Last Misson

EP40

"Were you always the most fun?"

"I don't know."

Her deer-like eyes shine. 

I wonder why this scene came to mind. 

Maybe she already knew. 

That I don't have the courage to live on this earth again after my revenge is over. 

That when I'm done destroying others, I'll end up doing it to myself. 

I could have undone so much, I could have chosen. 

This is how I ended up. 

Many nights of anguish, but in the end, this is what it came down to. 

The pillar falls. 

It's coming closer and closer. 

I think that's when I added these words to Dahae. 

"I love you."

"...." 

"Why did you suddenly say that?"

She was so beautiful. 

I remember a page from her diary that the organizer handed me. 

A passage in it struck me so deeply. 

I feel like my body is collapsing. 

Everything goes back to the heart. 

Back to nature, to the heart. 

 Where are you?

 -Park Jung-min 

If someone watched my life

If someone saw me

Where are you

What did you do

Only after trampling everything

The world I made falls apart

Only after I smash everything

The illusion I created falls apart

If you've been watching me all along

If you had been watching me the whole time

What emotions would you have felt 

I wonder what kind of heart you would have felt

I am so cold

Save me, save me 

For every season was a suicide note

Now I stand in the sea of death

Forgive me for my insolence

Forgive my foolishness

And reveal yourself to me

and make hope manifest

To you

 -Park Jung-min 

You are so cruel and selfish

Don't be ridiculous

You've played me for a fool.

So many people are dying because of your opposition.

sacrificed to you.

countless human beings have taken their own lives. 

and you never once stopped them.

Are you afraid?

What are you so afraid of that you cower?

You are not a good being. 

"Is this all true?"

Park Gyuri barely nodded, looking horrified. 

"You don't mind if your name is made public?"

"Yes."

"Mr. Hwang Chul-woo, why did you give him away?"

"I don't know... He looked so lonely, like society had abandoned him."

"He looked like he was going to die if I didn't help him, so that's why."

"Did they tell you about the terrorism first?"

"I didn't really know about that. I just had a feeling that this guy was out to get some kind of revenge."

"I see. 

Park Kyuri reads Park Jung-min's suicide note at the press conference. She reads the last words.

"First of all, I'm really sorry for all the people who were affected by this terrorist attack."

"I'm also sorry for those who lost family members or acquaintances."

"I've never been happy in my life, I was born poor, I was born ugly, and I was raised by abusive adults."

"I've never been one of those people who overcomes everything and succeeds like the main character in a movie."

"When I thought about committing suicide on the street, it was 'revenge' that gave me the courage to live again."

"As an underdog, I worked out every day and used my brain to save up money to bully others and take revenge, but I was never told to kill the head of the ruling party - it had nothing to do with me."

"So I took revenge on them one after another, and gradually I started to get scared: Will I ever be able to go back to my normal life? "

"In the process of taking revenge, I. I became more and more of a monster, thinking about how to extort money more viciously and how to get them to listen only to me, and that led me to my destruction."

"I'm writing this suicide note because I don't want anyone else to make the same choice I did." 

"And for no other reason. Revenge doesn't always have to involve direct harm."

"Look at me, how ridiculous is it that I'm planning a group suicide because I'm afraid to go back to my normal life after retaliating against people who are really my enemies?"

"Of course, Choi Seon-mi's group is truly evil. Review the emails and materials I've prepared for you, you'll be appalled."

"Their honor should be sullied and fingered even in death. If you are thinking these thoughts, please keep them in mind."

"Those who fight monsters must be careful not to become monsters themselves in the fight. If we look into the abyss long enough, it will look into us."

"This concludes my letter from Earth."

Park Gyuri left out the last sentence.

"I miss you, my dear girlfriend, Dahae."

I became the protagonist of the biggest terrorist incident in South Korea's history. 

It ended up like this, but maybe I already knew it. 

The day the bomb went off, all the people at the daycare center who had been bullying me were killed, and Choi Sun-mi and Choi Sung-tae were killed. 

Kim Ji-hoon was smuggled to China because he confessed to my crimes. 

Kim Ji-hyun and Park Min-jae were also punished for their inability to lead normal lives due to drug addiction, and Woo Jin-yi shed deep tears at the funeral. 

This is the end of the story. There is no better or worse ending. 

Fortunately, the cheese seems to be in good hands with Chul Woo. 

And do you know what the biggest revolution is?

 If you're wondering why I've been so focused on the size of the bomb and the explosion, it's because the Samho Tire building hit the Bank of Korea. 

There was also a plan to terrorize the securities companies located underneath it and the people who run the various bonds. 

This plan worked very well, and within minutes of the attack 

Almost all computer systems in South Korea were shut down, customer information and property was stolen, and legislation was created to deal with it. 

There were copycat crimes all over the city claiming to be the next Park Chung-min. 

There was also a law against school violence, and because of all the things that were said about me, we became a country that actually practiced the death penalty again. 

They say more than 80 outstanding cases have been cleared. 

That's a good thing. How am I doing now? 

Well, I'm living happily every day with Dahae. Don't worry about me too much. 

If you're reading this and thinking about revenge, please put it down. 

Revenge is not so easy. 

Remember, when you break someone, you must be prepared to be broken yourself. 

To all the nerds and bullies out there, get stronger now. 

And be strong enough to never be looked down upon again. 

Our purpose is to defend our bodies and our minds. 

Strive, prepare, and triumph. 

Appendix, Final Words. 

'The Diary of Jung Dahae'

What kind of life has my lover lived, I can't even predict. 

His facial expressions and gestures are different from his peers. And strange words that come out of nowhere. He disappears suddenly. 

I like my brother like that. 

I want to follow him because he admits his imperfections. 

I also feel very sorry for him. 

I'm so sorry that I paid back my parents' light and paid their rent. 

I'll make it up to them later. I suddenly want to get married. 

I thought, "There is someone like this. When will I be able to talk about this? 

It's still too hard. I'm going to trust him one last time. 

Love, him. 

The day I confessed to the girl who worked at the bar.

I blame my diary for saying that if he hadn't accepted me, I would have lit a lightning bolt and ended it. 

The flowers and clouds are beautiful these days. 

I hope no one is watching this, right? 

I'm ashamed of myself.