what a feeling

Aileen was so broken

"It seems this love thing is not for me, I thought if I didn't admit it everything was going to be ok and indeed it was he and I were always together, being happy and that was enough for me but now I don't know what I mean to him anymore, a few years ago if you asked me I would say Julius would do anything for me cause I am the most important person in his life but now I can't even say that. Selena I thought after Rìan I was never going to fall in love again, I thought that was my last chance at love but Julius came in with his beautiful presence, personality, and care that it was so easy to fall and I had wondered every single time why couldn't I see this in the beginning, I met him first he was mine first, I pushed him to Nina and now I am jealous of this same Nina, am I being selfish? I never saw him till now

"Maybe you were clouded by your pain and love for Rìan before you failed to see Julius"

"Selena I am truly selfish, if all things went well between Rìan and me would I be here saying this? I am not deserving of his love but at least I deserve his friendship right? It's ok if he doesn't love me but at least he should allow me close"

"When you met Julius you were already broken so don't say that and remember life happens we all have so many things we wished would've happened differently but life happens"

"Sel I want Julius back," Aileen said

"Then fight for him"

"No sel I have lost the right to fight for him I just want to be a part of his life"

One week later Julius returned home he had gone on a trip, Aileen received a call from his secretary

"Hello ma'am the boss will be returning today"

"Thank you so much," Aileen said

Aileen went to his house and she saw him

"Aileen???" Julius felt he was hallucinating

"I went on this trip so I could free myself and the first thing I do when I come home is to imagine her," he thought as he shook his head trying to get rid of that hallucination but she was still there and this time she was smiling

"What's wrong with him" Aileen said and walked closer

"No don't come closer" he screamed in his head but she was still getting closer the smile on Aileen's face faded when Nina came in between and hugged him and said

"Welcome my love"

Aileen got closer and stopped

"Nina something is wrong with me. Why am I seeing Aileen when she's not here" he asked

But Nina told him

"It's because she is, don't give her too much importance"

"Hi, Julius??" Aileen said

He let go of Nina and smiled at Aileen

"After everything, you're still smiling at her? Julius, I don't know how deep you're in this but I am going to pull you out even though it feels like you like the drowning" Nina said

"Aileen! How are you?"

"I am ok and you?"

"I'm ok but you don't look and sound ok"

"You notice everything about me but why can't you notice that I have fallen madly in love with you" Aileen thought

"Even you don't look fine," Aileen said

"Yes because I have been stressed out this couple of weeks"

"What's wrong??" Aileen said

"Let's go inside"

"Julius!!" Nina said

"Go inside I am coming," he said to Aileen

"What's wrong Nina?"

"You're inviting her in after all she had done"

"She hasn't done anything it is I who fell and is still falling and from the looks of things I am never going to stop falling, Nina I thought after this break away from her I would change towards her but do you know how happy my heart felt when I saw her here, when I was away from her, she was never away from me. I woke up seeing her and thinking about her and can you imagine it was like she was there, I was talking with her and doing everything with her she never left and she's never going to because my mind and heart don't want to let go even if she leaves me and marry my mind is going to make it seems like she's there with me I know this is so wrong but maybe I am crazy so crazy about her that I don't want to see reality but rather live in my imagination" he said and left

" No Julius this is not done, I won't allow this" Nina said

"So what's up?" Julius asked

"Can I say I..."

"What Aileen?" His heart was pounding

"Am I allowed to say that I miss you so much"

He smiled but was trying so hard to hide it

"Did you miss me"

"Yes so much," Aileen said

"Nowadays am not going to hide how I feel for you. Although it's late and I can't tell you I love you I am going to show it to you" she said in her mind

She hugged him

"Julius, have I done something to you?" She couldn't hide her tears

"Why did you stay away from me for so long? You know I can't live without you?"

"Please don't say such things and I know you don't mean the last part because that's for the man you love and that man is not me but I am happy you missed me," he said in his mind and couldn't help but hug her tightly

"Maybe I don't stand a chance because it seems Aileen has realized her love for him. What if she tells him then it means I have lost Julius forever, no that can't happen"

"Oh heart come down, why's my heart beating so loud? She will notice it" Julius thought

"But today this hug feels different is like she's really for me, she's all mine and I'm losing my mind, I want to kiss her"