KHALI HIDDEN FEELINGS

Sometimes even the little things hurt , especially when there is alot of things you have kept in,

It's like a bomb that explore, everything burns , everything burns to ash, katie is more like a volcano that was boiling up for years. Keeping everything inside , despite having depression, she try her best to act normal to be calm , music is her medication for years . Being alone helps her ..

Katie leaned against the door , she squeeze her chest as she try to breath.

Sadness, Worthless, loveless, anxiousness, regrets, rage and even hate , she felt it all .

No.." [ heavily breathing ] no..." [ heart pounding]

. No. NO... Fuck " she scream with all the energy she had left .

Instead of meeting her friends after meeting Khali, she decided to go to a hotel , it was better that way . Having depression, she consider suicide but thinking of her mother she change her mind, but sometimes she still thinks of it.

But before she kicks the bucket she wants to be less ungrateful to her mother , the only one that was always there for her.

***

Back at the hospital.

In Khali office.

Steve sat back in his seat as he throws up a ball and catch it back , staring at his ceilings .

Just then Khali walks in, his hair is messy, his clothes is far way from neat. His eye's were a bit red.

He was so focused on his phone he didn't notice Steve.

Who is giving you so much stress ?" He questioned.

Huh ?" Khali giving him a questioning look

Why are you so stress ?" Steve questioned as he resume throwing up the ball

Kate is not picking up " Khali said worried and irritated for reasons unknow to Steve.

Mhm , didn't you went to see her earlier?" Steve questioned in a low voice with unreadable expression as he stare at the ceiling.

Yeah.. " Khali chuckle coldly"..but then " his voice drops " but then ... then she left " he says

Hmm.. tsk , tsk.. none of my business " Steve said as he got up.

Just as he reach the door Khali question him " When are you leaving ?"

" After the wedding "

Are you planning on talking to her ?" Khali question

Who ?" Steve questioned playing stupid , Khali felt the urge to kich some memories into his head but did otherwise ,he sat back and stare blankly at the ceiling

" You know who " Khali said , Steve turn his back to Khali.

Much has change , Khali, everything isn't as it was back then "

What the absolute fuck has change?" Khali question in a high voice as he stood up .

Everything " Steve mumbled

Exhale , inhale ] Khali try to calm himself down before saying .

You're the only one who has change "

Yes , i have and i don't expect you guys to stay the same forever " Steve mumbled before leaving .

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Later that day .

Katie pov

I got ready to head home , a place i called home , it looks like a home , it's a home , the only thing is - it doesn't feel like home. It doesn't feel like my home .

I make sure to put on extra makeup to hide my red eyes and pale face , I never needed it ,I only use it when i cry . Which i harely do.

I wore a black top and a leather black jeans .

After getting ready i pick up my phone and saw many missed calls and messages

20 calls from bestie and 6 messages

She wants to know - when I will be Available and then she wants me to answer her calls

She even curse , God have mercy on me when i talk to her ... I already know what to expect.

13 from Khali and 22 messages

He wants to know where i am , and pleaded asking me to answer his calls .

11 from MoM and 3 messages

- Katie honey , we are leaving now "

Are you coming ?"

You can call when you're ready too, if you feel like talking about it please contact me , i am worried about you " she pleaded in her text .

I decided to call her first .

Katie "

Yes , mom it's me ,am coming home now ,and please don't worry about me , am fine .

It's my job to worry about my kids " Mom said and I am grateful that I'm her daughter, but i.. I... I never said it ...

Mm, so then , see ya later " I said then hang up with a sigh.

I then called up Khali.

KATIE " he answered in a high, shock ,panic. Worried tone .

Yes , this is Katie Jackson how may i help you ?" I question.

Thank God " he sighed in relief.

Thank God .. what .. thank God am a live?" I question

Yes!!. Thank God you're alive , i have been wor...

Wait up. Who said am alive ?" I question

Katie now is not the time for that game " he said and I gigle remembering how much he hates it.

Am fine , and am leaving to go home " I said

Home ? . Which home ?" He questioned

In the village " I said and he sighed with relief.

Sorry for worrying you " i said in a low voice

It's okay , sometimes you need time alone to figure things out, you once told me that " he said and I sighed, yes i remember. It was when i first figure i had depression and it was the same time he confess his feelings.

It wasn't great timing " i said

Mmm , it was never a great timing

Am sorry " i apologize.

I know, why you needed time alone and i couldn't wait. SO that is on me " He said and I shake my head as it wasn't completely him.

But you were never going to choose me anyways, were you ?"" he mumbled and I nod again

Mmm.. but maybe... I would have. . Given you a chance " I said honestly.

Mmm" he hummed and my heart breaks.

I guess hurt people hurt people, Khali is someone i have hurt and he didn't deserve it.

I have to go , talk later " I said and he hummed again then mumbled" Take care kitty "

i hang up and dail Kel number.

Maybe i should dig my own grave a I'm sure if she kills me , she would probably throw me in the river .

Where in the F.ing place are you Katrina Jackson?" She questioned