DES VU
Awareness that this moment would become a memory

People are complicated and their feelings even more so. They are always aware that the moments they spend with others would end up becoming memories. Sometimes those memories are so precious that people would go to length to save them and sometimes ,they so horrific that people would want nothing but forget they ever happened. 
This is a story about a girl whose precious memories end up being the source of her pain. 
But unlike other people, people who would let go of their memories that cause them pain. This girl would not trade those memories for anything and would hold onto her pain.
That’s how precious those memories are for her even if they would end up being her down fall.

Her journey is certainly not a Fairy tale but something people like to call THE REAL LIFE.

DES VU, Moments turned Memories

it was a particularly hot summer. Not to forget Adina had returned to her hometown for vacations, one of the hottest cities In the country. But the heat wasn’t that much of a bother to Adina than the weight of her bad grades and her failed relationship on her shoulder. 


She was sitting in her room staring blankly into space her thoughts tormenting her. 


She tried her get her mind off of it but she just couldn’t. if she didn’t have good grades just like she had for the rest of her life what is the purpose of her life? 


This was the kind of mindset Adina had. If she wasn’t on the toppers list she was nothing. This mindset was slowly eating her soul away. Sitting alone in her room on the right side of her king-size bed she was so numb that she didn’t realise that she hadn’t eaten anything since morning and it was nighttime right now. 


‘I can never show my face to my parents’ 


‘I can never hold my head high again’ 


A single tear drop from her left eye. It hurt! 


This pain wasn’t just caused by her bad grads but her bad life. Nothing was working out for her. whether it was her relationships, her studies, or her social life. Her everyday routine was brutal during her university. Waking up at dawn, catch the bus travel for an hour to reach university, spending around 9 hours there before taking the bus again to home. All of this left no room for social life and no energy by the end of the day. But no one understood, not even her parents. According to them it is adina’s fault she doesn’t cook a meal when she gets back. Everything was her fault. Tears started scrolling down Adina’s like crazy. 


 The pain had turned physical. Adina felt asifsomeone is clenchingg and squeezing her heart as it got harder and harder for her to breathe 


At times like these there was only one thing Adina could do and that was pray to God. People don’t believe in God but for her she had a firm believe in the existence of God. So she prayed hoping to get through this pain once again. 


She wasn’t afraid of hardships or problems, but pain. This type of pain was her weakness. She could never get through it even after breakdowns, sleepless nights, endless crying and endless trying. 


Even after all of this Adina never once asked God to not give her pain. All she ever asked was the ability and resilience to bear all this pain. She just wanted enough willpower to get through it. she didn’t want to think of doing something unthinkable. She didn’t want to think that all of her worth came from her good grades. She wanted to have it all together. 


But the more she tried the more she fell apart. Only if she had someone to talk to.... 


Suddenly adina’s phone started ringing snapping her out of her thoughts. 


Wiping her tears she looked at the callers id. It was grey on a video call.


Chapter 26