Chapter 36: Developing feelings for him.

" Okay... It's Xavier Scott" I said quietly.

" What!? Where? How? " She shouted which made everyone in the coffee shop turn in our direction.

"Sssh, stop being so loud. " I nudged at her gently trying to get her to the back of the counter to sit.

" Are you pulling my legs or you're serious? " she asked again looking at me suspiciously.

" Of course am serious, Tommy brought him." I smiled when I mentioned Tommy. I wish he wouldn't have to go back to Paris but then again if wishes were horses beggars would ride.

" You saw Xavier Scott America's richest bachelor? " She asked again amused

" Am serious Hads, I couldn't believe it myself and do you know what intrigued me the most? It was the fact that his eyes were exactly like the old man's eyes. " I was still wondering.

" Hey! I can't believe you met Xavier Scott and you were thinking about the old man. Are you kidding me?" She shook her head to show her dissatisfaction, I shrugged in response.

" How did he look like? Was he rude? Is he a nice person? Tell me everything. " She waited with both he hands on her cheeks like I was going to be telling her a serious story.

" He seemed nice, and he wasn't rude...." I paused and she looked at me waiting " He's so damn handsome " I concluded and Hads laughed.

" I wish you were married to him instead." I thought about it too before replying " Yeah, I wish that too " Marrying a handsome young man I didn't love was better than this.

" How are you and the old man lately? " She asked with a sadness now audible in her voice. I think she was pitying and feeling sad for me.

" He's not treating me badly, I hate to admit but he's nice." I thought about how he would tell Nancy not to add anything containing lactose to my meal or how he would sit down in the living and wait for me to come back from the coffee shop before going into his room. Even though he didn't want me to know Nancy still told me.

" Why is your opinion about him suddenly changing did something happen? " Hads asked concerned.

" Nothing happened just that... " I paused unsure whether I should tell her.

" You can talk to me Lis, You're a sister, you don't need to ever keep anything from me. " She assured me and I nodded and took a deep breath.

" Recently I get lost when I look into the old man's eyes," I told her looking away from her, not sure If it was because I felt shy admitting it or the guilt I was feeling knowing I should be hating him.

" You get lost? How is that? " She asked confused, I shook my head not sure of how I was going to explain to her.

" He has the most beautiful blue eyes I've ever seen and when I look at them I see energy, I see pain, Uncertainty and an emotion I can't quite place my hand on. I don't know if am just imagining things but when I look at them I just keep looking and I feel a strong need to just touch him and my heart starts racing so fast like I would explode. " I explained quickly before I lost the courage to.

Hads just stared at me, I looked at her and she smiled.

" You feel his emotions just by looking into his eyes? " She asked and I nodded.

"It's like his eyes are telling me things he would never say to me. I feel there's more to him than the world knows. " But I couldn't understand why my heart always beat so fast,

" What does he do when you stare at him? " She asked again, Knowing how Hads was I was sure she was finding some evidence to conclude. " He stares back at me, one time he moved towards me but when he was close to me he suddenly turned and walked away. Last time I found myself moving close to him." I hated that I had to admit that.

" You walked to him?" Hads could ask questions, especially when she wanted to picture the whole scenario. I nodded to her question. " I didn't even know when I started walking towards him, I stood right in front of him not once taking my eyes off his eyes. I don't know what I would have done if Tommy hadn't come there at that moment. " I explained.

" I think you're developing feelings for your husband Lis." She concluded.

" What!?... Are you... Forget it I shouldn't have told you. " I told her feigning annoyance. " I knew you were asking me all these questions to conclude and you did " I continued pouting which only made her laugh a little.

" Come on sis, Am just telling the truth you don't want to accept. But am still curious as to how this began." She continued. " What happened to all the hatred you had towards him for forcing him to marry you? " She asked.

" Of course I still hate him, All I said was his eyes captivated me, not my heart. How can he captivate my heart when there's Xavier and Tommy?" I said jokingly and she laughed even louder. " Oh you wish, you could never cheat," She said when she stopped laughing. As much as I would like to tell her I could, she knew me better than anyone to know I couldn't do it. When Ken and I were still dating I was faithful to a fault.

" What are you going to do about it? Will you still find a way to divorce him? " She was placing her hand under her chin now observing me.

" Honestly I don't know what to do but of course am still looking for any way at all to get divorced. " I assured her before Continuing " When I spoke with Liam the other day, he told me getting closer to him would help me find a faster way to get a divorce but he was strongly against me doing that. But I think that would be best for me to do right now." I wanted her to support me if Liam wouldn't.

" Why was he against it? " She asked but before I could answer she smiled sadly " He's scared right? " She asked again.

" Yeah, the reason for this is quite impossible," I remembered our conversation again and laughed out loud again

"He is an old man yeah? The best way I think would be to get close to him, but I don't want you to do that." He had told me.

" Why don't you want me to if that's the best way?" I asked him.

" What if you get close to him and he falls in love with you? Do you think he'll ever divorce you then?" Was his next question, his fear was completely unnecessary cause I couldn't see the chances of him ever loving me, lust maybe but love I don't think that can be in Asher Kelvin's dictionary.

" What did he fear would happen?" Her question interpreted me from the thoughts.

" That the old man could fall in love with me," I answered silently

" It's too late for that. " She muttered.