Pain

I woke up and felt sick. So much for no morning sickness. I rushed into the bathroom and threw up for about thirty minutes. I brushed my teeth afterward and found Llloyd was still asleep. I looked at the time and saw it was only six in the morning. I groaned and climbed back into bed. Lloyd rolled over and wrapped his arms around me. "You okay?" He asked quietly.

"Morning sickness," I muttered.

"Probably happened because we said something."

I elbowed him. "Obviously."

He kissed the back of my neck. "I love you."

"If you love me then quit getting me pregnant," I grumped.

He chuckled. "I'll try not to."

I sighed. "I hope this one's a girl."

"Didn't you want the other two to be boys?"

"Yes, and I say we have enough boys, don't you think?"

"We could have more." I growled in response to that and he laughed. "Guess that's a no?"

I sighed and shook my head. "I really would be happy with either one. But I would like to have at least one girl."

He sighed. "Go back to sleep. You're going to need the rest."

I shut my eyes but sleep didn't come. I knew from the way Lloyd was breathing that he had fallen back to sleep. However, I'd only have to say his name to wake him up. He's too light of a sleeper. I debated doing just that but decided to let him sleep. I slipped out of bed and went to the kitchen to make some tea. I had just sat down when Nya came in. "He's driving me nuts!" Nya growled.

Good. Talking to Nya would get my mind off certain things. "What'd Jay do this time?"

"This time?!? He's still refusing kids!!!" She paused. "I thought your husband was supposed to talk to him about that?"

I made a face. "My husband did but recent events are distracting him."

She sat across from me. "Which one? The third pregnancy or the ex-boyfriend?"

I grimaced. "Let's not talk about Adder, okay?"

"Hmm, I bet Lloyd's upset now that has a rival."

I glared. "He has no rival. I hate Adder and I always will. I love Lloyd."

"What about the other Lloyd?"

"He has his Y/n to be with," I said firmly.

Nya looked at me. "What are you going to do if Lloyd dies?"

I flinched. "He won't. I won't let him."

"Are you just going to raise three kids by yourself?" She continued ignoring me. "One always asking about their Dad? While the other kids are crying because they miss him? Or..."

"Shut up, Nya," I snapped standing up. "Lloyd won't die because I'll always be there to heal him. As for the kids, they'll never be without a Dad."

"Y/n, you have to think about this," Nya said. "Just in case."

"Do you think about what you would do if Jay died?" I bit out. 

She grimaced. "Well..."

"No, you don't. So why are you trying to do it to me?"

"Because I'm not the one who always has people going after me!"

I stepped back as pain washed through me. "Do you think I want people to keep coming after me and my family? There's nothing I can do to stop it!"

"Yes, there is! Just go to the people!"

I stared at her, shocked. Did she really mean that? I thought she was my friend. My eyes filled with tears and I ran out of the room. I ran all the way outside and was about to leave when arms caught me from behind. "Let me go," I said weeping.

"What happened?" My husband demanded. "Why are you crying?"

"Nothing," I said trying to squirm out of his arms.

He turned me around and pinned me against the wall. "Y/n, what happened?" He repeated.

I buried my head against Lloyd's shoulder. Lloyd would yell at Nya if I told him what she said. "Nothing," I said trying to force calm into my voice. Not working. He could see around it. 

"Y/n," Lloyd growled. I could tell his tail was whipping through the air. 

I shook my head. "Lloyd, I can't. If I do, you'll yell at her."

"Who, Y/n?"

"Nya," I mumbled.

"What did she say?" He asked sharply.

"She kept talking about how you could die, how I would have to raise three kids by myself, and how I keep bringing danger into our family." My voice broke on the last word and I began weeping again.

His grip on me tightened. "Y/n, look at me." I didn't. "Y/n," Lloyd growled. I looked at him two minutes later. "I will always be by your side. You will never have to raise our kids by yourself. And as for the danger, Y/n, the danger would come to us even if these people weren't after you."

I shook my head. "Lloyd, it's all my fault that we're all in danger," I whispered. "Liam, Loro, and now Adder. I'm sure your lives would be peaceful without me here. I should leave."

He shook his head. "No. Life is perfect with you here. If you leave, I'll find you and drag you back." He kissed me fiercely. "Stay with me," he whispered resting his forehead against mine.

"But..." 

His arms slid around my waist. "Y/n, I feel whole when you're around. When you aren't it feels like a part of me is missing. Please, don't leave."

My eyes fell shut. "I feel whole when you're around too," I admitted softly. "But the danger that I'm putting you and the kids in..."

"We have the other Ninja with us," he interrupted. "We have a dragon. Need I say more?"

My mouth twitched. "Well..."

"Ken can hear people's thoughts from thirty miles away. So we'll have a warning if Adder comes for you."

I frowned. "I don't like using our son as an alarm."

Lloyd shrugged. "It was his idea."

I poked him. "You're his dad. You have the power to say no."

He smiled faintly. "I'm the good guy and you're the bad guy."

I scowled. "Who says?"

"Me."

I laughed. "Hmm, but you have to listen to me. So I say no to that rule."

He gave me a mock scowl. "What are you going to do about it?" I kissed him until he pulled back with a groan. "Manipulator."

I snickered. "Not my fault my charms are irresistible to you."

He kissed me gently. "Does this mean you'll stay?"

I bit my lip. "Okay. I'll stay. But no more keeping me out of the act..." I paused when I saw his eyes narrow. "Fine. I won't fight but at least tell me what's been going on. That way I can help you plan. Deal?"

Lloyd thought about it. "Deal." He held onto each other for a minute then he started walking away. 

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"To yell at our water ninja," he replied and went inside.

I sighed. If I went after him he'd still go yell at her. Might as well just let it happen instead of delaying it. I sat down with my back against the wall and shut my eyes. Life is always going to suck for me. You'd think I'd be used to it by now.