Akagi Masahiko, a 24 year old sous chef at his father's restaurant suffers from a very traumatic past and is now unable to enjoy the things he likes. When his mother abandoned him, he was raised by his relatives in near destitute situation as they're poor. Which resulted in toxic treatment to him by his relatives. Then his girlfriend, who is also his childhood friend, cheated on him. His Optimistic and enthusiastic personality, his world full of joy, dreams and hope, all perish. He struggles to put aside his depression and anxiety, he is affraid to try again, fearing for the despair thats haunts him.
After slowly recovering from his past, everything about him changed. Yet, there are still some people who is cheering for him, and someone wants to fill the void in his heart. But the biggest challenge for him is to learn to accept people in his life again.
He tries to find happiness again, yet holds back due to his mental issues that's tearing him apart.

My life's only Lover

I reluctantly let her go, slipping away from my grasp. Her affection is so hypnotizing, it left me feeling jubilant, I was holding myself back but I want to hold her much longer. A part of me still doesn't want me to look vulnerable to such emotions, it still stings whenever I think of my previous relationship. 


"Are we gonna see each other tonight?" 


"Of course!" She enthusiastically replied. 


Her responce made me smile, even though we live far from each other. We always find a way to keep on touch, reconnecting our thoughts in the evening while we disregard certain aspects of our lives just to embrace each other. As much as we could. 


Ch. 81 - My depression wouldn't leave me.