The nearly dying experience gave me a system that provides me missions but doesn't give me the success or completion of the mission even after completing it rather shows it as failure and gives participation rewards and punishment if not completed in the given time. 
After so many missions I really want to complete the mission and get the success rewards and give peace to my mind but participation rewards are not bad, it made me rich and strong and granted some of my wishes but I want to see what the completion reward is so I still do missions.

My system keeps failing me