All I wanted

All I wanted was to love you

I swear

I did love you

But,

You never seemed to show me the same

I would just shut up just so we could be at peace

I said okay to everything you asked

Even though,

It meant hurting myself

I did get the courage once to tell you about my feelings

But, it ended up with us fighting

Or more like you getting mad and me just bearing it

When I asked you what you loved about me

Your reply was a cold I hate everything about you

I don't like your behavior at all

But you did say that you liked the way I got sad when you got mad

I guess you liked my anxious attachment

You said I shouldn't argue back even if it meant losing my dignity

You never really liked me, did you?

You just liked my body and how I acted so simply around you,

Aka the way you wanted me to act

You acted all sweet in front of others

But, with me I saw you act somewhat differently

I admit you are sweet with me too but why do I always get to see your anger and not them?

Why do I get to see your dark side while you act so happy around others?

You never trusted me and always accused me of finding another while I was desperately missing you.

Trust me,

All I wanted was to love you but,

There's only so much that I can take....