chapter 1: the beginning

My study train stopped at the third year station at the Faculty of Legal Sciences Agdal in the capital, Rabat. I was not lazy, but I was known in my city for my academic excellence, discipline, and intelligence. During the exam days, an administrative error occurred that had nothing to do with me,It caused me to fail. I am the one who never knew the meaning of failure. I suffered from fatal depression that made me hate studying and shattered my dreams for the future.Night and day my lifestyle changed. Changing the time of sleeping and waking up. Changing the time of eating and sitting in the café. The beginning of a new life brings different feelings and problems that I had never faced before. I started trying to fill the gaps left by being away from books,It abounds in knowledge and science that amazes and nourishes minds. I was attracted to a group of young people from the neighborhood, who were known for being unemployed, consuming weed, and drinking alcohol. But they don't create problems or noise, they are polite.I tasted hashish and forgot about university. Then I drank the wine, but that feeling, that feeling of strength, disappears, and a feeling of sadness and misery overtakes me when I return home, and I see my books looking at me as if they were my children. I know them by their names, their clothes, and their smell, so I sleep a black night of loneliness and oppression.One cold morning, I woke up early smiling. I found a solution for my books. I collected them all in two bags, took them to my grocery store, and sold them to him for the price of a potato. My excuse was that he might sell it to a student for a relatively cheap price. The latter filled her like his children. I felt some happiness. I have placed my books in safe hands. In the libraryIt is a refuge for every book that has lost its owner. I got enough money to buy enough drugs to last me a week. What a week it has been. During the day, weed, laughter, and sitting in the neighborhood, and at night, weed alone. So my imagination runs wild.