosity.

You can count the times he cried with one hand. It does not seem that the lack of sleep or disturbance during it bothers him. She has hired a doctor several times to deny her suspicions each time.

mea began to feel suspicious. Noah could read the weather easily, the look that the hag gave him was definitely different from before. But he does this deliberately, showing intelligence from a young age, which will dispel future doubts.

Displaying a different behavior or a high level of intelligence that he had never seen before may lead to his death. He may forgery it on strangers but it is impossible to forgery it on his family.

Except if he wants to feign stupidity for the rest of his life, so to avoid all the trouble he decides to display a level of perception higher than his immersion but not enough to be consider as a reincarnation .

She continued to feed him for a few more minutes, after she finished she put him in his cradle. For her it's time for some housework.

In the corner of the room ther are golden eyes lurking Noah. All it takesis a small chance to get her prey.

After Mea left, she bring her head out of the door, wanting to make sure she was gone. Immediately after she grabbed Noah with both hands and took him straight to her room upstairs.

Noah did not sleep, so he saw everything live. Another kind of feelings began to itch his heart, which is curiosity.

' What is this idiot trying to do, there is no harm in watching .She did not show any signs of hostility in the end '.

Without making any sound, she climb the stairs step by step. This isn't the first time Noah wander into the house. The house mainly consists of two floors. Kitchen and living room on the ground floor with bathroom and four rooms on the upper floor. This is not certain, but it is assumed that there is a room for the two girls, a room for his parents, a room in which he sleeps with the old mea, and a last room, he don't the purpose of it .

Anyway, upon entering the girls' room, the first thing he meets is a copy of Alisha, but in a smaller size and with some different details. Their room is not that wide and is as simple as possible, two beds with a wardrobe and a small study desk in the corner.

( You really managed to bring him in. Well done. We can finally see it ).

( Of course I can bring him what you expected ). An arrogant smile appeared on Alisha's face .

Noah didn't like the way the girls were smiling, but it was too late to cry now.

The girls put Noah on the bed and took off his clothes. ( He really have something between his legs ).

Signs of surprise appeared, but nothing else. They didn't know what is the use of it yet .

During this month, Noah experienced many feelings, every day he became more and more doubtful about his faith in the organization. At first, he could enter a state of zen just by thinking, but the longer that passed, the more difficult it became to enter this state. Like a drug addict after tasting ecstasy he couldn't stop. For him, these feelings began to take a part of his life. But in fact, this is only one side of the matter.

The reason why feelings seem flawless to him is that he has not experienced negative feelings yet such as hatred, regret and sadness. If he had experienced them before, he would not have thought so naively.

How do they know that fire burns? Of course it burned them a few times. Just like that today Noah got a taste the bad side of feelings for the first time. It name is the shame.

Alisha's hand began to approach Noah's treasure, wanting to touch it. ' Well I guess there's no way, I feel like this only after they stripped me what will happen to me if they played with my treasure ' He felt humiliated.

Before Alisha could touch him, a sharp crying sound was heard in the room .

It didn't take a whole second for the door to open with a loud bang, a black shadow entered the room. The girls couldn't see anything. she is the old mea.