CHAPTER 34

Y/N'S POV

"I was running through a forest where I couldn't see more than a meter due to the thick fog, I felt the humidity and the cold get to my bones while the memories about my childhood in Japan flooded my mind. A cold sweat ran all over my body as I tried to create a fire to warm myself, it was no use because the most I could do was a little flame the size of my thumb.

I could feel someone moving around me while I was trying to catch my breath.Whoever the person or creature was stalking me had made sure to get noticed by laughing creepily. The whole forest was spinning around me while I tried to visualize the owner of that laughter that made my skin stand on end and made my soul ache. It was not until she reached the edge of a precipice that the woman was shown smiling in a burlesque way.

-Meiko: You are weak, a complete useless in your current state - she was pushing me into the void - You need me to become someone powerful - she smiled at me - You need me and you will end up coming to me.

As I was falling through the void I heard a voice in the background calling my name, but it was of no use because I could barely hear it with my own screams"

- Enid: Y/N! - she shook me - Y/N, wake up! - she looked at me worried.

- Y/N: Ahhh! - I looked at her in horror as I hyperventilated - Enid?

- Enid: You were having a nightmare... Again - she wrapped me in a hug - Wow, you're sweating. Are you feeling all right?

-Y/N: Yes - I calmed down when I saw that it had all been a dream - it's just that... Well, it doesn't matter - I faked a smile to reassure the blonde.

- Enid: Are you sure? You've been having nightmares all week... If there is something that worries you, you know that you can count on me - she smiled and kissed my cheek.

-Y/N: Thank you - I said getting out of her bed and heading to the bathroom - I'll be right back, don't worry. Go back to sleep, it's still early.

I walked to the bathroom and locked myself inside, then I leaned my back on the door and let myself slip until I was sitting on the floor. My heart was still beating fastly and although it was only a nightmare, these felt more and more real. I took off the bandage on my arm that hadn't healed yet, the truth is that I was worried about that issue because I had a feeling that maybe that was the reason for my nightmares.

I sighed when I saw the wound totally the same as the first day and I carefully bandaged it again before getting up and standing up. The nightmares were almost all the same, me being chased for quite a while without being able to cope with my pursuer. Then later my mother would show up and remind me how useless and weak I was. What did those dreams mean? Would it be true that I needed to go with her to become stronger? I didn't want to think about it anymore and I washed my face with cold water to clear my thoughts and go back to bed.

The first classes in the morning I spent asleep on the table and books to make up for all that I had not been able to sleep at night. It had reached a point where even sleeping with Enid I didn't feel calm, and that was saying a lot. The doorbell rang indicating the end of classes and it rumbled in my head as if it were being drilled into me. Enid and Wednesday approached me to go to the cafeteria together and get something to eat.

-Wednesday: You're looking worse and worse - she commented - Getting a good night's sleep is essential.

-Enid: You're not encouraging her - she patted my back while she waited for me to pick up my things - Are you excited for the open day? - she smiled.

-Y/N: The day of what? - I asked confused - I'm sorry, I haven't found out almost anything of what they have explained today... I think I've fallen asleep again - I laughed - I'll ask Yoko for the notes.

-Enid: The open day is when our relatives come to spend the day at the academy - she smiled - In my case it's a horrible day because they will keep insisting on sending me to a werewolf camp, but I guess you will be excited to see your family. Right, Wedns?

- Wednesday: I doubt it - she looked me up and down - My uncle Fester doesn't like that kind of events very much, I don't think he will come.

-Y/N: I know, I'm aware of it - I sighed and slung the backpack on one shoulder - but I guess it will be nice to see your parents and Pugsley.

- Enid: Isn't your father coming? - she asked worried - Hey, if you want... You can come with me and my family, sooner or later I was going to introduce them to you anyway - she smiled.

- Wednesday: And burden her with issues of official commitments? - smirked - Do you want to go through such torture? - she asked me.

-Y/N: I'll do it when the time comes - I said without further ado - Uhm, I think I'll skip going to the cafeteria. It's not that I'm very hungry, to be honest - I said excusing myself and leaving towards the lake.

I was aware that I hadn't been myself for a whole week, as if the will to live had been stolen from me. To find out that Brooke and the mayor were my mother's allies was a surprise that was too difficult to digest, although it was nothing compared to the fact that after almost eighteen years of life I had finally met my mother. Principal Duncan turned out not to be related to Brooke and Mr. Duncan, it had all been an illusion created with my mom's kitsune powers.

That gave me a lot to think about... What other things would have been an illusion? What was real and what was a lie? My mother was a really powerful kitsune, I was sure of it and that made me doubt about my future. Being with my grandparents in Japan I hadn't learned anything beyond surviving in the forest on my own and creating a will-o'-the-wisp flame. At my age I should have developed the second tail and yet I still looked like an ordinary fox. If I met with my mother again... Would I be able to develop the rest of my skills?

-Y/N: This sucks - I threw a stone I had found into the water.

I had not told anyone the contents of my nightmares, because I considered that I had already made them suffer too much by exposing them to danger. But I also knew that I wasn't doing the right thing by keeping everything to myself. Somehow I needed to get rid of that frustration so I could sleep easy at night. If only I could find someone to teach me how to be a decent kitsune... Someone other than my mother, obviously. I stayed for a while sitting on the dock of the lake watching as the fish swam under my feet.

-Y/N: How can I get stronger? - I asked myself and tried to create fire, I sighed as I didn't get any different result - I can't stand by and do nothing.