Chapter 5: The Realization

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 The fireworks continued on while we all sat down and enjoyed some cake. Mick, Ruby, Rudy (Short for Rudoph by the way, just realized it sounded like Ruby), Santa, Mrs. Klause, EB, and many, many, many snowmen that after witnessing such a spectacle actually did develop consciousness and were cheering it on. Oof, how many did I melt, I don't wanna think about that right now, I'll fix them up another day. Ahh, did I just promise myself something. Promises. I made a promise didn't I. It was to finish that article, and yet here I am, having fun, and stuck thinking about work I put off. That kind of puts a bittersweet note on this otherwise beautiful moment. That makes me think, Santa truly loves his son, but the son questioned that because he had broken his promise the previous year to be back for his birthday from his Halloween run. Whether it be from taking on to many things, or lacking the motivation to get started, breaking a promise is still breaking a promise. Doesn't matter if the intentions were good or not. Of course there are valid excuses. Let's go back to last night. I sat down ready to write, then I played on my phone, then I read a certain book. (Different from the person I pointed out last time, but that first person might still get it cause I told them stories, but the person this time who knows who they are knows what book I'm talking about.) Then I got to writing but I quickly got tired. It all stems from putting off what I can do know for later. It felt so good today, I was backed up against a wall and had no choice but to face it head on with my full focus. And look what I accomplished. It goes to show just how extraordinary a person can be when their passion and focus are combined to do something. I want to bring that energy to everything I do. I want to never be stuck in mediocrity of my own making. I will like life to its fullest with no regret, carpe diem. I'm going to be present here and have a great time, and go back and fulfill my promise to Mick. I smiled, knowing this wasn't just some words like any other time I tell myself I really will get to it after one more break. No. This felt different, it felt freeing. I know myself better than anyone else, and I know I can do whatever I put my heart too. I took a fork and took a bite of my cake. 

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