My Luna

What the fuck is wrong with you?" Jessica bellows.

Savannah turns to me calmly ignoring a very angry Jessica

"Can we talk outside?" I nod and follow her out the door.

"I think I like you" she says immediately we get into my car.

Her deliciously plump lips pouting a little as she makes her confession.

Every part of my body is singing for joy, She likes me, that's what she just said.

"But I hate the idea" she continues

My brows furrow at her next words.

"Hate what idea?" I ask disappointment and the fear of rejection lacing my tone

"The idea of liking you, I hate it" she says sorrowfully looking at her fingers

"Why?" I ask even though a part of me already knew the answer.

"I hate it because you make me remember everything I wish to forget "

I put my hands on hers and she pulls away.

"Do you like me?" She finally let's her eyes rest on mine

"Like is an understatement for what I feel for you. I love you Savannah "

I try to hold her hands again, at this point my emotions are starting to show. What can I do to make her see me?

"So why did you spend so much time beating me up, is that how you show your love?"

I feel the words covering my face as it leaves her mouth. It strikes me in the lower abdomen and I wince in superfluous pain. I deserve this, I deserve all of her hatred, I was an egotistical idiot.

"You have every right to hate me. Fuck, I hate me. I hate everything I did to you and I'll spend the rest of my life regretting it" .

Regret doesn't come close to what I feel, Shame and disgust is more adept but still not exact, I don't deserve her.

"I don't deserve you. I spent so much time being angry at you for not wanting me around when the truth has always been that I don't deserve you" . My voice breaks and i close my eyes tightly looking away from her to hide the tears.

I look back at her opening my eyes.

The sorrow I see in her eyes shatters me more, I am not worth such an emotion, I'm simply not.

Tears start to trickle down her eyes. She doesn't move or try to hide it.

She just sits there looking at me.

I raise my fingers to her face to wipe the tears and she let's me.

I slide a finger under her eyes, wiping off the moisture.

"I'm not worth your tears" I say patting her hair.

I often wonder what is going through her mind. She seldom speaks or show emotion, so it is hard to tell what she is thinking.

"What's going through your mind?" I ask, holding her face in my hands.

"You're a monster" she blurts out

Another blow to my gut. I withdraw my hand from her face and look down at the floor of the car in shame.

"But you're my monster" she concludes.

I look up at her as the tears I have been trying to suppress come cascading down my face and I don't care.

She reaches out and hugs me kissing me on the top of my head.

I rest my head on her shoulders inhaling her sweet scent.

SAVANNAH

I run my hair through his thick hair wondering if I didn't just make a mistake.

A part of me wants to push him away and run as far and as fast as I can, but that part is very small.

Andre Zacharys friend knocks on the window startling us.

Zachary sits up and rolls the window down.

With one hand on the roof of the car, Andre bends down until his face is level with the car window.

"Mr Smith noticed his favourite student is absent"

He says looking at me.

I avoid his gaze looking ahead, why does it suddenly feel hot in here?

"We'll be right there" Zachary replies for me.

Andre does not move away instantly, he stays bent with his face almost poking into the car. His eyes are locked on Zacharys and I can swear they are somehow communicating.

He lifts himself up suddenly and struts away displeased.

"What are you thinking?" Zachary asks bringing me back to him.

"Nothing" I answer shrugging for more emphasis.

He takes my hand in his squeezing it gently.

It feels weird, foreign but I like it, I sigh out.

"Let's go in" he says.

ZACHARY