When Anurak was young, his father became a toyboy for a gang leader and even abandoned his family for another woman. 

His mother died when he was 10. But before her death, she planted some notions in his mind. 
Notions that gay men are husband snatchers and evil.
Notions that a true man can only depend on himself.
Notions that a man can only love one woman. 
These notions turned Anurak into an overly sensitive young boy, who would rather suffer in silence than ask for help. 

Because he didn't want to disappoint his late mother, he tried his best to adhere to her principles. 

Everything was fine until he entered the university. 
First, gaymen lurked everywhere he turned to and the sight of them made it very hard for him to keep ignoring his true feelings. 

Then his girlfriend broke up with him and the only man who made him tempted enough to break his principles decided to force things...

Anurak, Let Me Love You

When Sud heard what happened, he was not within the school premises, and the boys had to wait for him to return the next day. Between then and Sud's return, Anurak had overthought things, but couldn't come up with a single way out. If everything Sud told him about the rich kids of Bangkok had anything to go by, Anurak knew that Sud might not be able to protect him. 


From what, exactly? Protect him from himself or from King? It wasn't like King would harm him, right? He was the one harming himself by liking a fellow man. At the same time, being King's friend could also mean being King's lap dog like Wan Lee and Smooth. He wasn't willing to do that either. Maybe he should just join Redhawk. That way, he could be King's friend from another Gang. No matter how he looked at it, he needed protection from himself, not the other way round. 


Anurak's night was restless and filled with self disgust 


You Don't Have A Choice