Voice behind

Somewhere behind my head there is a small voice with powerful words that it feels like it is controlling me in a way,

This voice has always been there maybe stopping me doing the things,

I haven't had urges to travel,make friends,get outside it feels tiring,

They say it is more better not to,

Sometimes it questions me,questions that I hate that I can't answer,

This voice speaks everyday,it is a friend or a foe,

I can't fight with it in a way how can I, I am not capable of even doing,

This voice tells me to live a life that of shame