You've triggered the Capricorn curse...
Once I love, I can't love in reverse.
All of my hate is reserved for the hearse.
So much given can't be reimbursed...
Sell me the milk
I'm not looking for honey...
Some women just want men who have money.
Show me your heart
Why bother hide if from me?
I'll submit if you try not to run me.
All of the things that I feel are too deep.
You try to ride along but can't take a seat.
Too many nights alone, I find it hard to sleep.
Just lonely or alone? Which is haunting me?
You say that I'm broken and sad
But I think I'm a puzzle that's just missing pieces...
I smoke
And I float
And I laugh
And I joke
Because without you I feel incompleted.
I never gave it up on our dreams
I just needed some space
So I fucking retreated...
I had to rip all of you off
Like old tattoos
Battle scars
That's far from what I needed...
You never really saw how I bleeded.
Didn't think about what I needed.
There seemed to be little that I could do
That wouldn't remind you
Of something that he did...
I was honest
Vulnerable.
Defeated.
She wasn't accountable for what she did.
All of the pain and animosity could be avoid if I could just see it.
You listened in
But you didn't read it.
To many fears
You never believed it.
And none of it matters in the long run because all of your actions are covered in reasons.
All the little things that you did
Yeah they hurt
And they hurt
And they hurt
Till they didn't...
I tried to be loves loving proof
Wasn't enough for you
Even when I repented.
I know that I did some dumb shit you resented.
But you don't forgive, your view of me is tented.
I feel like the love that you gave was just rented.
It all felt so real, till the real was presented...
And.
I don't know what it is about, all of it
None of it fits
But it all snaps
Together.
For some reason I just got to used to the storms that you bring
I loved inclement weather...