Eiharu thought he would never have to deal with the cruelty of other people by staying home. But he knows there is a limit to how long he can avoid his life and pretends everything is fine.

When those affect him in the past one by one show themselves, add to the guilt of pushing the few people he cares about from their happiness, and drive him to the corner once again. He just wants to live in his small world without anyone, yet the loneliness carved too deep in his heart, the uncomfortable stir shakes him to the core. He wants to run away, but where?

"Maybe... there is a specific reason why we meet again."

Eiharu pushes that hand away once. This time, he hesitates. He doesn't want to but he is too scared to accept it.

"I don't deserve someone like you."
"It's me to decide, not anyone else, not even you."

Aimless Drifting

Thank you for reading this story until now. I hope you enjoy what I’m trying to deliver! 


Man, I still can’t believe the dream I had when I was 15 years old finally came true after 15 years, haha! All these years, I never really thought that I could do it. Writing is one thing that I haven’t given up yet (unlike other things), and I’m glad I don’t, despite the thoughts. 


I’ve wanted to write this theme for a while, like trying to pour out my personal experience through Eiharu’s eyes. He is my literal manifestation. I’m awkward but always come as a rude talker, so it’s tough for me to socialize normally. When I thought about writing it down more than a decade ago, maybe I was simply inexperienced, or maybe I was too young to understand my struggles, so it didn’t come out as I wanted. And when I created Eiharu 5 years ago, I was like, ‘This is it! This is what I want!’ 


To be honest, knowing how short my attention span is, I didn’t plan to make this an actual novel. I dislike keeping a work in progress for too long, so I planned to make a short story with probably less than 10 chapters long. But I realized if I did that, there would be no conclusion. My friends and husband encouraged me to write it long enough until I was satisfied with the result, and it took me a while to have that courage, haha. 


Well, despite that, please remember that this is a work of fiction. The actual events don’t happen in my life (not this dramatic, I mean, haha!). Aside from Eiharu’s personality and traits that I chirped from myself, the rest is pure fiction. Any similarity happening in the real world is all coincidence, so it would help if you don’t kin yourself too much with the characters that exist in this book. 


Thank you for listening to my rambling! 


I hope you enjoy reading this story and keep supporting me. I pray for you all to always be happy, healthy, and rich!


Author's Note