Transmigration of souls...

After my beloved, Lucian, was taken from me...

The divine god remained unsatisfied.

My eyes were brutally removed by my own father, my wings were torn from me, and my lover gave his life, offering his heart to them so that I might survive.

How could I continue to exist in such a state?...

Merely two days before, I had taken my own life, leaping from the celestial realm into the dark abyss.

But when I opened my eyes, I was still alive. The divine god stood before me. Was I in heaven?...

Heaven is the home of the divine god. And his servants, us, the angels, dwell in the celestial realm.

They refused to let me be...

"Your suffering has not yet ended, your sins are immeasurable, and now you dare to take your own life?" The voice echoed, deafening.

"You will pay for your sins eternally..."

Hearing the divine god's final words, I collapsed, and then I woke up.

I woke up in the same body, but in a different universe.

At first, I thought, is this their idea of punishment?

And yet, I considered, perhaps this is a blessing. I have been reborn, with two eyes and without wings.

Maybe in this universe, I could make everything right.

But oh, how mistaken I was.

I blinked a few times, the sensation of sight was wonderful. I looked around the room, a shabby bedroom. I stood up from the bed and opened the window to see small villages.

Am I on Earth?... There are humans everywhere. Maybe in this universe, I am human.

I stood up and saw a shattered mirror on the dirty floor. I picked up a broken piece and looked at my reflection. My long hair was gone, replaced by a short cut, yet my eyes, still gleaming with a golden hue, affirmed my celestial nature, for only angels possess such radiant eyes.

I am now on Earth, awakened from my slumber of death. Have I finally broken free from the control of the heavens above?...

Am I truly free from my suffering?...

I couldn't have been more wrong...

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"Lucian!" It was pouring rain, and we were stranded in the mountains.

It seemed that in this universe, my lover was also here. A few months had passed since my transmigration, and it's been weeks since I met Lucian here.

It seemed that his memories were wiped clean. I had begun to follow him when I first met him in the plaza.

He was also human in this universe, just like me, and that brought me joy.

He knew I was following him, I got caught. We talked, and a few days later we became friends.

But all those sweet moments were merely playthings for the divine gods, because my suffering was far from over.

Here I am, once again, holding the cold body of my lover...

In this universe, Lucian died because of a bandit attack. We were surrounded, robbed, and Lucian protected me, taking a fatal stab to the heart.

Deja Vu... Isn't it?...

"I...I know it's only been a few days since we met... But I never thought that the person who was stalking me in the plaza, would become this important to me..." Lucian spoke, coughing up blood with each word.

"N-no I don't want to lose you again.. Please, god, no.." I grabbed his hands, trembling.

Lucian gave a weak, warm smile and used all of his remaining energy to kiss me on the lips. He pulled away and rested his forehead on mine, whispering.

"I love you... In any universe, my heart will always yearn for you..." Lucian grabbed my hand, and the ring he gave me during our past life was still there. He kissed it before smiling.

"Y-you remembered?..." My eyes widened, and Lucian nodded.

"I'm glad we met again, my love... You're worth every sacrifice I made..."

Those were Lucian's last words in this universe.

As the rain poured, my tears mingled with the downpour. My anger at the divine god echoed the thunder, as I held his cold, lifeless body. Our past flooded back to me.

And I realized... The divine punishment was eternal...

After Lucian's death in that universe, I too died beside him on that desolate mountain. And once again, I woke up in a different universe, a new scene, a different story, and a changed version of myself. But the memories, the pain, and the heartache remained.

In each transmigration, whether it be a few days, months, or even years,

I inevitably cross paths with Lucian. But no matter how hard I try to rewrite our story, tragedy befalls us once more.

How much suffering must I endure?...

How many lifeless bodies of my beloved must I witness in order for this punishment to cease?

I am exhausted, drained from the weight of countless lifetimes.

All I desire is to surrender, to find solace in eternal slumber.

I have lost track of the years, the centuries, and the countless universes I have traversed. Yet, the pain and heartache persist, unyielding.

The plot always unfolds in the same manner: I awaken in a new universe, reunite with my love, only to face the inevitable choice of his demise or my own.

There was a time when Lucian didn't meet his end, when his heart belonged to another, and I was forgotten.

Have his memories of me completely faded away?...

Officially, I have endured 499 transmigrations, witnessed 469 lifeless bodies of Lucian, and the remaining of those deaths were mine to bear.

Will the 500th transmigration be the end of my torment?

Or must I endure countless more centuries, decades, and hundreds of transmigrations to finally break free from this cursed cycle?

Will my suffering ever find its end?...

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To be continued...