Chapter 32

So, I was about to write this chapter yesterday but then right at that moment my younger brother called me asking me where I was. I replied that I was at home and he asked me to come in town and I just said that I was not coming plus I was broke. He said that it was his birthday treat so I quickly wished him and got ready. I was facetiming my sister about what clothes I should wear and she asked me where I was going? I said that our younger brother called me for his birthday celebration and my sister said that it wasn't his birthday. I told her to talk with him. Later we realized that he was having an early birthday party.

She called me again after calling him. I asked her how I looked and she approved my clothes but then started a whole ass lecture about how he and I never did anything good when we were together. I was offended but she was right though. My younger brother and I don't really look or act like siblings, we both act like friends. We drink together and smoke together. Now before you go on judging me I just want to tell you that if I do something bad then I don't think I have the right to correct the other person for doing the same thing as me.Gandhi once said 'Be the change you want to see in this world'. And I truly follow that.

So until I get my shit together, he can do whatever he wants. But for now, I only smoke and I've long given up on my drinking days. You all must be thinking that I'm really bad at parenting and you're right. It may seem wrong to you but I find my ways acceptable even though it does sound peculiar. What I believe is that a child shouldn't be constricted from the world. When I was growing up I had no knowledge about anything, it was so strict that my sister had to hide the fact about her having periods because we never really talked about these kind of things in our family. So due to the lack of communication and experience in our family I'm having adulting crisis. I'm just a confused adult pretending like I have my shit together.

So anyways I believe that a child should experience what the world has to offer by themselves and we should just observe. Who knows? Maybe the child will actually become something from this and even if they don't, they will at least get a taste of being an adult but many people might oppose to this idea but who cares? I say stuff that I want to so if you have a problem then it's none of my business. But yes, I did get a ton shit of lecture from my sister and she told me to drop that guy back home and I said okay. I went to town and met my brother and his two friends. I thought that getting out of my house for a while will help me with my boredom but boy was I wrong. I was exhausted within 15 minutes and wanted to leave so badly. After a while of roaming I dropped those three boys and headed towards a taxi stand. I told the cab driver my location and just when I got in, the driver asked me if I could push his car. I thought I misheard it and asked if he wanted me to push the car and he said yes.

I was still in doubt and asked again and he said yes and mind you I was in the middle of town and yesterday was party night so many youngsters were gathered there. I didn't really have the option to back down so as embarrassing it was for me, I pushed that damn car. I frequently asked the driver if it was enough but the guy didn't even give me a reply. Just when I was about to go find another cab, few boys saw me and the cab driver asked them for help. They did it gladly and the driver thanked them and for me, nothing. I acted macho man for nothing. I decided that I am never going out at night again until and unless it's an emergency. But I do accept that it was fun. Yes, it was embarrassing because my social anxiety level spikes up during this kind of situations but it was still fun flexing my strength lol. Well that's it for now because I don't really have anything interesting happening at the moment except the fact that I need to find that damn cat because he won't come back home on time. Even cats have a better social life than me.