Will I survive without her? My demons hunt me, am I going to live or not? Should I go back? So many unanswered questions. How could I possibly go back, where would I even start from, but she was my world she was my solar system am I just going to throw all that away? All those bitter sweet memories? Burnt to ash by betrayal. One thing is for sure I'll never be the same after this.

After a tragic break up that shatters my cardiac muscle into a thousand microscopic pieces, I decide it's time to stop running away from my past and just accept things as they are, if I'm ever going to live I need to do this, happiness is a drug, I became a drug addict for nearly two years but now that my drug ( Christine) left I'm left to deal with the withdrawals. She drained me, all girls are the same I casually remind myself I'll never trust a single one of them. But maybe just maybe the one at the end is different.

The past four years have been really difficult for me, but she moved on like it was nothing, oh how cruel these girls are, she ate my insides and left not a shred of happiness all I see is depression, anxiety, suffering and futility day in day out.

After dating for nearly a year and a half it felt like she was the one for William, William thought it would last forever like in the movies but life is a tall glass of dirt and ash, it's here to bite me in the ass. Love is a twisted curse, she will find us all, she will make us all happy but then she will take everything we love and cherish away from us. We will cry and gravel but it won't be returned to us. Sometimes the beauty of something can be seen in it's ugliness.

But so far even without her I'm ok aren't I? well let's find out together shall we? Welcome to "Willy and Chrissy"

Willy & Chrissy

William! Are you okay, William please respond, I'm now okay, text me when you get this" e.t.c I responded to them and she saw my text but before i could send the last text I heard mom's bedroom door open and I knew that this was the end of me immediately after the doorknob turned I hid under the bed I was almost as fast as lightening or as fast as someone who doesn't want to get caught by the mom, you know how it is. 


"Oh my gosh is that what really happened!?" 


"What happened, who is she talking to " I wondered 


"Diana that's what really happened? Aww is she okay now? I hope so, oh sure I'll tell him and you have a good night as well" Mom added 


She then abruptly closed the bedroom door. 


"William are you awake!?" Mom called out having no idea that I was hiding under her bed talking to cupids curse, or as she likes to call herself "Chrissy" 


Protection and lust.