Chapter 31: Taming the Yandere

"Kai-Kun… am I a bad girl…?" Hina asked again while still avoiding my gaze.

I didn't know what to answer.

Any kind of wrong answer that could bother her could kill me.

I remained silence at her words, thinking about what I could say to make her feel comfortable.

Hina kept slowly rubbing her elbow like a nervous tic.

"Kai-Kun… am I a bad girl? Do you hate me?" She asked, while her voice was getting colder.

I even noticed that she gripped her elbow nervously.

Then, with my nervousness rising , I finally spoke.

"No, Hina…" I said replied to her.

That's all I could say to calm the situation.

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But suddenly, a nice idea appeared in my mind.

I could use this chance to tame Hina and make her feel comfortable.

With this, she would've done everything I wanted and I thought that maybe, in the future, she would've changed.

I felt like I was the only living creature in the earth who could control Hina.

She was like a wild beast who kept destroying to survive…

It was her nature.

She wasn't evil or good… she simply met bad people.

Sometimes I hated my good nature of seeing the good things even in the worst situations…

I had some answers.

Hina was really a murderer and she was the culprit of the death of those two men…

So, that could confirm that she killed other people too… but… who?

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At my words, Hina's head turned towards me and her eyes met mine.

Their color was still of a bloody red , but… I knew that her gaze was totally different than before.

Hina's grip on her elbow tightened even more to the point where her nails almost penetrated into her skin, like she was trying to restrain herself from doing something.

She looked at me with such a sorry look on her face.

Hina then took a deep breath and started to speak.

"R-Really, Kai-Kun…? Am I not a bad girl…? I killed people… and… I know that I've hurt your feelings…- Kai-Kun… you're scared of me… and this feeling is killing me from the inside… like a worm crawling into my body and devouring everything…" Hina said, her voice was nothing more than a broken whisper and she sobbed between some words…

My eyes widened at her words after hearing her.

She was desperate and scared.

She had the fear that I could leave her alone.

In that moment, I understood what she wanted.

Hina only wanted to be loved and accepted… and with all the time that I've been with her, even if it's short, she had a lot of behaviours confirming this theory.

But most of all, she didn't want to lose me…

The clingy behavior, her possessiveness, her jealousy… the fact that she always wanted to see me, the fact that she brutally killed the two men who assaulted me…

But at the same time, another question appeared in my mind:

"Is she scared to lose me… or to lose the affection that she has received?"

Only time could give me the answer…

"Hina…" I whispered while walking close to her.

"Kai… what are you doing? A-Aren't you scared of what I might do to you?" Hina spoke with a sad tone, but I could read on her face that she wanted me to hold and reassure her.

And so I did.

I gently embraced Hina into my arms.

Since she was shorter than me, my chin rested on the top her head, while her head was gently pressing against my chest.

I held her tight, in a silent embrace full of mixed emotion.

I felt her body twitching at my touch, and , during the hug, she was trembling.

"I can fix her." I said into my mind.

Hina remained in silence, but after some moments, I felt the touch of her hands on my back.

She returned the hug, with her arms slowly embracing me.

What was I feeling during that moment?

Sadness? Love? Fear? I didn't know.

Hina could literally do everything she wanted to me.

But I decided to trust her, to see if she really cared about me.

And I was right.

She kept pressing her naked body against mine and the heat of our skin touching felt so good.

"K-Kai… you're not scared of me… d-do you really accept this side of me…?" Hina asked with a whisper.

I stared to slowly caress her head.

"Yes… it's okay… I love you so I must accept it if I want to stay by your side." I said with a soft tone of voice.

Hina's embrace tightened after she heard these words from me.

"So… am I a good girl , Kai ?" Hina asked.

"Yes… you're a good girl. But…" I said.

"But what?" Hina asked in curiosity.

Her tone became more relaxed.

"You need to stop killing people. It's… not good." I said.

Then, Hina slowly pulled away from me and looked into my eyes.

"I can't, Kai. I must kill the people who hurts you… and people who tries to steal you from me… i don't trust anyone… I've received too many lies in my life.." Hina said with a sad tone of voice while looking down on the floor, maybe recalling all the bad moments she's gone trough.

I wanted to know a lot more about Hina… I wanted to know everything.

"Hina… I'm not going anywhere, don't worry about it." I said, trying to calm her.

She then raised her head up and looked into my eyes.

"Liar… I've already heard these words…" she said with a calm but angry tone of voice.

She clenched her fists , sign that some kind of anger was raising inside her.

This time, I knew that I had to act.

I had to show her that I was different.

I walked towards her again and embraced her body.

It seemed like her anger faded away.

Just as I expected , she didn't push me away.

Instead, she remained still.

"I know that words will not reach your heart because of all you've gone true, Hina… but I promise to prove everyday how much I love you. I promise to always stay by your side." I said , while gently caressing her head and giving her some kisses on top to make her feel comfortable.

Her body twitched at my affection, like she was expecting something else.

It was like she was about to have a reaction… but not a good one.

"Y-you promise…? And how can I trust you?" Hina asked with a soft but broken voice, returning the hug.

Despite her feeling of distrust, she couldn't push me away.

I knew that her desire and craving for affection were stronger than her words.

And so, I took advantage of this to say something very risky.

"Hina… if I ever betray , leave, or do something that could make you suffer, you have my permission to kill me." I said while slowly petting her head.

Hina's body reacted at my words with a tremble.

"Okay… thank you…" she whispered, while nuzzling her head into my chest.

"I know… I know that she won't kill me even in the darkest situations." I said to myself.

Well… it's pretty sad to think something like that, but I was "manipulating" Hina so that in the future she would have stopped killing people.

And with that, she would've escaped the police…

Hina was under my "control". But luckily , I held true and genuine feelings for her despite what she's done.

"Now that she's mine, I have to figure out a plan to stop Yuki Nakamura…" I said into my mind.

Then, while overthinking and petting Hina's head, she spoke.

"Kai… do you want to know because I asked if you peeked into my past…?" Hina said, while still in my arms.

"Well, yes. I'd like to know." I replied. "But first, let's sit on the bed, okay?" I said, while braking the hug and sitting down.

Hina nodded and followed me.

After we both were on the bed, Hina started to talk.

"The reasons are two…" she said, while rubbing her hands together and looking on the floor.

I was listening to her carefully , so I replied to her with a nod.

"First of all… I was scared that you would've been scared of me… and second…" she then stopped to look into my eyes.

"I asked to see if you were a liar." She said.

My eyes widened at he reply, not under sting what my ears have heard.

"What do you mean?" I asked , while tilting my head on the side.

"Well… I already knew these men… I knew where they came from… and before killing them, they told me why they came into your house." Hina's voice became normal and cold.

"After that… I killed them… because I wanted to keep my past as a secret…" she said.

That was a good reason to be scared of her.

She knew that I was investigating on her past.

And she didn't kill me.

But why?

I kept remaining silent since Hina didn't finish to speak.

"You tried to investigate on my past since a lot of time… and their presence was a sign that you were gone too deep… I don't know who you talked to, and I don't care… because you didn't run away… you kept staying with me all this time… and that's why…" Hina stopped and took a deep breath.

"And that's why I didn't kill you: because you accepted me despite everything and because you didn't lie to me…" Hina said, with a guilty and shameful tone of voice.

Her words send me a shiver trough all my spine and my eyes widened again.

I stayed with her and acted like nothing happened because I was scared that she could do something harmful to me.

"I feel bad… I feel so bad and guilty for thinking that I had to hurt you… but I could never do this… I'm sorry for before… I… even drugged you with a… soft solution. I'm sorry… but I wanted to know everything." Hina said, while her body was shaking and her voice was broken.

She was sobbing and she soon started to softly cry.

She said a lot of confused thing but in the end I could understand what she wanted to explain.

Basically, she found out that I investigated on her since the men who assaulted us were someone she knew and she was hurt about this.

She wanted to hurt me because she hated liars and she wanted to test my sincerity.

If I would've replied "No" when she asked me if I peeked into her past, she would've killed me.

But that reaction was exaggerated… so she probably had a big traumatic event connected to this.

When I replied "yes" to her question, she immediately regretted all her bad thoughts about me and felt guilty because I said the truth and , despite knowing that she was dangerous, I acted like I always did, by treating her like a human.

"But could she really hurt me…?" I thought in my mind.

Still, only time could give me the answers I needed.

When I saw Hina crying, I immediately hugged her and kissed her cheek.

The fact that she said that she was about to kill me too didn't matter anymore to me.

All I knew was that I had to catch every single instant with her.

"Calm… calm… we're here together now…" I said to her ear, trying to reassure her.

She then snuggled into my neck.

Hina kept crying for some minutes and she said "sorry, Kai" a lot of times.

I kept trying to calm her down.

"It's okay, she only wanted to kill me, nothing important." I said to myself.

Then, Hina spoke.

"I promise to be a good girl for you… I want to be Kai-kun's good girl… please… let me be Kai-Kun's good girl…" she said with a soft whisper , while looking me into my eyes.

Her gaze was so soft and lovingly with a blush spread all over her face, and her lips were partially opened, like they were desperately calling me for a kiss.

"You'll always be my good girl from now on, okay?" I said with a loving smile.

Hina's lips curved into a wide smile.

"Yes!! I want to!!" She said with a joyful tone.

Then, she pushed me down and got on top of me.

We stared into each other's eyes for some moments, looking into each other's soul.

I felt deeply connected to Hina in that moment.

Then, she went in for a deep and passionate kiss.

Our lips touched and our tongues started to dance in a languid ballet.

Every single movement was perfectly in sync and I was literally melting into that kiss.

We kissed dozen of times , but this time it felt different… I still cannot explain why.

Then, Hina pulled away and said "I want to do it… please." Her voice was barely a whispe, but it was full of desire.

"I want you too…" I said.

And then, with a lot of burning passion, we made a deep, passionate love for hours…

Hina became completely mine…

…or that's what I thought.