Confession and Regrets

It was already past midnight.

"Shaylaa your'se shoo beutiful." I'm drunk. I don't know what I'm saying my head is pounding.

"you to ciel haha.." she said 

"Do you have a boyfriend?" I asked

"It's a secret you can't tell anyone but I do he doesn't live near here tho I met him out of town" she blushed 

tears were dripping why am I crying " But Shayla I like you so so much"

"I like you too Ciel your like a sister to me now stop crying.."

I started getting closer and closer 

"Ciel can you back off you're being weird," she said. she was most definitely uncomfortable 

"I MEAN I LIKE YOU LIKE YOU WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND"

something changed. "what do you mean I'm being weird...?" I was confused so much seemed like it was going on. I blacked out.

The next morning I woke up in Shayla's room. "Shayla" I called out.

I went to their kitchen her parents were out

"Ciel we need to talk."

"what's going on"

"Let's stop being friends."

what the hell happened yesterday? "what why what's going on" I asked again

"You like me, don't you? You may not remember but I feel uncomfortable around people like you," she said with a serious face

I stayed quiet for a bit. "Because I'm attracted to you, you don't like me, ha that's funny so that all were not friends no more"

"That's right, can you leave now" she said

I was stunned I left looking like a mess, and as per usual got into an argument with my dad the second I reached home. It has been weeks since I've talked to Shayla I miss her but she blocked me on everything I feel so shitty everything is all my fault. I cried and cried myself to sleep feeling as if I was losing myself once again.