Chapter 149-lonely

Cecilia's POV

I repeatedly adjusted my breathing because my chest felt tight, the disappointment triggering a dense layer of pain. 

My throat choked up, and I mumbled a half-hearted apology.

"So... do you find it difficult?" I bit my lip, sniffed, "If it's too hard, you don't have to persist with being with me."

I did have feelings, but there were too many concerns, and Karl wasn't my top priority. So, I hid, always hiding because I hadn't given priority to Karl. 

Many things came before him, and I couldn't handle them all. I said, "And right now, you..."

Banned from competitions, giving up on awards, willingly sinking into a quagmire. Drifting further from the right path, becoming less like himself. The current Karl.

"I really don't want to see you like this."

"What does it matter," Karl replied, almost self-deprecating, "Regardless of how I am, you won't like it."