17. Love is a B.I.T.C.H

Lily's eyes moved with the alertness of the bathroom door, her thoughts trundle through her brain like a through train, Just when she thought she's the master of her thoughts fate takes a new turn..., emotion and desire drove her into the destination she's trying so hard to avoid, that heating moment with Michael, the deep kisses, her moans and his manly body against her tender skin..., the bewitching thought threatening to burn through her all thorough...., suffocating her with its intense whispers..

She shook her head and try to focus her gaze on Tony while he was changing into his night clothes hoping with that act the thoughts will dislodge themselves but they didn't and there was nothing else she could do about it...

"I got new underwears yesterday, did you see them..?"Tony swing into her thoughts..

She exhale, getting an edge over her terrifying yet now-consesual thoughts..., they were horrible, basically reminding her of her almost infidelity yet they were the thoughts she now soothe comforts from, her thoughts are her greatest enemies and her best friend.....

"Did you..?"Tony asked again..

She allowed her eyes look daggers at him before replying...."No.."

"I kept them here.."

"Then find them.."

Not giving her a dignity of a reply, Tony returned his focus to the wardrobe, then the drawers...

"They're on the down drawers..."Lily crowl

"I thought you said you didn't know where they were.."Tony said looking back at her...

Lily frown, her thoughts once again taking the better of her..., suddenly she felt an intense surge of heat burning from underneath as her thoughts took waves into another dimension...

"I want sex Tony..."She blare out impetuously

Tony look askance at her..."Not this again Lily.."

Berseck bites at her stomach..."Am serious.."

Tony swallowed forcefully..."I know you are..."

"Then do it..."

"Do what..?"

"Fùck me..."

Tony exhales, his inability to do what she's asking flushing every part of his system...."I., i can't do it now..."

Lily's head swell with irritation and she quickly stood up to meet him, a finger distance between them....

"Please..."She coos..."Fùck me, fùck me in the ass if you want, i won't freak out.., please just fùck me, please Tony..."

"I..i can't...."He bit his lips..."I...

"Please...., fùck me anywhere.., my mouth, my ass, Wherever you want..., just fùck me...."

"Lily..."

She quickly loosen his towel from his waist baring him nàked, without time wasting, she crunched down to her knees and whoop...., she took his limp penis into her mouth.....

He flinch but she didn't let go of his penis..., she suck it desperately, pushing her mouth all way through his limp shaft.., she bubbled on it...

"Lily stop..."He groan pushing her head off of his limp penis..."Stop it..., can't you see am not even hard.."

Resentment washed across Lily's face, she stood from her knees and went back to the bed....

"What has gotten into you....?"Tony queried wrapping the towel back on his waist..

"It's funny you're asking me that..."She said faintly yet her voice was labelled with spite...

Tony took a deep breathe...."I cant do this with you right now okay..."

"I almost cheated..."Lily blare out

"What..!"

"Yeah you heard it.., i almost cheated.., i kissed a man, another man, he held me and my body almost exploded from the warmth, the desire to be fùcked overwhelmed me..,i..

"Stop..."Tony cut in..."You cheated..?"

"I said almost..."She returned exasperated...

"You just said you kissed him..."

"Oh you really trying to judge me when you pushed me to it..."

"I didn't do that..."

"You did more than that.."She growled standing up to meet him again..."Do you know how i felt to be hold by a man, to be kissed and almost fùcked to quench this raging fire lingering inside me..."

"No matter how you feel, it doesn't change the fact that you kissed another man.., i would never kiss another woman..."

"Of course you can't because you can't perform...., you really think you're a man...?"

"I don't have bulging breast and a pussy between my legs, so fùcking yes am a man.."

"Then prove you're a man..."Lily retorted...."Fùck me..."

"A man's sex life shouldn't measure his masculinity..."

"Then what should measure it....?"She groaned...."His excuses for not having sex with his wife...., you're fùcking pathetic...."

"You don't know what is going on with me...."

"Do you tell me....?"

He sigh..."I have something am struggling with okay...."

"What..HIV..?"

"No..."He said in revulsion...."It's something else..."

"Something like what..?"

"I can't tell you..."

"Why can't you tell me...?"

"Because i can't okay, am ashamed of it.., what do you think, am happy we aren't having sex, am happy you yell and rain insults on me all the time because i can't bang you like you want...."

"What is wrong with you Tony...?"She growled

He jut his chin, angry, he hit the wardrobe furiously with his hand before turning to face her again...."Am dealing with it..., when it's gone, i promise you we'll have the most amazing sex that hasn't been heard of..."

"What is wrong with you..?"She queried

"I can't tell you..."

"Why..?"

"I told you am ashamed of it, i can't bring myself to tell anyone..."

"First you said nothing was ever wrong with you, and now you said something is but you can't tell me..., sometimes i just feel like i don't know..., i don't even know you..."

"Baby..."He said holding her hands...."I swear, when am good, I'll fùck you nuts.., just trust me okay..."

"If you want me to trust you, you need to tell me what's going on with you.., what exactly are you struggling with, some form of disease...?"

He exhale, then he nodded...."But it's contained..."

"Contained, what do you even mean by that...?"

"It's complicated Lily..."

She huff..."Haven't you noticed, everything about us is complicated, i want to have my own children Tony..., i want to hold my kids and play with them..."

"We'll have our own kids okay..."

"When...?..., when you're cured from whatever the hell you're suffering from, who knows how long that will take...?"

"It won't be long, i promise.."

"I don't want to wait till you're 70 before i start having my kids.."

"70..!, menopause is what age..?"

She hissed..."You think this is funny....?"

"I've explained Lily why we aren't having sex Lily, what else do you want me to say..."

"You were okay to fùck me in the ass, you think i wouldn't have catch the disease if you had your way...?"

"I would have used a condom...."

"Then use a condom now..."

He heaved a deep sigh..."Lily..."

"I don't believe your bullshit..., you have no disease..."

"Am telling the truth..."

"Truth...!" She sniff...."You know nothing about truth..., if you do you would have told me you are incapable of having sex before we signed those ridiculous marriage papers..."

"I can have sex..."

"Yes, in the ass like homos do..., are you one...?"

"Lily..."He growled...."I've told you times without numbers, am not gay...."

"Well you don't have disease either..."

"I'll have sex with you okay..."He blare out, irritation slicing across his face...

"Stop saying that.., am tired of hearing it.."

"Okay fine, believe whatever you want..."

She swallowed, tears threatening to run from her eyes...."Am i not attractive enough...?"

He suck in..."You are..."

"Then what's the reason you aren't having sex with me...?"

"Jesus Lily, can you drop this now..."

"I won't drop it..."She shouted..."Because am tired okay...., i can't do this with you anymore.., i can't..."

Her breathe raise and fell in shallow waves before tears burst forth from her eyes, dropping beads through her cheeks....

"Am sorry, you had to go through this..."Tony mutter..

She didn't reply, she gave in to more tears and scurried off to the living room....

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Daisy woke up as if there was an emergency, as if sleeping had become a dangerous thing. Her heart beats fast and there was a buzzing in her brain and together they were as panic with jump-leads. Only now her brain is as a flat battery, the exertions of the previous day being a marathon of erratic problem-solving and finding a missing person..

She wipe her eyes clean and made a sluggish yawn before reaching for her phone to check if there is missed call, missed calls from Laura or anyone who must have see her and deem it fit to report..., God she's thinking silly odds and ends...

She narrowed her eyes with shock when she glance at her phone time and realized the time was past 9, God she must have over slept after wallowing on thoughts on where Laura might be all through the night....., she yawned again and stood from the bed, she stag-walked into the bathroom, she washed her face and walked back to the bed..., her hands wants to start the daily work but the rest of her body was still lagging from the sleep and needed more..., in response, she threw herself back into bed...

She sigh, more of resentment towards the person who was knocking on her room door...., she didn't want to answer, but he knocked louder, she furiously jump up, anger swimming inside her, she unlock the door with the key and yell directly at his face...."What do you want...?"

"And good morning to you too...."Matthew replied softly with a smile across his cheeks...

Daisy eyes lowered down to the tray of bread, tea and fried eggs he was holding, the aroma souring deep into her stomach...

"Ravishing breakfast for my girl..."Matthew added still keeping his smile...

Daisy frown...."Take your breakfast away Matthew...."

"Not a chance.."

She felt like punching him for having the guts to appear in front of her with a tray of his poison after his drama the previous day...."Bye asshole..."She chided almost shutting the door in his face...

"Daisy please.., am sorry..."He stated quickly before she had the chance to forcefully closed the door and shove the food on his face...

She heaved a low grunt..."Is this what you do now, offend me and try to make up with food, what do you think i am.., a food hedonist..."

"No, far from that, actually i thought bringing food to you in the bed will be romantic..."

She scoff..."Am not doing romantic with you you weasling annoying manwhore...".

"Jesus, what's your thing with the insults...?"

"What's your thing with annoying me...?"She fling back

"Annoying you...!..., you think bringing breakfast to you on bed is annoying you...?"

"Yes..."She retorted..."So take whatever poison you've prepared away.."

"We're rummies and lovers, if we aren't cool with each other, how can we be cool with others..."

"Point of correction bingo..., we aren't lovers, we're unwanted flatmates...."

"Are you refusing me entry to your room because you still hover over the fact that i banged someone else....?"

Daisy almost hissed at his statement...."Am refusing you entry cos you no longer have the right to enter into my room, nor do you have the right to attack me with breakfast every goddamn day..."

"It's not every goddamn day, it's just today..."

She frown with irritation...."Can you please stop bothering me..."

"You know i can't do that, you're too important to me...."

"You didn't consider me important when you pursued my friend..."

"You told her am jobless..."

"Aren't you...?"She groaned

"Daisy, you know what am going through..."

"Do i..?, cos i don't think so.."

"Am looking for a job okay..."

"Looking for a job or waiting for your sister to call you back..."

"She's my sister..."

"Then go to her sissy..."

"Am not a sissy..."

"Am done talking to you..."Daisy chided attempting to close the door..

"Listen to me goddamn it..."He yelled at her...."You can't keep treating me like some piece of shit, i banged another girl, i apologise, i took a blòwjob from another girl i apologise, i dropped a condom with a sperm on it on your bed to make you feel jealous because i am okay..., so please give me your ears when i talk..."

She waited, allowing his words to sink into her brain.....

"Go to hell..."She retorted and was about shutting the door but he force himself in and the door hit the tray and everything on it crashes, the hot tea and broken pieces of the tea cup splattering on their legs...

"Oh my God..."Daisy wince at the hotness of the tea against her skin.

"You see what you've done..."He groaned

Exasperation triggered her guts and she yelled directly at him...."Go away...."

"You really going to continue treating me like i matter no more to you...?"He queried

"You're nothing to me..."She yelled...."And you'll always be nothing..., so when i get you your money, i want you to get the hell out of my house and out of my life for good.., do you hear me, for good..."

"If i can't have you Daisy, no man will..."He growled

"Is that a threat...?"

"That's to show you how much i love you, if you leave me, I'll go crazy...."

"You're already crazy..."She chided, voice laced with spite...

"I mean it Daisy..., i love you, how else do you want me to explain it..."

"Leave me the hell alone Matthew..., i beg you in the name of any god you're serving, let me be..."

"I can't do that..., i want you"

"And i don't want you, can't you see..., i don't want you.."

"You will, just give me a chance to prove my love once more to you..."

Irritation triggered her guts...."I've given you more than enough chance, you blew them all up..., so i dumped your ass for good...."

He lean closer and touch her waist but she slapped his hand off..

"If you touch me again, I'll call the police..."She swear..

"And tell them what huh, that your boyfriend is touching you..."

She almost slapped him but decided to reach for her ringing phone unknowingly giving him the opportunity to step into her room..

"Am talking to you Daisy..."He groaned walking close to her...

Ignoring him, she pick her phone and stare at the unknown number calling her...

"Don't answer the call..."Matthew said infuriated

She glare at him before she dared to touch the answer button.....

"Hello..."She said

There was silence on the other end, when the person spoke up, her heart raced with unexpected joy...

"Laura...."She mutter.....

Pushed to his boiling point, Matthew snatched the phone from her ears and threw it on the bed.....

"I told you not to answer the damn call..."He snarled

Daisy look at the phone, then she turn to Matthew side like an enraged panther ready for destruction, a vein bulged in the back of her neck, rage in her eyes, she slapped him hard right across his face...., the hot slap resounding in his face over and over...