Death and Rebirth

DEATH

"I'm sorry, Raph. I wish there's a way to change this but I just can't stop my heart from wanting what it wants. Please forgive me." A man with buzzcut hair said with a fake remorse on his face that the other man can clearly see it but didn't say anything about it.

"Why? Tell me exactly why?" The man called Raph asked with sadness in his voice.

"Because I don't love you. Yes, you are my mate but I never love you and never will love you." The man said straight to Raph.

"That's all? We can go to the Moon Goddess temple and break our bond if that's why. I'm fine and I understand. How can a man be with another man so easily right?" Raph said with trembling voice as tears threaten to fall down to his cheeks.

"No. It can't be that way because I love Isabel and she will forever be haunt by the fact that my ex-mate is our future Alpha and I don't wish to see you live for one more day." The man'a words bring confusion to Raph as it sound like he doesn't want him to live anymore.

"What are you-"

"I'm sorry but I will never be able to be Alpha for as long as you're alive. Goodbye, Raphael Holt." With those words, Raphael felt pain on his stomach. He tried to mind link his wolf but to no use.

"It's useless to try talk to your wolf. I went to a great length to get the most potent wolfsbane and potion from witch to prevent from you shift and eventually kill your wolf along with you." The man said smugly as he turned around before continue again. "Oh there are some friends that really wish to play with you. You will entertain them until your last breath right?" The man laughed maniacally as he walked away and few rogue wolves started to surrounding him.

"F**k you, Clark Austins! I will never forgive you. Never!" He screamed with all his might only to be ignore by that man.

"Stay the f**k away from me, you motherf**king sh*ts." He tried to fight back but whatever laced on that blade was truly potent as he couldn't shift and his strength slowly diminished.

The moment the rogues noticed him getting slower and weaker, one of them lunged towards him and hold him down tight. With that, he was raped by them with no mercy for hours. He refused to let his life ends like this but every time he felt his strength is returning, the rogue stabbed him again. It was truly a torture for him. For days in and days out, he had to endured such torture until come a day when he knows will be the end of his life. His strength never come back and his wolf, Nikolai never return. This is definitely the end of the line for his life. A life that supposed to be the best life but he was betrayed and left to die by the very person he trusted with his whole life.

Raphael: Dear Moon Goddess, if you still not abandon me, please don't let this be the end of me. Please give me a second chance. This can't be the end. I refused to let Clark Austins have all that supposed to be mine. I don't care about me for as long as I get a second chance in life and avenge myself. I will destroy everything he have if that is the last things I will ever do in my life. So, please dear Moon Goddess, don't let me die.

With those words, everything started to get dark and quiet for he knows this is finally the end of his life. He shed his tears as all the pain and regrets consuming his entire being.

REBIRTH

He walked and walked until his feet felt numb. His life was nothing as series of misfortune. He was supposed to be a Beta for his pack but because of power shift in his packs, he was exiled for no good reason. Though he knows it was because he was an orphan. How can an orphan with traitorous background be the Beta of a pack. He was so tired of everything and wishes to end everything. So, he did everything he can to get his hand on the very thing that will help him end his unfortunate life for good. Once he found a place that he deemed is good as his eternal resting place, he sat with his back leaned at the base of the big tree and bring out a syringe that fill with unknown substance.

"Goodbye, cruel world. I'm done trying." He said as he injected himself with the substance and began to curled his body as the pain spreading throughout his body and darkness consuming his sight.

Raphael POV:

My ears caught some rustling sound nearby but my body just won't move. It felt numb and too pain. Not to mention, I feel thirsty as h*ll.

"Please don't tell me that I'm still alive and that is those f**king rouges." I said to myself since there's no wolf for me to talk with.

"Oh dear Goddess! You're alive! Thank goodness you're alive!" I was so shocked that I can felt my body jolt the moment I heard the voice. It can't be Nikolai because the way he behave is way too different.

"Mikael, are you ignoring me?" The voice said to who I think is me since it's inside of my head.

"Wait, you're not Mikael! What did you do to him?! Who are you?! I will kill you!" Hearing the aggressiveness in the voice, I can guess that it's a wolf. The wolf to a guy named Mikael. It's been so long since I heard a wolf in my head after those rogues keep injecting me with wolfsbane and potion.

"Sorry, wolf. I'm not Mikael. I don't know how but I'm Raphael Holt. I was supposed to be dead but somehow, I guess Moon Goddess listened to my pleas and gave me a second chance of life through this guy you called Mikael." I said as calm as possible to soothe the wolf sadness who howl loudly and I understand how it felt to lose someone who was with you your whole life.

"Don't be sad. I'm here for you. Beside, I lost my wolf in my previous life. I miss Nikolai. I never get the chance to say goodbye to him." I told the wolf about Nikolai and sadness begin to consume me.

"I'm sorry. Please don't be sad too. Raphael, I'm Kyle. I guess Mikael really give up with his life. If not, this would never happened. I really thought I was gonna die earlier." Kyle whining as he told me what Mikael might have done.

I cut the mind link as I heard footsteps getting closer to me. I really hope that wasn't those f**king rouges.

"We should take him back with us." A man voice suggested to another person and I assume there's also wolves too.

"No! Alec, you always bring back whatever you found. You brought home strangers a lot." Another man argued with the one named Alec.

"Well, we can't exactly leave him here. Look at him. He's hurt. We should take him to the pack's hospital." Alec said with serious tone in his voice.

"No! We can't but you're just gonna ignore me right?" The other guy said with annoyance clearly heard in his voice.

"Yup!" Alec said simple as I felt hands on my waist and shoulders.

I grunts a little as I felt the pain in my whole body. I can feel the man that holding was surprised to hear me. As I'm too weak to do anything, I let them take me wherever they want. It might not be as bad as back with those f**king rouges. We walked for a good an hour or so. I'm not so sure before we stopped in front of someplace. I couldn't open my eyes as the pain was too much for me to endure.

Alec: Doc, help him. We found him by the forest. He seems to be poisoned but that's just my guess.

Doctor: Alec Colt, you bring back stranger again! You need to stop that. Chris, you should've stop him!

Chris: I tried but he won't listen to me. I will tell the Beta about this man. So, please treat him. We will be back to check on him later.

Doctor: Let see. Just what happened to you.

I fell into deep sleep as soon as realized it was safe now for me to relax. Even Kyle told me that it's okay for me to rest. Beside, whatever that doctor do is making the pain become lesser and that's good for me.

It felt like eternity when I finally able to open my eyes and saw few unfamiliar faces in front of me. They were staring at me and making me feel very uncomfortable.

Doctor: Give the man some space. You're making him feel uncomfortable with those stares. How are you feeling now? Better?

I nodded my head slow as I still feel woozy and disoriented.

Doctor: Do you remember your name?

I shook my head which is a lie as I remember who I am perfectly as well as my memories as Raphael before.

"Why are you lying to the good doctor? You do remember your name. It's Mikael or Raphael. Which one should I call you?" Kyle mind link me with worries as to why I have to lied like that.

"I don't trust them. Not yet that is. Until I'm sure I'm safe, we're safe to be around them, I don't want to tell them anything yet. You can just call me Mikael as that's what this body belongs to right? Beside, Raphael is dead as far as I'm concerned." I replied to Kyle who whined and showing protest by cutting our mind link and went into silence. I'm fine with it as I used to not talking to my wolf after Clark left me to die.

Doctor: It appears that he might have lost some memories. Probably a side effect from having too much wolfsbane in his system. I'm impressed by how he was able to survive that much wolfsbane in his blood. It was enough to kill a person actually.

I was shocked to hear what the doctor said. This guy, this Mikael tried to kill himself with a lot of wolfsbane while I was murdered slowly by it. What a twist of fate there.

Raphael: Can I have some water?

Doctor: Sure. You must be very thirsty. Alec, give him some water instead of staring at his face. I know he's handsome but there's no need to stare at him like that.

Alec: Doc, there's no need to say that. Here, drink it all.

I nodded as I took the glass of water from his hand. It was refreshing as the water run through my throat and lungs. I feel so much better now.

Doctor: Chris, where's the Beta? Shouldn't he come and check on this fellow here?

Chris: He's on the way here. He was just done informing the Alpha about this man.

I stared back at Alec, the guy with curly long hair that tied into ponytail with bubbly look face who still keep on staring at me as I listened to what Chris, the guy with spiky dark brown hair with deep dimple on his cheeks. He looked away only when the door to my room opened and a man with dark skinned and short brown hair with greenish eyes entered. I can tell that he's not your ordinary wolf.

Doctor: Beta Blake! Finally, you're here. This is the man that Alec brought from the forest. He lost his memories for now. Probably side effect from too much wolfsbane in his system. Oh you're alone? Where's the Alpha?

Blake: He's preoccupied with the Alphas from Crimson Blood pack and Blood Moon pack. Those two packs went some crazy sh*t and it's making our pitiful Alpha so stress. I wish his mate is here for him to feel better because only his mate whoever that is that can make him feel better with their scent only.

I listened to the Beta words and wonder what kind of person the Alpha is until I heard the packs name and that makes my head feel so painful as if it's been hit hard by a stone. Suddenly, all sort of memories come pouring in my head along with the headache. I couldn't contain the pain that I screamed my heart out. I don't care the looks they gave me as I am in too much pain right now

Doctor: Hold him tight. I will give me sedative to calm him down.

Blake: Hold his legs. I'll hold his body.

I could feel the prick of the needle on my skin before everything started to get blurry and the pain ceased.

"Kyle, I just got Mikael's memories. No wonder this guy wants to die. He had to watch his whole family killed in front of him branded as traitors and exiled. All because of power. I will make them pay for what they've done." I yelled at Kyle as soon as my senses back to normal again.

"It's all because that stupid Alpha listened to the neighbouring Alpha to make that Alpha's mate's family the Beta. Me and Mikael was supposed to be The Beta. Not that half-assed wolf." Kyle whining about it.

"I will make them pay. All of them. Both Crimson Blood and Blood Moon will pay for what they did. I will destroyed them." I vowed to Kyle if that's the last thing I will do in this life.

"Why both packs? Mikael is from Crimson Blood." Kyle asked with confusion in his voice.

"Blood Moon was my pack before I died, before Raphael was killed. I will make their life a living hell with my own two hands." My desire to destroy them and get my revenge just got stronger now I have more reason to do it.

I will avenge both of us. Both me and Mikael lost our future because of people's greed. I will make them pay.

"Kyle, I smelled something nice." I mind link Kyle when a whiff of Vanilla and Musk came into my nose. It was very soothing and calming to my soul.

"I think that's our mate's scent. Mikael, our mate is here in this hospital. He's a part of this pack. This is fate!" Kyle said giddily as he howls and I can sense him wagging his tail with joy for his mate, our mate is close by.

My heart skipped a bit the moment the door opened wide all of a sudden. A man with short black hair, bluish gray eyes and quite muscular body came into the room looking tired and panting and trying to catch his breath.

Blake: Oh my goddess, Caleb. What makes you run here? There's no need to rush. This guy ain't going anywhere in his condition.

Caleb: Where is he? Move aside.

I stared at the man called Caleb as he makes his way towards me. My heart skipped a beat again when he's standing right in front of me. My head feel heavy all of a sudden.

Raphael/Caleb: Mate!

With that word out of my mouth, I fell into the darkness and lost my consciousness.