School

"one more year left one more," I tell myself as I snooze off on my desk.

"Ciel! What is the answer to number 1!" asked Mr. Ross "Sheila wake Ciel up"

"Hey, wake up girl he's asking you the question to number 1" She showed me the answer to the question it was F

"It's F sir" I responded 

"And can you explain to me why it's answer F Miss Erser?" he asked with a raised eyebrow.

"I-I don't know I guessed" I stammered

"You should have been paying attention then, meet me after class," he said sternly

I hunched back on my desk feeling so embarrassed right there and then I wanted to die so bad

"Psst are you okay that bandage on your face seems serious what happened" whispered the girl next to me"

I was shocked someone asked about me since I literally have 0 friends. Oh my gosh, does she think I'm weird? Dumb? do I look weird because of this bruise? Is she gonna make fun of me" I started panicking going into cold sweat. I stayed quiet for a while making up an excuse and quickly found one "Ermm I was rushing home and hit my face while bumping into a pole" I replied.

"woah you're clumsy for that you gotta watch where you're going... Ciel that's your name right?" 

"Yepp that's me"

"You seem like a nice person to talk to can I get you're number" she asked

"Sure its xxx-xxx-xxxx" I gave it to her nervously. it was my first time talking to someone personally except when it came to doing group projects, I hated them so much. i feel anxious and don't know what it is maybe because she is one of those girls in the school that that hang around many people.

*Class ends*

"I il talk to u later bye Ciel,!" she said with a bright smile on her face. she's pretty I thought. now I need to talk to Mr. Ross

"Ciel, you have to get back on track what's going on with you? You need to start paying attention more or I'm going to have to contact your parents," he said

I didn't want him to contact my father.

"I'm currently having some-"

"I understand you're having some issues but we all do so get back on track. End of the conversation you may leave"

I'm not dealing with this I guess I'll have to start studying and paying attention more I hate school and my house so much. Since I don't go straight home I decided to go to the park where me and my brother used to hang around.

"CIEL!" called a familiar voice I turned around and I saw Shayla waving at me. "Hey what are you doing at this hour don't you have to go home," she asked

The answer is obviously no so I won't have to deal with that old man"I'm just walking around the park thinking of a solution to get my grades back up and pass the upcoming exams haha-" Oh shoot slip of tongue.

"Oh, really I can help you if you'd like! We can study at my place or the library" she said

would she really do that? I haven't been to friends or other kids my age's houses since my mother passed " Can I?" 

"Yeah we're friends now so I'll invite you just let me know what dates you're free," she said

"Okay.." I said

We started studying together and became closer as the school months passed I succeeded in passing my exams. We graduated together. She was my safe place as months passed. I would go home and ignore my father and do as he said just so I would not have to be asked questions about what happens at home.

Me and Shayla went out to carnivals and movie theaters, and she would invite me to parties when school ended. I feel special..and I think I'm developing feelings for her. Do I tell her I don't know what to do, because of her I have gotten better and have interacted with more people at school and my grades have risen. 

Thinking and thinking. I've decided to keep it a secret what if it ruins our friendship. I still have more than enough time.