Chapter 30: Fear.

I had to do something.

I didn't want to get hurt and injured like this.

"Come on… darling… just some… cuts…" she whispered into my ear.

My body trembled and my heartbeat became faster and faster.

I couldn't reply to her since my body wasn't responding.

It was such a very bad situation.

In my mind, I thought at first that Hina was only joking and teasing , but with that feeling was disappearing with every passing second.

Then, Hina stood up with her torso.

She looked into my eyes intensely and I could see that her gaze become of a bloody red, but different than the color that I saw when she almost killed the two men.

It seemed like her pupils became heart-shaped.

She then put her hands on her cheeks and gave me a psycho-crazy smile by and kept repeating my name a few times.

"Kai-kun… Kai-Kun… Kai… Kai…. KAI… KAI!" Each time she repeated my name, her voice became louder and louder, to the point where she almost screamed it.

I was really scared about what she could do to me in that situation.

I couldn't move, I couldn't speak… she could even kill me, if she wanted.

But despite the fear, my body was still feeling the intense sense of arousal that Hina's naked body gave to me, but it was different than the last time… this time was totally a physical thing, like an animal in heat…

Hina kept staring at me and she kept rubbing her butt against my lower body.

"You want to do it… right…? Fufufu~" She said while laughing like a maniac.

"Yes… but leave me…" I wanted to say, because of the fear that I was feeling.

All I could do was mumble some strange "Mmmmh!" While lightly moving my neck left and right.

Hina understood my sense of unease but she didn't care at all.

Instead, she kept teasing me more and more since she grabbed a knife from under the blanket.

"Do you see this knife , Kai… ?" Hina asked, but this time her voice became cold and distant.

I took a better look at the thing she had in her hand and noticed that she was holding my special knife…

My military knife given to me by my dear father.

Where did she get it?

Hina kept staring at the knife , rotating it in her hands and admiring it in every way possible.

I felt her body trembling and…

She was getting wet from it.

She truly had an obsession with knives.

"This is beautiful… isn't it, Kai?" Hina said, with an erotic and crazy tone of voice.

"…" I didn't speak, but my body trembled at her words.

"Kai… why are you shaking? Are you scared of me…? Of your beloved girlfriend who loves you so much..?" Hina said while looking deeply into my eyes.

My body twitched again, trying to move.

"My precious boy… I will never hurt you… I love you so much… I LOVE YOu, SO MUCH! HAHAHAHA" Hina said before laughing like a psychopath while looking at the ceiling.

My little fear transformed into terror.

Hina could stab me in any moment, and there was nothing I could do.

There was only thing.

Accept my fate.

So, with a sigh, I closed my eyes and smiled.

Then, Hina's laugh stopped and she looked into my eyes again.

She then leaned closer to my ear.

"You… you weren't trying to peek into my past, right?" Hina asked with a cold whisper.

My eyes widened in surprise and fear.

"Maybe she has found me…? But I can't speak!! How can I say to her that I didn't do anything??" I thought in my mind.

"Look into my eyes, Kai-Kun…" She said, while grabbing my chin to maintain the eye contact.

"Did you peek into my past, Kai-Kun?" She asked again, with a voice even more cold than before.

Meanwhile, I could feel the cold sensation of the iron rubbing on my flank.

Hina was gently caressing my skin with my knife , gently passing it like it was nothing.

But she was being careful to don't hurt me.

"Look at your left to say yes, and look at your right to say no…" Hina whispered.

"I'll ask you again… did you peek into my past?" She asked again.

Hina said that she hated lies, and when she asked me that question, I had to consider in my mind a lot of factors in short fractions of seconds.

She didn't randomly asked that question.

Hina probably knew something that I didn't , or she discovered something.

So, saying no was surely not a safe option.

She could sense lies.

But on the other hand , saying yes would've lead to other problems, or she would've gotten more angry.

So, I decided to nod at her.

I looked to my right, saying yes.

Then, after my reply, Hina frozen in place and she dropped her knife on the floor.

"Why…? Why did you do this, Kai?" Hina asked, with a shaky voice.

Her pupils even became smaller and I could see some tears falling from her eyes.

"You shouldn't know about my past… that person… is… dead… I'm a totally different and innocent girl now… I want to be… happy… and… loved." Hina whispered with a shaky tone of voice, while she rested her head on my chest.

I felt her nails digging into my skin , but not to give me pain… it seemed like she was trying to grip on me.

I felt a lot of mixed feelings , but most of all, I was relieved that Hina didn't stab me to death.

"How much do you know about my past… Kai…?" Hina asked, while her head was still resting on my chest.

We were both still totally naked.

I still couldn't speak, so all I could say were strange mumbles.

But then, maybe for a magic, my body started to react again and I could finally speak.

"It seems that the drug effect disappeared…" I said in my mind, after a sigh of relief.

"Not much, Hina. It's just that… I wanted to know everything about you… to help…" I finally replied after some minutes of silence.

"You… shouldn't do that. I was a very bad girl back then. But I changed…" Hina replied with a shaky voice.

"I'm sorry… I'm sorry… I don't care who you were… I want to know everything of you." I said , while gently caressing her head.

The crazy psychopath disappeared, replaced by the same graceful Hina who cooked launch.

"Kai… I… I…" Hina took a deep breath, "I killed people." She said, with a cold voice.

My hand stopped caressing her head , since her revelation made me snap in fear.

But despite that, I somehow felt calm.

Strange… way too strange.

Maybe… I was feeling like this because I already knew these things…

She finally confessed me her murders.

So she has really killed people in her life.

"Who… who where they, Hina?" I asked, trying not to be scared.

"Bad people… very bad people…" Hina said, while nuzzling into me.

Her voice showed no remorse or regret of what she's done.

She was speaking about it so freely like it was the most common thing of this world.

I didn't know how to react.

My body was moving on its own, cuddling a murderer who was about to cut my body.

"I… don't know what to say, Hina…" I said.

"At least… you've always been honest with me. That's why I cannot hurt you." Hina replied, while standing up with her upper body.

I was relieved by the fact that she would've never hurt me.

"T-Thank you…" I replied.

"Kai… I… have something to confess." She said, while I heard the sound of her swallowing some saliva.

"What is it?" I said.

I had the feeling that I knew that she was gonna talk about something that I knew.

"Kai… I killed the men who hurt you…" Hina said, while getting off me and standing up beside my bed.

My whole body shivered in fear despite expecting something like this.

"I had a strange feeling… deep down, I somehow knew that she was the culprit… but I forced myself not to believe it.." I thought into my mind.

Seeing her revealing something this shocking to me could only mean that she trusted me a lot.

She then turned on the led lights on the nightstand beside me.

I took a better look at her face and body.

I finally noticed that she had dozens of cuts and scars on her leg, arm and belly.

My eyes widened by a lot and my mind started to race with mixed feelings like sadness , surprise, shock…

"W-Why did you do this, Hina?" I asked with a shaky voice.

"They… they hurt you. They needed to die. Everyone who tries to hurt or steal you is an enemy. An enemy is a target and a targets needs to die in the most painful way possible. That's how deep my love is for you, Kai." Hina said, while tears were flowing from her eyes.

I still didn't want to believe her words… I couldn't.

Hina was always gentle with me but…

"Hina…is that true?" I asked with a cold voice while standing up with my upper body, changing into a sitting position on my bed.

Hina looked away and nodded her head slightly.

She was not ashamed of what she's done.

She wasn't sorry about the fact that she brutally murdered two men, but she was feeling sad because what she's done actually hurt my feelings.

"Am I a bad girl, Kai-Kun…?" She whispered.

While looking into my eyes again.

I shivered a lot and my body started to slightly tremble…

It was in that momet that I had the final confirmation that Hina was… a crazy Yandere.