ch.8: in my life again

So I checked my insta and it said someone is wanting to follow me. I have a private account. But I clicked on it and looked through, oh kill me now, it was Alexis, she was trying to follow me. I know I do not post barely anything, I have a. Different user account. And well I hit okay. And well then I got a text from an 815 number fuck my life, it read, " hi, so it's Alexis, I was wondering if you knew who is playing at the theater tonight. Thanks" I whined, " fuck my life right now." Cindy looked at me and asked, " why?" I showed her and she knows about my past along with Alesha. But she said, " text her back but don't tell her you are playing and see what happens." She has a point besides if they said I couldn't make it and I was just going to be a no chance person. Fuck them.

Tell Cindy asked, "so did you get your new tattoo?" I showed her my arm and she said, " sick." I laughed and well the rest of the night we were just watching horror movies and catching up. But I just found out something about Alesha and Cindy they are twins. And I now see it. Because they have the same personality. But different look. But well I went to bed early, since we had an early sound check.

Next day

So it was me being a zombie in the morning. And well I fell asleep on the couch. And how I found out was I had a blanket on me. I am a really heavy sleeper. So well the only thing to wake me up is. My alarm. That or no there is no or. But tonight I am going to see if Cindy was right, I have a weird feeling, that it is her. But well we will see tonight. And I have changed my look and appearance. I have two piercings two tattoos. Which will probably be spreading, my look and stay what's changed. I have changed for the best.

But we did sound check, and well our set tonight was going to be three songs off of the ep and a New Year's Day cover save me from myself. But tonight if it is her- I just got a text from the 815 number. And it said, " okay thanks Haley." Holy shit was I right. We got back in the RV and I said, " we were right. Iris her. And she is going tonight." We had an evil grin appear to our faces, and well I said, " killer looking offutt." They nodded and well I was going to wear the new corset. But well this offutt is going to be very different.

So. I got changed and curled my hair. But well I knew that tonight, I was going to try something different. But I did try to part my hair and do it in a. Elf braid. But well we went in the venue and I was ready for tonight.

One hour before the show

So we were talking and well I heard a few people talking and well I then heard someone ask, " does anyone know where I could find Haley?" I smirked a little, but I nodded to Alesha and she went over and said, " hi I'm Alesha, and you said you are looking for Haley?" She nodded and well she said, " well I can see if she is not busy." I went over and said, " Alesha it's okay. I will call if I need your help. Later." She left I said, " hi, I'm Haley. And you are?" She said, " I'm Alexis but you seem familiar?" I said, " I am not sure what you mean Alexis?"

She said, " wait what's your last name?" I acted dumb for a moment," ward" She said, " Haley, it's me Alexis, from when we were kids?" I said, " oh so that's why I got a weird text, hi. I'm Haley, or known as Haley legend." She looked at me up and down and said, " wow, you look different." I said, " I know And is that a bad thing?" She said, " I just didn't expect to see you this way. Are you staying for tonight's show?" I said, " yeah I am actually. Are you?" She nodded and I said, " listen I have to go. But enjoy the concert tonight I heard there is one new comer." I smirked and walked away.

And well tonight I am going to prove to that little fake Barbie doll. That I am a person with dreams to live and no one can hold me back.

Our set

So it was our set and well I was going to sing my freaking heart out but we got through the three songs, and I said, " thank you all. You guys are awesome and crazy. But I just want to say thanks to my friends and manager Alesha, and Cindy, and family back home. And thanks to the people that got me here, friends, my family, black veil brides, Juliet Simms, asking Alexandria, and Ronnie radke. Thanks but this last song is by a amazing band, New Year's Day. Sing it with me if you know it." I started to sing save me from myself.

After the set

So i thought that these people were really fun and crazy but a pit opened up and no one got hurt thank goodness. But i think that tonight i put her in her place. But i went to the back and someone tapped my shoulder, turned around to see alexis, she had tears in her eyes and she just slapped me, i didn't budge just laughed. And i said, " you do know i won't break alexis." she growled, " you turned on us. You left me. You left this family. You left your m_" i snapped at her and said, " you listen here alexis,. I am not going to sit here and listen to your

Bull shit lies, I have dealt with fourteen years of that. So if you wanna keep telling me. I won't tucking believe your lies, I will not stand here, and be a puppet, I cut the damn strings to set me free I opened my eyes to see the truth."

I felt fury and damn good confidence, I screamed, " Alexis I am not going be a damn lie anymore. I am an independent person, who doesn't need a fake liar, so now I suggest you get your scrawny ass out of here. Before you say anything else." She stared me in the eyes then punched me in the face I said, " Alesha hold my jacket." I gave it to her and said, " Alexis wrong fucking choice." I took a swing at her. And she and I broke into a fight.

Alesha's pov

So this is really bad, I tried to yell over the swearing, " Haley stop! Damnit." I saw her not stopping and they just kept fighting, and then I heard running footsteps. Juliet asked, " why are they fighting?" I said, " I will explain in a minute, can you go get a security guard I am going in."

Haley's pov

So I kept punching and she was week but threw a few good punches. And I kept screaming, " you are a plastic fake Alexis. Don't you understand the lies in your head!" She threw a punch at me and I heard her scream, " oh yeah, then why did you leave your mother?!" That's it. I threw the last punch which knocked the bitch out. And Alesha pulled me away, And asked, " what were you thinking?" I had no response except me inside my own head.

Alesha's pov

So she had no response. I growled, " fine, just go to the RV, and try to get cleaned up." She went back to the RV, and Andy asked, " what the hell happened here?" I sighed and said, " Haley kicked her fake ass." They had no response. And then I said, " Haley is more broken than you think."

Haley's pov

So I went back to the RV, and well once I got in there I went to the mini bathroom, and looked in the mirror to see a few bruises starting a busted lip, and a small red mark under my right eye. I grabbed my phone and started playing burn out by beartooth. And I cleaned up my cuts and bruises. And I just looked in the mirror and thought, ' this isn't me' I had to run away from my demons. And she was one of them, I did know that I will not back down from my own mind.

I listen to it half the time anyways. But I heard the door open and slam shut. Alesha called out, " Haley?" I kept quiet and she then came to the bathroom and knocked on the door, " Haley?" I said, " what do you want Alesha?" She said, " what happened back there?" I looked in the sink and saw the blood go down the drain.and I said, " she ruined my life. And my head was filled with damn lies." She gave me a hug and I said, " and the scars were from it to."

She just gave me a. Big hug and I said, " when does tour end?" She replied, " next week since it is December 5 we end why?" I replied, " well if I can I am going to get a ay for a few weeks okay? I need to stick to my roots and clear my head." She said, " okay. You are not vanishing off the face of the earth though right?" I laughed and said, " no. I just need to clear my head." She nodded and then I heard another knock on the door Cindy went to get it and well it was Andy, Juliet, Danny, Ben, and the lead from crown the empire,David. I walked out and said, " hi?" They kept silent then Andy said, " what happened with you and that one chick?" I sighed and said, " well I guess I should now say my past and what happened."

They nodded and So I said, " well my parents divorced when I was in the second grade so I have no idea how old I was, but well I didn't take it well, had to live with my mother, and well for fourteen damn years, she injected my heads with lies, and I believed them for a few years then opened my eyes. And the one chick that was here tonight, and that I got into a fight with, she and I were best friends since we were born. And well I moved in with my dad full time, when I was fourteen, and well that's when things went to shit."

I took a deep breath, " so I moved schools, finished high school at culver, and you seen the school. So I moved from Chesterton to culver. And we'll September went by, and the scarecrow festival came around. And I texted my mom that I got a peircings. She flipped and then she started saying more lies that I yell at her, say rude comments, and well I told her I am not going to keep talking unless you stop calling me out on these lies, so we didn't talk for so long each few months, and well that year was hell for me, where should I start?"

I sniffled, " I found out my mom had melanoma skin cancer that year, and it was at stage four. So I felt like a idiot. And the year before that I regret something that I wish I never did and well I called her a bitch. Even still today it kills me. But my friend Ashley ward committed suicide. And a few weeks after her death I kept having these dreams about her, and well on the third night of it. I woke up and saw a scratch on my leg. The dogs went by my grandma and also that year I lost my grandfather. And another thing is that when I was with my mom, she didn't tell me a week after his death so a week after my birthday. And well that year just sucked, but then it got kind of good, my dad and I went to see motionless in white here at the theater.

It was the end is here tour, that was really fun to go to but we froze our asses off. Well I did at least. But then it came along to summer I tried to visit my mom. And well every time I tried I barely got to see her since we went to a friends house. And well then I just stopped trying and gave up. So then my sophomore year came along and well my mom ended up in Paulo's heights hospital, then st Joseph and well then on hospice. And I tried to see her as much as I could-" I started to choke, but kept going, " and well I tried to do well in school, but well I could only think about my mom. And like how could I not She was on her deathbed.

But well the end of September came to an end and soon October, and I was ecstatic, for two reasons, the jigsaw movie came out and Halloween. But well this one night my dad and I went up to see my mom. And we saw Lisa, Sam, Alexis and Rachel. She moved back from Miami. And well we talked but that was the allays time I saw her." I felt tears fall down my face and I said, " so at 2:30 on Monday morning she passed away in her sleep." I couldn't help but cry my eyes out. Alesha and Cindy gave me a hug and I said, " and well my past is why I have scars. Physically and mentally."

So now they New and well I just wish we left on better terms. That I know for sure. But I wish I got to say goodbye.

Author's note: so this all is true, my entire past and life now. But well, this is true, my mom passed away this year, 10/9/17 I miss her so much, and well I know me and her bitched a lot but I loved her she was my mom. She was funny weird, sometimes annoying, but I loved her. And I still do. I always will. But she passed away at fifty years old. And I am fifteen but she had me in her mid late thirties. But the bad thing is that melanoma skin cancer runs in this family. So that is just great. But if I could see my mother one last time I would say I am sorry for the damage I have done.

So there was just no response and I just retreated back to my bunk. I mumbled, " the only thing I have left is the pillow and pillow case, and the stuffed animal. Just I wish you were here mom. I miss you."

Alesha's pov

So we all went outside and talked, " She is broken guys. So that is why she beat the shit out of Alexis." They looked down and said, " I think I know of a way to cheer her up?" I looked at him and said, " anything will work hopefully." He smirked and Juliet gave him his phone, i said, " I am so lost right now." She smirked and said, " just trust him." He said, " okay so I sent him the text and well now we have to do is wait."

I was so lost who the hell was he talking about. But we talked a little more and I heard a ding, and he checked it and said, " okay he said he can come after tour. And I think I can text them and see if they are not busy. If they are not on tour." Still have no fucking idea who they are talking about.

After tour: back home

Haley's pov

So I have been home for a week, and well I have been packing and well I got a plane ticket to the United Kingdom so I can look there for a while and well I believe download part two of it is going on. I am not sure, but well it is inside a venue so i am not sure what it is but I got a ticket there so well hopefully I can clear my head. But I started to zip up my bags and then I got a text message from Alesha and she said, " hey can you come to the park for a moment?"

I sighed texting back, " why do I have to?" She texted, " please it is going to be super duper fun." I texted, " fine. Be there in twenty." I sighed once again, and got dressed into this:

But I wore this and grabbed my purse keys phone and went to the park. Not really caring what she means that is fun.

Alesha's pov

So I told them she is going to be here in twenty, and well Andy texted Dee snider from twisted sister, and Remington from palaye royale. Inner fan girling of mine passed on to the and world. But I saw her car pull up and she came over with her bag. But she looked tired, Black eyes and her lip was healing thank god. But I walked over quick and gave her a hug she said, " no hugs." Yep she needs to get cheered up.

Haley's pov

So well I got to the park, and Alesha gave me a hug I said, " no hugs." I didn't feel in the hug mood today. So we went over and she said, " okay now I know that you still listen to a few classic bands. But well thanks to Andy he made a text and well, Haley meet Dee snider and palaye royale." My eyes popped out of my head I swear I was about to fucking cry, but I said, " excuse the inner fan girling of mine." I squealed and they just laughed, " do you know how hard it was to keep that in, when I first met you guys?"

So I said, " sorry but I'm Haley." They waved hi, " hi I'm Dee snider, and I heard you are a little signer huh?" I looked down and Alesha said, " Haley so help me if you keep looking down to the ground. I will duck tape your head to keep it straight." I laughed and said, " yeah and this is why you do not mess with me during October." I laughed evil for a minute she stepped away. But then the others said, " I'm Remington," " Sebastian." And "and im Emerson." I said, " hi." So then there was this fucking awkward silence, but to cut it off my phone rang, meaning my ringtone of immaculate misconception played, I said, " sorry."

I checked it really quick and well it was an unknown number I growled under my breath, " stupid unknown numbers." But I put it on mute and let it go to voicemail. But well Alesha said, " so Haley I think you should reconsider about running." I sighed and looked to her and said, " Alesha I just need time away alright. I think it might help." So I am going to the United Kingdom. But we talked a little more but I said my goodbyes and went back home and tomorrow at six in the morning I am flying to the U.K.