For 16 years I've been pretty much living a horrible life.
Home life- I would go home to my father and my brother Theo. My mother died when I was 9 of suicide she was diagnosed with depression people don't know but me and my brother know. Father would accuse mother of cheating and would beat her so she was found by a nearby body of water. She drowned herself. Ever since her death, my father would take his anger out on Me and Theo. He was only 14 and I was 9. Once I came home after school was over the sight of me coming home happy and laughing with Theo angered him so we were both beaten. As we got older Theo would go out more but he would take me out to hang out whenever he had the chance. That chance would be while my dad was passed out drunk. But one day he never came back leaving me alone.
Back to the present at school, I had no friends, and my grades were not bad. I isolated myself because the thought of socializing with others made me feel nervous thinking they would judge me. I would stay away from home as much as possible but would come home around later in the night before anything could happen to me. I used school as an excuse to stay away from home as much as I could saying I would go for extra help. It was one of my escapes from that monster.
I fell asleep as soon as I reached my bed and started dreaming. In the dream, I wore a silky deep cherry dress with little diamonds connected from the top of the dress. It was beautiful. "They're waiting for you, you've grown up to be a beautiful young girl," said my mother. "HEY CIEL LET'S GO!" called Theo hurrying her. I felt emotional and rushed to the car with more people waiting for me. As soon as I woke up I realized it was a dream, I wanted to keep sleeping but I woke up to the sound of banging on my door. "WHAT DO YOU WANT?" I yelled. "YOU BETTER LOWER YOUR TONE BEFORE I GET IN THERE. GO TO THE STORE AND BUY ME SOME CIGARETTES" he yelled back. "DO IT YOURSELF" I said. At that moment I wanted to take back what I said.
SLAP "LISTEN WHILE YOU'RE UNDER MY ROOF YOU WILL DO AS I SAY YOU UNGRATEFUL GIRL!!" he yelled "Tsk no different that Theo.."
l ran out of the house sobbing thinking about how much I missed Theo and my Mother I walked around the town and sat under the tree and picked up a blooming dandelion while it was still white and fluffy I blew it"I wish I could live a better life than what I have now." Thinking of the dream that I had earlier with the faces of some that were blurred. I don't wanna go back to him and I don't know how to find Theo. This bruise on my face hurts like hell, I wonder what I'll do when I head to school tomorrow. Looking at the clock I waited till it was eleven PM and snuck back in. I Cleaned up my face patched up my bruise and headed to bed.