Chapter 15

As I try to make a reasoning in my mind, my feelings got worse.

I know that I need some help...I know I can't do anything alone...I am weak right now. But I should have never asked for their help.

I shouldn't try to use their kindness. Maybe it will be better if I am a heartless person. But I don't want them to get involved with me.

The lifeless bodies in my nightmare keep bugging me. No, it was haunting me like the supernatural things that happened in my past life. It was something horrible that keep appearing in my life.

Like the time when the person in who I took interest get into an accident because we tried to go on a date. Or the accident that almost hurt my best friend when she tried to invite me on a blind date.

It was different when I thought about it because it was a different situation right now. I might be able to push them away and not involve them in my current situation.

But...Why do I feel like shit right now?

I can't hold these gushing emotions. My tears started to drop.

I think I lost my ability to control my body and emotions.

I just don't want to think about it for a while.

I don't know what to do anymore.

My head keeps hurting from the headaches.

The contradiction in my mind became more intense.

I just continue to cry. The Sister Maid that helped me start to panic when she saw me crying. But I could not see her as my sight got blurry because I can't stop crying.

Just around two weeks...It was just around two weeks ago since I regained my past life memory and fourth days after I get separated from my mother.

Why is it so hard?

I just need to follow my plans, right?

Is this the shock that I suppose to get when I died in my previous life?

Why do I feel hurt?

My head keeps hurting. The more I cry, the more chaotic my mind is.

I seems to hear someone coming and the Sister Maid in front of me seems to not realize it as she was too panicky because she thought she made me cry.

My eyes are too blurry and my body feels really cold. I still can't stop myself from crying. As my consciousness became clouded, my mouth started to move on its own.

"Why do you help me?"

"I don't want you to get hurt because you help me."

"I don't want to hurt anyone."

"Don't help me."

"It's much better if you act like the other servants."

"Don't be kind to me. It's annoying! You just make me feel more guilty..."

"Just leave me alone!"

As I shouted that I lose my consciousness.

I don't know what happened to my body.

Is Renneshia from the game influence my mind or control and took over my body?

I can't think of anything as I fell into the darkness of my consciousness.

***

I opened my eyes and saw that I am in a dark place.

It's dark and I have a hard time seeing my surroundings.

Where am I?

What happened to me?

I don't know if I am standing or floating as everything is pitch black darkness. After looking around for some time, my surroundings seem to change.

It turned into a prison-like room. With a thick iron bar on one side and a hard rock wall on the other side. A cold and sad place. And I was inside this prison.

"Hello! Is anyone here?" I want to check if someone is here.

No one answers me. This place seems to be abandoned. I looked at the iron door but it was locked. After carefully looking at my surroundings, I saw how dirty this place was.

Suddenly I feel goosebumps and look at the corridor beyond the iron bar. I walk closer to the iron bars and try to look at the corridor.

As I look at the dark end of the corridor, I feel terrified. Something moves from the darkness and something appears. It was a hand.

I feel shocked by that hand. I don't want to remember but I can't help but to remember that horrible memory. It was the hand that cause me to die in my previous life.

I feel afraid and move away from the iron bars. My feeling seems to be telling me to move away or that hand might notice my presence. But as I step back from the iron bars, I feel another presence behind me. I turned my body to see the presence behind me.

From the darkness, I saw a silhouette. I was terrified by it at first. But as I could see the appearance more clearly, I was stunned.

It was the presence of a person. A beautiful girl in her teens. Her beauty is making me speechless because it was too beautiful and makes you unable to look away.

As I look at her appearance, I realized that I feel familiar with her appearance.

My body froze. She looks similar to my (Renneshia's) mother. That beautiful black hair and eyes and white skin. The only difference between the two of them is her appearance. She has a cold, mysterious and hard-to-approach air surrounding her. She was like an emotionless doll.

Then a thought came into my mind. I was shocked and took a step back.

I realized her identity.

No, it's not possible.

Her identity...How could...? Then what about me?

My heart beating faster, it's becoming harder to breathe and my body is trembling.

"W-Why...?"

I tried to speak but only one word came out from my mouth.

"I hate you!" A cold voice comes from her mouth.

"Why you are living happily? Why there is someone who loves you but I don't have anyone?" Her voice trembled.

I could feel the anger and sadness in her voice. Strangely can not see any change in her expression. As if she was not a human but a doll.

"You and I are the same...but why we are so different?" She continues her question.

But she suddenly stops looking at me and looks at something behind me. I was scared but I also feel that I need to see behind me. It suddenly turns dark.

"Hmm, This is unexpected. In the end, our fate is still the same. Beware of the darkness. You will die if you saw it." She, Renneshia from the game suddenly said.

I was surprised by her words and tried to ask for her explanation.

"What do you mean?"

But as I turned my head to see her,

"!!!"

I was surprised to see her appearance fades.

I tried to reach my hand to her but I can't touch her.

"Wait!" I shouted as I have a lot of questions that I wanted to ask her.

Then the darkness starts to surround me. I saw something that seems to be reaching my face. I unconsciously shut my eyes.

"Please stop!" I shout to stop her.

***

When I opened my closed eyes, I saw a different scenery.

It was a familiar scenery. It was different from what I saw before.

...Is that only a dream or some sign?... Her last words... My head suddenly throbbed.

I touch my head and I could feel the wet towel on my forehead. I feel empty. But when I try to get up, I heard someone sobbing beside my bed.

"Sobs...I'm sorry... I'm really sorry...I did not mean to say those words...I don't know if they treat you like that. Uwaaah..."

The person who cries and becomes a mess is the Sister Maid from before.

My head still hurt and my body feels extremely weak right now.

This is annoying. As I was in my current condition, she add more headaches as she keep crying beside me for a while.

Oh my goodness! Why does this happen to me?

I want to make her stop crying but I feel exhausted as I fell unconscious again.

I could hear her panic voice as my consciousness fade away.