I guess I'm losing friends

hold on to your misery

it will work after it

i need you to be bold

and stronger than ever

i never talked at first

they come with hopes that

i might talk about sports

or barbies with gossips

i went on it to make it

perfect and started my way

got fear inside

what if they leave me and it happened again

i guess i'm losing friends

no one wants me to say hi to them

it's all mess

when i wave at them they just shrug

tried another group with all with my girls

we had fun and fights like a child

then sarah told me her secrets

i snitched her on with her bestest friend

the eyes that were gazing on me

i thought she would kill me

and she could've

she left the room with hopes

and cried in the college bathroom

what i have done like

i guess i'm losing friends

everyone wants me to say bye

people laugh at me cause i'm too dumb

as i'm not as cool or rich as them

bold of you to assume that

i have friends

i later make plans that

i'll live alone as

my oldest friend cursed me

and now we talk back

i should've talked with her instead

not to create a mess

my bestie said you did a right thing

but i don't feel that

even if she was bad

she wasn't bad to me

even if she hated someone

she didn't hated me

now i tried something usual

people like me i tried

with same level of depression

only 1 i ever was talking to

but she was bad imagery

her name was in the dirt

she was in high energy

she didn't made me cried

but once said you should die

i didn't like the vibe

was it my fault

she was talking bad about 2 others

but didn't talked about me

still i left her with a note of sorry

oh boy she came back stronger and said

"fuck you and your promises , i'm not for a vibe"

"you should've told me that our friendship was lie"

3 year or less i fucked up

with nothing but regrets more

everyone left me

all they see my face

not talking to them

ignorance no assurance

i hate myself more now

can't blame on my anxeity

i was trying to find someone special

all i did was nothing

but crime in the name of friendship