After me and Darius had...I couldn't sleep. I couldn't sleep all night. I just spent the night looking at Darius while finding my eyes stinging and my throating burning. The thought of what I'm about to do today makes my heart bleed. But remembering why I'm doing it gives me some courage. Too bad the courage I'm being given is the size of a pea.
Hours had gone by, but to me, it only felt like minutes. To the degree that once the sun had brightened up the sky, I had thought the lights were being turned on. This day couldn't have come any faster.
Getting out of bed, I don't leave Darius' side for even a moment. Further more, I made sure we partook in our activity before getting out of bed and while we were showering together.
I just wish that I could give myself to him body and soul without my mind being elsewhere.