chapter 13: sing my heart out

Next week Monday

So it was finally Monday. And I never thought I would be happy about Monday but I got my new offutt. And my patent boots. But I grabbed my black guitar and my blue one. My amp and my other stuff. But since I had to play at twelve thirty. But I got dressed and did my makeup and lipstick. And I told ghost, " hey kitty kitty. So I have to go out again today. I love you and I will be home soon okay." I gave her a hug and the cutest thing happened. She wrapped her little paws around my neck and it was so cute. But I set her down and left.

Once I got to my car I put my stuff in the back and when I got into the driver's seat I put in the CD for graveyard shift which is my second favorite album by motionless in white. But I listened to that and drove to the park.

It took a few minutes but I saw it was packed and I hope to god on the way home there is no traffic but I doubt my wish would come through. But I found a spot and grabbed all my stuff and headed over to the stage.

I saw so many people and there were a lot of crowds and a big one near the way I was walking. I felt a little nervous but I knew I had to, for my mom, my family, my friends, my future, and for myself. But I went over there and I saw this one lady she looked like in her mid to late thirties. But I asked, " excuse me do you know where I could find Diane?" She turned around and said, " I am her what can I do for you?" I replied, " hi I'm Haley. You said I had to be here by twelve thirty?"

She then said, " oh, yes. Hi sorry I have a lot on my mind. But you are a little early but early is on time so you can start to warm up and you will be able to play five songs. So do you know what your I think setlist would be?" I showed her a piece of paper. And it was the songs I would like to play.

Set list:

I won't break

Hell above

Puppets: motionless in white

Never let me go:we came as romans

Careless

She did seem a little curious, but she asked me, " okay so I take it two of the songs will be covers then the others are?" I replied, " the other three songs are ones I wrote." She was surprised but said, " okay. Well I will leave you to it then and good luck." I got out my guitar and started to practice. But it won't take me long to remember it. But I wanted to play the last songs for my mom, because I wanted to have a memory.

But after a few minutes Diane came back and told me, " okay Haley you're on. We have bigger speakers so we will only need a amp cord." I gave it to her and she said, " okay give us one moment. And then you are good." I nodded and I wanted to use my black shadow guitar first. But I adjusted the strap and walked over to the side.

I saw that Diane gave me a thumbs up and I walked on. I started to play I won't break. And people seemed like they were excited and I hope I was going to do okay. But I was going to sing my heart out.

But I wanted to mix the playlist so I played never let me go by we came as romans. This is my second favorite song by them. But I smiled through the whole way. And this time it was a true and real smile,

So I was happy but a little out of breath, " hi everyone, how's everyone doing?" People screamed and cheered. I smiled once again. Well I just had a big smile on my face. But I said, " that's good so my name is Haley and well this is my second week here in the beautiful Los Angeles. And well the first song I wrote when I was back in high school and how many know the amazing band we came as romans?" They cheered once again. " that's good. So this next one is another one back from my high school years. But it is called hell above. Hope you like it."

I started to play and I do know how to scream. It just takes a little bit out of me. But I was jumping up and down. And I had a amazing time. And my anxiety didn't get to me.But they were jumping up and down with me. And I felt like I was on top of the world and I couldn't give a care. But I just had a amazing time.

So the next song I said, " thank you. So this next song is from another amazing band, sing it if you know it." I started to play and it was amazing. And they were singing it with me, I felt like I was a good person. But I screamed my heart out. Haha. But I felt my problems go away. And well everything went away. I was in my world with no problems and I had a carefree moment. But this next song meant something very dear to me.

So I said, " okay thank you. So this next song I wrote back in 2017 and I wanted to write it in memory of my mom. Me and her never saw eye to eye but I loved her to death. So just keep them to your heart. And know they will always be there for you. So this next one is careless." I sang this song and I shed a few tears. I will be honest but I just thought about my mom and it made me happy I just wish she was here. I miss her so much.

So I finished and I was smiling but my tears went away. But I heard them cheer. And it was really good. But I said, " thank you everyone." I walked off and I was smiling but out of breath. And a few people I saw I thought I was insane. So I wasn't sure if they were on tour. But I went over to them and said, " uh, hi." They said hi back and I forgot how to use my words but he said, " you were really good. What's your name?"

I shyly said, " Haley." They smiled and said, " well it is good to meet you Haley." I smiled and I walked away. But I went to my car to put my stuff away. And I couldn't find my keys for ten minutes, " shit. Where the fuck are they?" I cursed. But I gonna,y found them in my back pocket. I think I need to go home.

But I got in my car and started it. And I did want to head home, one I am tired, two I have to play tomorrow at six so I am going to start having lack of sleep. But I guess I better start getting used to it. But I headed home and once I got in I went to my room and I was out.