Memories of the past
[ Plot armor ? ]
Don't worry about it...
Just a mistake of mine...
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Sigh
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Will we really be stuck 'here' for a whole month ?
[ Yes ]
[ As I have already told you ]
It's so shitty...
[ Just remember, it is entirely ( your ) fault if your thoughts are full of garbage ]
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[ "Wait... Aren't you technically talking about me... ?" ]
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Don't say that !
Aveline is not garbage !
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[ Unfortunately.... I'm not talking about her.... ]
[ Right now... If you look around... There's not even a thought about Miss. Aveline... ]
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What are you even saying ?
I'm sure they are h...e...r....e
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There's really nothing...
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[ I'm talking about ]
[ Those ]
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[ "Always thinking about me...." ]
[ "You're quite good at flattering...." ]
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What do you mean ?
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[ Well... I don't need eyes to see what's lurking here... ]
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[ Your fear and your insecurities ] I don't have any, at all.
[ Your suicidal thoughts ] There are none
[ Your worst nightmares ] You're imagining things...
[ I can feel them around you ]
Well, that's probably your imagination.... I'm at my best right now....
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[ Sigh... ]
[ I know they're not actually yours.. ]
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[ I'm not even talking to you anymore... ]
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[ "That's right !" ]
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[ Ethan... You should sleep for a bit ]
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Smack
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[ Why did you do that ? ]
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[ "Do what ?" ]
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[ Why do you want to control Ethan ? ]
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[ "Who knows ?..." ]
[ "Ehehe... "]
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[ "Oh... Wait... You DO realize you're also a puppet right ? ]
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[ Pff... ]
[ I'm Rahu... The god of Darkness... ]
[ Something I have created can't control me ]
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[ "Yeah !... That's pretty obvious !" ]
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[ "Then..." ]
[ "Why didn't you cancel the memory spell ?" ]
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[ Well... Because... ]
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[ "From the start, this was your(our) magic... ]
[ "It's normal to be able to modify or erase it...." ]
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[ "You know..." ]
[ "Ethan really trusted you" ]
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[ "Wait..." ]
[ "Did you ACTUALLY want me to devour him so much !" ]
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[ "Does this mean... That we're finally buddies.... AGAIN" ]
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[ We're N..O..Yeah ! ]
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[ "See ? I told you..." ]
[ "If you think about it... Didn't you act a bit weird back then..." ]
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[ "You were so enraged..." ]
[ "No... WE were enraged.." ]
[ "After all... I'm you ? ]
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[ Y...O...U... A...R....E... N...O....T... ]
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[ "Just stop resisting !" ]
[ "Why don't you just...." ]
[ "No.. I'm sure it wouldn't work..." ]
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[ "You know what..." ]
[ "Let's just dispose of anyone who's useless !" ]
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[ "Hmm..." ]
[ "All right ! " ]
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[ "First of all..."
[ "You kill Ethan..." ]
[ "Actually... You should first crash all of his hopes... And then... Yeah... You can pretty much make him despair so much he'll want to commit suicide again..." ]
[ "What's next... ?" ]
[ "Oh... How could I forget about Miss. Aveline..." ]
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[ "GRIN" ]
[ "Give her to someone who could share some 'love' with her" ]
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[ "Not Ethan's fake love... Something much more carnal.." ]
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[ Grit.. Grit...Grit... ]
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[ "Whoops !" ]
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[ GritGritGritGritGrit ]
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[ "Did I remind you of that other bitc-[ DO NOT CROSS THE LINE ]
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[ "How did you...? Well.. I'm still the one in-[ ???? ]
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[ You... Are MY creation... ]
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[ Didn't you say so yourself ? ]
[ Magic can BE erased... ]
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[ And so.... CAN you... ]
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[ DO not... Misunderstand my kindness.... ]
[ Because If you try to order to me such bullshit again... ]
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[ I'M GOING TO KILL YOU ]
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[ Got that ? ]
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[ "I..It's not like you can actually..." ]
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[ Sigh... ]
[ I've been too lenient with you... ]
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[ ????... I created you because I was scared of... ]
[ TIME ]
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[ That's why... Since you were given life from MY power... ]
[ You CAN'T handle loneliness... ]
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[ You're always looking for attention... ]
[ You're just a DOG ]
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[ So... How old was Ethan ? ]
[ 25 ?... Let's see... A round trip would be about.... 50 years ? ]
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[ I wanted to know about his past life anyway... ]
[ Maybe I'll even understand how he knows so much about this world... ]
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[ Well... ]
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[ Rewind ]
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[ "What ?" ]
[ "Your great plan was just watching Ethan memories in reverse ?" ]
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[ "Do you truly think It will do anything ?" ]
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[ I don't know... Why don't we try ? ]
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[ Also... ]
[ If you utter even a single word... ]
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[ You'll be completely erased from existence ]
[ Smile ]
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[ Finally... A bit of silence... ]
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[ Phew... ]
[ Should I write some kind of diary ? ]
[ I think It would help... ]
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[ Well... Let's hear what Ethan's life was all about... ]
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[ One year in ]
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[ To be honest... I think Ethan talked less than 20 times... ]
[ On top of that... In those occasions... He just expresses his will to die... ]
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[ He doesn't go out of his room... So... I still don't get much of this world society ]
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[ For some reason... Karma blocks information here and there... ]
[ I don't think I'll be able to get the knowledge I want... ]
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[ However... ]
[ It seems that he posses some kind of artifacts that don't require magic ]
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[ Among them... This 'phone' is the one I hear the most about ]
[ Apparently it sends written text to other people ]
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[ It's not like I can't do that with magic... ]
[ But the fact that I CAN do it without it... ]
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[ Smile ]
[ It's really intriguing ! ]
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[ Maybe I should spend time studying new things like this... ]
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[ Three years in ]
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[ Not much has changed... ]
[ I can just hear... Generally... More conversations... ]
[ But he's still stuck in his room ]
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[ To understand everything... I need to use magic to put the letters in the right order.... ]
[ My mind is almost going in reverse... ]
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[ And yet... Those sparkles of knowledge are really what return me to reality... ]
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[ I can't fathom how much I still don't know ! ]
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[ Five years in ]
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[ He finally left his room ]
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[ It seems he's going to... University ? ]
[ Translating every single word is taking a toll in my mind strength... ]
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[ Still... I'm happy that Ethan is studying so much ]
[ He is learning... And so am I ]
[ Every time he goes to his lessons... It feels like I'm with him ]
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[ Also... I finally understood all that grumble about Aveline being underage ! ]
[ How old is he ? ]
[ 20 ? ]
[ He isn't even considered an 'actual' adult, here ]
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[ At least... ]
[ Right now... He is seemingly happy ]
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[ However... ]
[ I don't understand... ]
[ I have already passed his shut-in phase ]
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[ When did he get... So depressed... As he was... ( In the future ) ? ]
[ I didn't hear anything that could have made him like that... ]
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[ Eight years in ]
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[ Humans in this world are too complicated ]
[ I can't comprehend... I really can't ]
[ Is he really happy ? ]
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[ I don't get it ! ]
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[ Is there something I can't understand if I don't see what's happening ? ]
[ This damned sight... ]
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[ Twelve years in ]
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[ His brother killed himself ]
[ I'm sure he has Blamed himself all this time... ]
[ But Then... ]
[ Why did it take him nine years to become a shut-in... ]
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[ I don't get it ! ]
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[ ARGH ! ]
[ This is so frustrating ! ]
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[ Even his 'joy' is fading ]
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[ But I don't know why ! ]
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( elttil a elims uoy t'nod yhW )
-Why don't you smile a little ?-
( ...I ...oN )
No... I...
( ! elims )
-Smile !-
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[ Wait... What Did I just hear... ]
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[ Yeah... His Smile... ]
[ Something I couldn't see... ]
[ Maybe... ]
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[ Fifteen years in ]
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[ His parents died during a fire ]
[ Like with your brother... You thought you were the one at fault... ]
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[ Something you couldn't control... ]
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[ Something you couldn't stop... ]
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[ You're stupid, Ethan ]
[ You remind me of myself ]
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[ Yeah... ]
[ The answer I so longed for was actually so simple... ]
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[ Your smile... ]
[ From the start... It was a ]
[ Fake... ]
[ A deceive, nothing more than that ]
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[ Who did you want to trick ? Others ? ]
[ No, Ethan, I know it was all meant for yourself ]
[ As time passed, your smile brightened, but your mental health... ]
[ It worsened... ]
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[ And one day... ]
[ You grew tired of the show you had put on... ]
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[ Ahaha... Ethan... ]
[ You're stronger than me ! ]
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[ At the very least... You tried to be happy... ]
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[ Instead... ]
[ I just accepted everything.... ]
[ I gave up so early... ]
[ I didn't have the will to resist.... ]
[ Yeah... I didn't....
[ Until you arrived here... ]
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[ I should probably stop here... ]
[ I have already seen what I needed... ]
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[ However... ]
[ I want to know about the parents you missed all your life... ]
[ I want to... Hear your real laugh... ]
[ I want you to be happy... Even if this is just a memory... ]
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[ Geez... ]
[ You're really troubling me... ]
[ Wasn't I scared of time ? ]
[ And yet... I'm sacrificing another ten years for you... ]
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[ Twenty years in ]
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[ Your parents were good people, nothing like mine ]
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[ I wish you could have just remained like you were right now ]
[ You had... ]
[ No suicidal thoughts ]
[ No depression ]
[ And... ]
[ A brother who cared for you ]
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[ What about mine ? ]
[ It was just one full of TRAITORS... ]
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[ ???? Is nowhere to be heard... ]
[ I guess those last five years... They're pretty useless... ]
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[ It's time to return... ]
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[ Rewind ]
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[ ( Fifteen ) years in ]
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[ Everything is in the right order.... ]
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[ Now that I have so much spare time... And that I don't need to be alert for every single one of the things I hear... I might as well create blue prints of this artifacts... ]
[ I need to imagine how they could be... ]
[ Well... It'll be worth it... Ethan could sell them... ]
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[ I'm also sure he'll be pretty happy to get something from his world... ]
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[ ( Twelve ) years in ]
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[ Your hardships... ]
[ They certainly hurt more now that I can hear everything directly... ]
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[ I would shed a tear or two for you... If I still had eyes... ]
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[ ( Eight ) years in ]
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[ ARGH ! ]
[ Why can't I get the hang of this phone-device ]
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[ Honestly... It's getting boring... ]
[ Sometimes... I feel the urge to speed things up... ]
[ But I remember It's punishment for ???? ]
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[ Yeah... I know you're still here ]
[ "...." ]
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[ "Grin" ]
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[ ( Five ) years in ]
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[ The knowledge of this university professors is really wide ]
[ I was able to finish my blueprint thanks to them ]
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[ I guess... I'll relax for a bit from now on... ]
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[ ( Three ) years in ]
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[ I just wanted to be sure... But there was really nothing that particularly brought you to become a shut-in ]
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[ It was just the result of a very long process... ]
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[ Well... You don't have to worry... ]
[ Because... My FRIEND... You now have a god that will help you... ]
[ Whenever you want, Wherever you will be ]
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-Tin-
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[ I can feel... Karma ? ]
[ Why now of all times ? ]
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[ Karma acquisition rate ]
[ Damien 99.6 % (-0.1%) ]
[ Ethan 0.4% (+0.1%) ]
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[ Something that might be important... ]
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[ No way... ]
[ Did I really rise his karma ? ]
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[ Well... Trying a second time won't hurt me... ]
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[ I'll help you Ethan, whenever you want, wherever you will be ]
...[ As expected nothing happened ]...
[ ...It would have been too easy... ]
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[ ( One ) year in ]
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[ I'm almost at the end... Ethan ]
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[ Because I've prevented you from waking up through mana control for so long... I'm worried there might be some side effects... ]
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[ We are in your imagination... So there really shouldn't be any problems... ]
[ Besides... You won't even notice anything... Time flows so slowly here... ]
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[ That just about a day should have passed in the real word... ]
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[ Zero years in... ]
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[ And that's the end of my mana-diary ]
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[ This forty years... They didn't even feel that long after all... ]
[ No... It might just be that my perception of time... as a God... Is a bit flawed... ]
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[ "Grin" ]
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[ Now... I'll finally 'release' you ]
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Yawn
It really happened a second time...
Honestly...I.. feel strangely light.
You know... Just as if a very heavy weight had just been lifted off my hearth...
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I'm loving this feeling !
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Did you power up "Unyielding Mind?"
[ I just... Scared... An intruder... ]
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Really ? I guess it won't happen anymore...
No...
I need to stay alert...
He might be lurking here somewhere...
[ Yeah... You should tell me if anything happens... ]
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[ "I think I'm forgetting something..." ]
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[ Oh, Right ]
[ I have a gift for you ! ]
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[ I'll send it to you trough teleportation magic ]
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I suddenly feel cheap for having used just an item box
I guess Darkness is better than light when talking about this !
Teleportation magic is much cooler.
By the way...
What is it?
[ The blueprint of a phone ! ]
How do you know about that ?
[ I'm a god, It's obvious that I'm knowledgeable ]
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"You weren't so much... A few days ago..."
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Anyway...
I was just wondering....
How am I gonna look at it ?
You know...
We still haven't returned to reality...
[ Ah ]
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[ Plot armor acquisition rate ]
[ Damien 99.6% ]
[ Ethan 0.4% ]