Once Again

Just like that once again I am at fault, I really gotta know why, why does every thing gotta be my fault, I do not understand. Oh well, it is a normal thing for me right now and i am already used to it all. Every one blaming me for everything is just a way for every one to get over their own heart ache and I truly understand.

So the cousin, no I mean the child who my mom preferred and loved hurt the family really bad and my mom called me to report the whole issue to me and I just started laughing because it was so hilarious to me, and she was telling the people around her that I was laughing at her, what else did she expect from me, it was so fun to know that their favorite family child did that to them. So this is exactly what happened.

Favourite family and my mom's favorite child my cousin was getting married and my mom called me yelling at me to call her and congratulate her, I did no such thing because my mom claimed that my cousin and I were very close right from when we were kids, so how come my "close" cousin was getting married and she did not call me and say "hi cousin I am getting married" if my mom said that she and I are that close. When I asked my mom she said my cousin must be very busy that it must have slipped her mind, the funny thing was that I was getting ready for my exam and I did not want to be stressed, I would have called but my mom kept making it seem like she was forcing me and I did not like to be forced to do things that I would do eventually. It took some time but I messaged her and Congratulated her, but the funny thing was I saved her number and she did not save mine.

My mom had dropped everything and had made me do everything that needed to be done at home, I did not complain because I was already used to doing every thing. She acted just like a mom and was going every where with my cousin, making plans for the wedding, getting the dj, the venue, the decorations, the food, the mc, the caterer and so on. She was the mother of the bride and she was so happy about the wedding. But when the wedding day finally came she and her family saw something else. You know my mom and my grand uncle, my cousin's uncle took the responsibility of trading her in school and when the wedding day came, it was her biological mom's family that she acknowledged not my mom or my grand uncle, they did not even look at them, they did not give any of them a shout out. Her dad, her uncle, mom and every other person in the family were so pissed that they left the reception group all together, well my grand uncle left first before any other person did.

I guess they must have felt extremely bad because they all started calling me and explaining the situation to me, all I did was laugh because it was extremely hilarious to me, even my baby siblings laughed as well. But no matter what she did she was still a child of the family and it was even possible that she had no idea, but there was a very terrible evidence, some one had over heard her saying right after the family left that "some one should take these rubbish from her front" and by "these rubbish" she was referring to the gift my great grand ma had bought for her. There is always this thing that my great grand ma always did, when ever a child was getting married she would buy gifts like set of pots, a very big cooler and so on and they would be so very expensive and when you would give birth after marriage she would buy a bunch of expensive wrappers for you to carry your baby andbit has come to be a part of our culture in our family. When I heard that she said some thing so mean like that I felt extremely bad for my great grand ma. I remember some one telling my mum " oh I feel so bad for what happened to you during your neices wedding but it would have hurt me more if you did not have children but thank God, God blessed you with three amazing children and one is old enough to get married!" I remember how she was Bragging with it and all I did was to just smile while I was laughing inside. I was going through my own turmoil of how I feel rejected and they were already planning my marriage to an invisible man, while all I am planning is how I am going to become a very successful young woman.

But you know the funny thing about was that after all that was said and done and all that had happened, my mom still blamed me and said if only you had taken your life seriously and had also come home with a man right after school,I would not have felt so bad. But what was funny for me was that I did come home with a man I have come home with men, but after seeing my mom things start to act crazy and they stop talking to me. The man that had brought me home from school even went as far as blocking me on WhatsApp after meeting my mom and I still have no idea what I did wrong, I always thought that checking up on someone even if the person did not check up on you showed how much you cared but I guess that was not the case now was it, I was simply the cause all over again and I was simply not just enough for him.