chapter eighteen

Ingrid pov

I went through the notes a couple of times already and it only says "" my sweet Ingrid if you get this I want you to know I love you, after my death your dad might go berserk but pls don't give up on him and stay close to Linda and above all live an happy life my dear,,,, mom "" I was supposed to be mad at Dad, cause I grew up with the believe that my tantrum and stubborness killed mom but he knew yet he was just too weak to accept it; I woke up very early in the morning and left to see aunt Linda which I needed to see her now, more than anything so I walk towards her room and knock at the door which she responded and asked me in.

I walked into the room and saw her lying on her bed and she motioned for me to climb on which I did and laid closer to her, I placed my head at her bosom and hugged her stomach while she placed her hand on my head and asked what happened; I started telling her everything from my experience in school and Rachel my friend also the boys James and Chris, which she listened to and after which she kissed my head and asked me what I wanted with them. Then I went silent for a couple of minutes; I mean I've never really thought about it with them cause I know I love James but Chris also holds a place in my heart which I can't refute too. She tapped my shoulder and I rose up and stared at her while she also rose up too and said, ** if you like the both of them why don't you face them and say it I mean your mom knew she was going to die yet she never stop loving you **, and she placed her hands on mine ** you are Ingrid my dear,,, so whatever decision you made stop running I mean you have a great friend** which made me smile ** and you have me here I'm always here for you ** after which I hugged her; and she patted my back like this was really nice and warm which I longed for.

After which she asked me if I would be going back now, which I replied not yet and she stared at me while I responded with ** let's go on long drive ** we drove through long distance around Maimi, after which we went home had dinner and I took my phone whilst switching it on after a long while, I saw a lot of messages from Rachel which warms my heart while scrolling down I also saw James message and I finally knew what to do.