I'm embarrassed

I didn't want to meet this arrogant and egotistical prince but I had to. "So, you are sending me away because Prince Alexander is coming here?" 

My father nods. "But father... I LOVE HIM! DON'T SEND ME AWAY FROM HIM..." My heart dropped when those words came out of my mouth. I was supposed to say that I hated Prince Alexander. But instead, I had just confessed my attraction to him. I had to try to recover from this blunder. "But--I mean! I HATE him! He's arrogant and narcissistic and I don't want anything to do with him!" 

The King gave me a confused look. "You said that you love him and now you hate him? Please make up your mind, daughter." I panicked. I couldn't let out my true intentions so early in the game. I had to make him think that I really hated the prince. "Sorry, father. I-I don't know what took over me. I mean it. I HATE Prince Alexander." I was trying to not blush. I need to pretend to love him tho... 

"You are not convincing me, daughter. You can't even hide your blushing face. And I can tell that your heartbeat is increased." The king was a wise man. How had he caught me? I had to keep trying. "I--I just..." I was about to blurt out that I loved the prince, but I stopped myself. I didn't want to make this more obvious. "I-I... I... " 

I knew I had to pretend to love Prince Alexander. As long as I pretended, I'd be safe. I wouldn't be sent away to the woods in the royal cabin. And I wouldn't encounter Robert, who was her future lover. But I would also be playing with fire. It would be risky. "Do not worry, father! I LOVE the prince!" 

"So you are telling me that you really have fallen in love with the prince?" The king couldn't hide his surprise. I was doing exactly what I was supposed to. Everything was going as planned. "Y-Yes, father. I love him. I cannot imagine myself with anyone else but him." 

I let out a sigh. This was awkward. "Yes, father. I am in love with the enemy prince and I am willing to do anything to be with him." This situation was embarrassing. How could I say such things to my father? But I had no choice. I needed to act like I was actually in love with him. Otherwise, the ending wouldn't change. 

I was so consumed by trying to convince my father that I was really in love with Prince Alexander that I wasn't paying attention to my surroundings. As I turned my back to my father, I bumped into a tall man. I looked up at the man and immediately recognized him. It was Alexander! 

I froze, trying to process what was happening. I couldn't believe it. Alexander heard the whole conversation! He had heard me confess my love for him to my father. I felt my face burning with shame. It was utterly embarrassing. What was I going to do now? Should I try to talk to him or just pretend like I didn't see him? Pretending that i didn't see him its the best option. 

I felt completely humiliated. I wanted to run and hide somewhere. My face still burning with embarrassment, I tried to pretend like I hadn't seen Alexander, but he was standing in my direct way. I had to talk to him, so I didn't have a choice... 

I tried to keep a straight face as I looked at Alexander. I was so embarrassed, I couldn't look him in the eyes. Instead, my gaze fell to the floor, just trying to pretend like everything was normal. But it wasn't, and I knew it. Alexander had heard everything. 

My heart skipped a beat as I saw him approach my father. I was still embarrassed from our conversation, and I couldn't help it. I glanced at him from the corner of my eye and what i saw completely shocked me. He was so... handsome and charming. He was absolutely gorgeous. I had noticed him in the book, but I didn't realized just how handsome he actually was. My heartbeat started to race and my cheeks started to feel hot. Was I starting to have feelings for him...? 

And then... I lost my composure completely. I panicked and turned around and bolted away from the room, hoping to get away from my embarrassment. Was I really starting to have feelings for this prince who I was supposed to hate and prevent from becoming the tyrant... I didn't want those feelings to interfere with my mission to change the course of history. But at the same time, I couldn't stop myself. I kept thinking about him and his attractive appearance. I felt overwhelmed by all these emotions... 

I had locked myself in my room and was sitting on the floor, feeling like a dead bug. I was completely overwhelmed by all the emotions inside me. I didn't know what to feel. I was supposed to hate him and keep him from becoming the tyrant. But instead, I could feel my heart beating faster and my cheeks burning with a desire that I didn't want to acknowledge. 

Perhaps. It might be the only way to change the ending. Maybe if I showed him love and affection like he didn't get from his mother then he wouldn't turn to his dark side. I didn't want to take any risks though. If I gave too little love, I might fail to prevent the tyrant..... 

I realized that the book couldn't tell me everything. While I knew the main events in the story, I didn't know everything. The actual conversations between Alexander and my father weren't mentioned anywhere in the book. That was probably because the author hadn't been a witness to their interactions. So now, I didn't know what the king and prince were talking about. That was concerning... 

I had to assume that something went wrong. Maybe an argument had taken place? Or maybe Alexander's feelings were hurt by my father's rejection? It was possible that this was the case, and if it was then it could explain why Alexander would want to conquer my kingdom. But I didn't know for certain what happened between the king and the prince. I felt a little nervous because I wasn't prepared to face the potential consequences.