Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you ever think about me?
Do you ever regret choosing to go
Live your life without me?
Do you ever sit and think like:
"Damn...I really fucked that dude's life up..."
Does it keep you up at night
Or do you really just not give a fuck?
How could you make me feel like
I was the only one you ever needed?
Showcasing your love while knowing
That I would never receive it...
I was wide open
While you kept
All of your love at bay.
There was nothing I could say
To keep you here
To make you want to stay.
And...
I thought we had an understanding of what was to be,
But little did I know, you never planned on keeping plans with me...
I can't imagine how anyone could be so fucking selfish.
Took all of my affection, bottled it up, and fucked shelved it...
You never wanted it, someone else could have fucking held it.
I wish I never loved you, but lord knows I couldn't fucking help it...
You left with the Summer wind.
Fall turned into Winter
I never would see your face again.
And...
If I could go back to then
I probably wouldn't let you in.
I dropped all of my defenses
Subconsciously, I let you win.