Ball Dance: Seed of doubts

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It rebelled!

I watch my uncertain legs rebelling against it master, rebelling against me, it turns around, my eyes drifting up, it watch her bleed her tears, it wouldn't stop, she was losing her mind completely.

"I won't listen to you, do anything you like to me, but I would help you, I want you to win, your vengeance would be mine, you can't stop me" Her tears still bleeding out, her eyes pierced on mine.

It widens, I understand nothing happening anymore.

Her tears could be fake, I trust no one all my life, I know not what to believe, my eyebrows, I watched, it arched up with nothing less than doubt.

It watches closely, it stares at her, yet she kept on shedding those useless tears of hers..

My irked body moving on it own, it told me the obvious, I couldn't stand it any longer, I would have to put a end to this now..

I tell my burning self, as I felt my eyes wandering away, my legs doing the same as well

It walks into the a door I presumed to be the bathroom, I could feel my legs taking the lead, walking in to grab something..

My eyes wandering around, indeed my assumption were right, it was truly the goddamn bathroom and it was ever so huge, just like the ruthless bastard's palace.

The irritation was back on my blood, but at last, now was not the time to get pissed off once again..

My eyes piercing round the bathroom, it spots what I was actually looking for, taking a few step closer, my hand finally grabbed it and I made my way to leave..

It turns around, my legs did, as I finally left that godforsaken room. My eyes turning around again, it catches a glimpse of her, the tears were still well visible on her light skinned face, my lips pressed with anger.

I march to her front, as I could feel my rebellious hand lifting up once again, it stretches out, as I watch her head slowly lifting up ..

Her confused teary light eyes staring at me, the anger in my blood multiplied in the aspect of bitterness, but yet, my hateful eyes stared back at her...

It looks into her light ones and I could feel it, my eyebrows tilting up higher, it was more angrier than before..

The blood, my blood, I knew too well was slowly approaching it climax a lot sooner than before, but at last, I had to keep my cool to myself

"Have this"...

In the end, my lips rebelled at last, it dared speak, I dare hand her a tissue to wipe the tears on her wet eyes, I dare do this to her, but I had ran out of options a long time ago, this was the only way to get her talking, this was the only choice I had left..

Giving her this, was no act of sympathy, Never!...

I cared less about anyone else, I love no one else apart for me and me alone..

To love is to die, to love is to experience eternal pain, I know that fact too well to make any mistake, I would never love any living being ever again..

You have power, you have it all...

All humans are wicked and cruel, I concluded to my bitter soul, as I watch her eyes still fixed on mine, the confusion was still clearly written on her face, but still she accepted the tissue from my hands...

I watch her take it away, I watch her wipe the goddamn tears away..

At last, the pathetic tears was gone, likewise the burning anger in my blood subsided for a bit, my eyes drifting back to her, it watches hers stare into mine once again..

But yet again, I was no friend of sympathy, neither pity, I was no friend of them all.

It wanders round her face, It finally focused on her swollen eyes...

"Tell me all they did to you" My voice coming out ten times colder than I expected, yet that didn't cause me to waver, yet it didn't cause me to redraw what I just spat out..

I had my doubts about her, I would have my doubts about everybody else, everybody I met, I vow to trust no one...

But I wouldn't lie, wouldn't lie about the fact that her tears was in a way causing the seed of doubt in my chest to stumble

Her tears causes my chest to bleed, I know not what to believe, but hearing everything that happened from the horses lips might just possibly clear the wavering doubt I had about her...

Everything would be clear..

I would know the truth, when she speaks..

I stare straight into her eyes, yet her lips remained shut, my soul boiled again..

Here I am trying to at last trust her, but still she choose to keep her mouth shut, she choose to pissed me off yet again..

My eyes staring into her shaky ones, she looks away, she made me lose it, my fist clenching, but yet again, I find myself swallowing my burning anger to myself...

"I asked you a question, Answer me now" My lips finally losing control, it yelled out, as I watch her shake in fear, her shaky hands lifting up to her cheeks, she wipes another round of tears away, I watch it all..

Her eyes slowly drifting to me, I watch her lips parting away...

"I do not wish to go back to the hurtful memories by telling you"...

"Then do not confuse me with your useless tears"...

I find my lips speaking out, but it was far too late to take back what I already spoke out...

"What?" Her words fading out, she spoke out, but I choose to waver her confusion aside ..

I do not wish for her to know that I was in a dilemma because of her useless tears, I do not wish for her to know that her tears were somehow, in a way I do not know, affecting me and my mind..

I do not wish for her to know anything.

My eyes drifting back to her, it watches her shaky eyes tilting up, it watches her shaky eyes widening...

"What?" Her voice fading out, she questions me yet again, she repeated, but never would I tell her how her useless tears was causing me to feel..

My eyes looking at her widens ones, I could feel the frown forming at the lower corner of my lips yet again...

"You are a liar" My lips speaks out, as I look her straight in the eyes, but no, would I ever stop..

"Until you speak up and tell me everything, I would forever keep on doubting you, until you speak up, you will forever remain useless to me, until you...

"Am not useless" The tears falling off her eyes, she cuts me off, I could feel my burning fist, it clenched the more...

"What did you just said"... My lips yelling out, but yet, she dare choose to speak back to me, she choose to dare make me lose my sanity...

"They ruined my life" She yelled back in the same arrogant tone, my eyes widening up, my lips let out a loud scoff, it showed her I cared less.

"Really?" I scoffed out, my hateful eyes staring into hers, it watches hers look back with nothing but anger in hers...

In the deepest part of my heart, this was what I at last wanted..

My eyes wandering, it caught her light ones, it stares back at her, I watch her eyes flicker, but I cared less about that fact

"It..it was 20 years ago" Her voice fading out, I watch her swallow the saliva down her throat..

Her shaky eyes finally met mine...