Will I survive without her? My demons hunt me, am I going to live or not? Should I go back? So many unanswered questions. How could I possibly go back, where would I even start from, but she was my world she was my solar system am I just going to throw all that away? All those bitter sweet memories? Burnt to ash by betrayal. One thing is for sure I'll never be the same after this.

After a tragic break up that shatters my cardiac muscle into a thousand microscopic pieces, I decide it's time to stop running away from my past and just accept things as they are, if I'm ever going to live I need to do this, happiness is a drug, I became a drug addict for nearly two years but now that my drug ( Christine) left I'm left to deal with the withdrawals. She drained me, all girls are the same I casually remind myself I'll never trust a single one of them. But maybe just maybe the one at the end is different.

The past four years have been really difficult for me, but she moved on like it was nothing, oh how cruel these girls are, she ate my insides and left not a shred of happiness all I see is depression, anxiety, suffering and futility day in day out.

After dating for nearly a year and a half it felt like she was the one for William, William thought it would last forever like in the movies but life is a tall glass of dirt and ash, it's here to bite me in the ass. Love is a twisted curse, she will find us all, she will make us all happy but then she will take everything we love and cherish away from us. We will cry and gravel but it won't be returned to us. Sometimes the beauty of something can be seen in it's ugliness.

But so far even without her I'm ok aren't I? well let's find out together shall we? Welcome to "Willy and Chrissy"

Willy & Chrissy

What a terrible yet satisfying dream that was. The lady that made me orgasm in my sleep was non other than my girlfriend this was a first for me, it was the first time I ever felt this way about her, the animosity of it all the audacity if it all was so crazy. 


"what was I thinking sleeping with.. wait a minute who was it?, yes! That's right Christine, I've had a lingering emotion since that make out session the other day" 


I woke up with soiled trunks and I needed a change so before anyone else noticed I took an early morning shower and cleaned up my rear and front, the tenderness my penis had was on another level after that erection, It was sensitive to the littlest pet, after taking a really long shower and contemplating about my actions at night the post nut clarity finally hit me. As you already know readers this author is a crazy overthinker and my mind was flooded with thoughts. 


The dark nightmare.