Force

Eighty-Eight:

As the days passes by, I cannot force myself go on without checking on Jeanne. I know I already made it clear with her, I won't be a part of her life and now I'm already breaking it. I know it was wrong to get closer to her and yet I cannot stop myself not to worry. Even if, Morpheus or Epiales will learn about it, I don't care as long as I can see if Jeanne is safe within the realm of Dreams.

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"As what I expected!"

Suddenly I was surprised when someone caught on me.

"Don't worry I won't go closer to her, Asim."

Asim smirks. "Then, what are you doing here? Or you also can't bear not seeing her?"

"I just want to make sure she's safe, maybe there's nothing wrong if I check on her condition from time to time, right?"

"Indeed there's nothing wrong about it yet, the problem is she's not in good condition right now."

"What are you saying?"

"She's having some trouble about her time and it was all because what you gave to her."

"The water of forgetfulness? What about that?"

"She's suffering a memory lost and every time she's conscious the unconscious mind will sleep and that unconscious mind was the one who is living her normal life without any memories of you."

What he said surprised me and I couldn't believe it. "That is impossible."

"Exactly! It is impossible but not for someone special like her and you knew what I mean."

"Then, how can we fix it? Or did you even ask the God of Time for help?"

"We already did and he was the one who explained it to us. And even he can't do anything to help her because it was only her who can help herself if only she can control her powers."

"She can make it."

"How can you be sure?"

"I am so sure she can really do it and that is what I believe." I seriously stated.

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Dream World

'Another day here in my dream world and still, I couldn't remember my whole day. I was only conscious after getting home but waking up and going to school was all blank. I even try to watch the videos I recorded and to my surprised it's all blurred. I don't know what happened or maybe it was intentionally put into blurred by my other side, which I cannot answer. And it put me in much deeper thinking.'

I deeply sighed as I massage my forehead.

"Another waking day that you cannot remember." It was Dione.

"Yes, it is."

"Alright. Although, you were safe isn't it enough for you to be at ease?"

"I can say that it was fine, I'm living my life as a normal person. Without any memories of the entire Gods and Goddesses or even the Angels, the Fallen and the Demons, nor the memories of me going to the Realms of Heaven, I'm free from all those unnecessary things."

"Good for you then."

"Yes it's good that it happened to me but after all I'll just wake up with memories that the other side of my being has forgotten and that's something I can't accept. As if it was unfair for my part that I remember it so clearly I badly wanted to know who made me like this. And I was very annoyed every time I remembered a man without a name and a face every time I became conscious. Who is he in my life? Why do I feel pain every time I try to remember him? And why is he the only one I can't remember? What does this mean, Dione? Please, tell me if you knew something about him?" I seriously plead.

"Jeanne," she sighed before she continued. "Don't you think that maybe he doesn't want you to remember him either?"

"What?"

"I know you have a lot of questions that are bothering your mind but it's better to just forget about it and not think about him anymore so that you won't feel anymore pain. Maybe that will also help you become one with the other side of you, right?"

What she said made me think and maybe she's right, I might be able to be one with my other half and will remember what I'm doing at my normal state without force. Yet, the fact of erasing the man that keeps popping into my memories makes me feel so sad for a reason I couldn't explain.

Who are you?

I badly wanted to ask him and yet who am I going to ask? If I couldn't remember anything about him, his just like a shadow from my dark world.

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Unknown Darkness

From the unknown place, there is a dark force slowly growing and growing unstoppable without unnoticed by the Gods and Goddesses. The dark force is getting stronger as the source is growing deeper into the dark, without the knowledge of the source. And soon, the dark force will emerge out and will be seen at the face of the Earth. Soon…

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Earth

'You're finally awake.'

A familiar voice suddenly greeted me as I slowly opening my eyes.

'Who are you?' I asked half unconscious and conscious.

'I am you.' She answered that fully awake my unconscious mind. 'How? You asked right?'

'Yes it is!' I quickly agreed without even thinking where am I right now not even checking if I am still awake or just dreaming.

'You are awake we are not in dreams.' She answered as she reads what's on my heart.

'Then, this? How?'

'Because the dark force is getting stronger and you have to fully recover before this dark force consume you.'

'Consume me? Why? What are you talking about?'

'Be one with me and you'll know everything you couldn't remember.'

'That is impossible! I couldn't even control my powers so––'

'Don't think too much or even analyze things because you can make it without force. Just go on the flow.'

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