ATTEMPTED SUICIDE

No, on a serious note. I'm not joking Fu Renshi whispered again

Wipe it off Ai Meng said as she gave him a tissue.

My pleasure Fu Renshi said as he wiped Ai Meng's lips and showed her what he wiped off. Ai Meng hit his shoulder as she laughed.

You're crazy Ai Meng said as she shook her head gently and went back to eating.

Fang Haoyu watched with narrowed eyes, while Mu Yibai looked at Fu Renshi with warning eyes.

Excuse me Ai Meng said as she walked to the restroom. She threw almost everything she had eaten up because she had eaten way above what she could take.

She washed her face and mouth before looking in the mirror. She saw Fang Haoyu behind her. Startled, Ai Meng turned to look at him. Fang Haoyu walked to her and pressed her to the wall.

Haoyu what are you doing? Ai Meng asked as she glared at him.

Fang Haoyu looked at those lips that just pronounced his name so softly. He leaned forward and captured Ai Meng's lips with his. Ai Meng looked unfazed but inside her it was almost like she was in troubled waters.

Fang Haoyu sucked on her lips. Ai Meng could hardly breathe her eyes were watery as she sensed the emotions Fang Haoyu kissed her with. Anger, Jealousy, Happiness and something else. She couldn't place her fingers on it and she acted as though she didn't care.

When Fang Haoyu raised his head to look at her. Ai Meng slapped him and walked out.

Ai Ai Fang Haoyu called but Ai Meng ignored him as she walked out.

I have to leave my big brother called me Ai Meng said as she took her bag from the chair

Should we come with you? Fu Renshi asked worriedly everyone was an adult and they could see her swollen lips and Fang Haoyu's empty seat.

No. It's okay my big brother is two blocks away. Ai Meng waved them good bye as she walked away.

After Ai Meng walked out Fang Haoyu followed.

Ai Ai Fang Haoyu called but she ignored him.

Fang Haoyu walked forward and stood in front of her. They looked at each other as they held each other's gaze. Ai Meng crossed her arms in front of her chest defensively.

On seeing that Fang Haoyu wasn't speaking, Ai Meng looked at him.

What do you want? Ai Meng asked quietly

I want you to freaking see me. To notice me Fang Haoyu yelled.

In the back of the building close to them, Feng Sui and Gu Zheng were standing there eavesdropping.

And you think I don't see you? If I don't see you how come I know you are standing in front me. Ai Meng said quietly.

You've been with Fu Renshi all this while. I didn't get to see you? You didn't see a reason to visit me Fang Haoyu said

Wow Ai Meng huffed. Wow. So, it's all my fault. You where the one who avoided me in the first place, you're the one who decided that it would be a good idea to take girls to hotels knowing it was a turn off for me, you where the one who started hanging with those boys and girls with attitude, you were there when they threw insults at me but what did you do? Nothing and now you're saying it's my fault. Get a grip on yourself. You are a man, try to own up to your mistakes and take responsibility Ai Meng said quietly as she felt her throat ache the more she spoke

That's my sister Feng Sui said proudly as he tapped Gu Zhang's shoulder while Gu Zhang rolled his eyes

I..... Fang Haoyu said

You what? Just get away from me. You irk me out Ai Meng said as she made to walk away.

Ai Ai, I like you Fang Haoyu said

Love is a waste of time. It is messed up and us, we won't work Ai Meng said as she turned away from him.

You just don't want to try Fang Haoyu said and then their surroundings fell quiet.

I maybe a stranger to the pain of people leaving and letting go of you, but I promise to never let go, I promise to never leave, I promise to stay by your side Fang Haoyu promised

A man shouldn't make promises that he cannot fulfill Ai Meng said

What is that supposed to mean? Fang Haoyu said

You're freaking leaving in a year and half. When where you going to tell me? The day you're leaving? When you are already abroad? When you're back? When you feel like? Ai Meng said coldly

I ain't doing this no more okay? I'm freaking tired. Get things straight with me. You don't want to talk to me, I won't force myself on you. You don't want me to know, I'll act like I don't. You don't want to see me, then I will not appear before you that's how I roll Ai Meng added as she covered her watery eyes and pulled at her hair. I'm tired Ai Meng said as she walked away.

At least let me drop you off Fang Haoyu said but Ai Meng ignored him

She brought her phone out of her bag and called Feng Sui

Big bro, come pick me up. I want to come home Ai Meng said

Are you okay? Feng Sui asked

Y….Yea, I'm fine Ai Meng said

Be there in five Feng Sui said and ended the call.

Ai Meng just leaned on the wall. She felt like crying but it wouldn't solve anything, it'll make one seem weak and it makes emotions prove louder than head.

She squatted by the side of alley. The conversation kept repeating in her head she really wanted it to stop but it didn't so she took her earphones out and then played music to distract herself.

Not long after Feng Sui came with Gu Zhang. Ai Meng sat at the back seat. She leaned her head on the window and closed her eyes. Feng Sui and Gu Zhang knew better than to talk at that moment.

When she got home, she immediately freshened up not having the time to check up on Feng Kexin as usual.

She went to bed and then woke up early the next morning and she felt unsurprisingly sick. The conversation with Fang Haoyu kept playing in her head, over and over. She felt like she was going mad. The music couldn't do anything anymore.

She kept trying to sleep but the harder she tried, the harder it was.

She gave up hope and then laid on the bed waiting for everything to seem normal but it never did.

Ai Meng stayed in bed till late in the afternoon. She went to her wardrobe; she packed a few clothes in a bag pack and wore a hoody and slack pants and white sneakers. She walked out of the house and then hailed a taxi. When she got to where she was going she rang the doorbell and the door opened.

Aunty Rong Ai Meng called the woman.

Meng Meng Bing Rong called in surprise. She once suggested Ai Meng to come live with her but was ruthlessly rejected.

From the name, Bing Rong is Bing Rou's aunt and co-incidentally Ai Meng's therapist.

Meng Meng, you look awful Bing Rong said as she guided Ai Meng in.

About that drug stuff, can you prescribe some for me? I'm wasted and tired. Ai Meng massaged her head and sat down on the sofa.

Are you sure? Sometimes, people become unable to live without the drugs Bing Rong said

Just give it to me Ai Meng said

Okay Bing Rong said as she went to her storage room to get her the drugs.

Here, two in the morning and evening Bing Rong said as she dropped them on the table.

Thank you, Ai Meng said as she immediately chewed the drugs. Soon the effect of the drugs kicked in and Ai Meng fell asleep, but immediately she fell asleep, things went downhill. All the dark memories she locked away started popping out.

You were a mistake never to exist?

You ruined my picture-perfect life

I wanted a boy child, how could you come into my life. You're a stain in my spotless life. I promise to make sure that everyone you love leaves you

Ai Meng sat up drenched in sweat her face turned pale. She didn't want those memories to come out, she didn't want to go back to the past Ai Meng buried her head in between her knees.

Meng Meng, you okay? Bing Rong asked as she walked into the sitting room.

Yeah yea I'm fine. I guess I slept for long. I look like I went swimming. Ai Meng said

No, you've been sleeping for just forty-five minutes. Bing Rong said and Ai Meng's eyes widened.

Did you have a nightmare? Bing Rong asked

NO Ai Meng screamed I'm sorry, I don't want to talk about it Ai Meng added quietly

Hmm Bing Rong nodded

It's time for dinner Bing Rong said as she went to the kitchen.

Do you mind showing me to the room I'm going to be living in? Need to get the stench off me Ai Meng said as she looked up with a slight smile

Hmm Bing Rong said as she took a step forward leading Ai Meng to her room.

Here Bing Rong said and left knowing that if she said too much Ai Meng would snap.

Ai Meng freshened up and went downstairs to eat

Do you like it? Bing Rong asked

Hmm Ai Meng nodded

Don't worry I'll call Rou Rou over to keep you company.

No need Ai Meng said and continued eating.

After eating Ai Meng went to her room. She walked directly to the bathroom and threw almost everything she ate up.

She brushed her teeth and stared at the mirror. She never thought she'd go back to the way she was years ago.

Ai Meng looked at her fingers, if she shoved the brush into her throat she could die? Ai Meng thought but then shook her head.

After taking the drugs her head stopped aching and there was no voices in her head but she always had nightmares.

Feng Sui and Fang Haoyu on the other hand felt as though they were sitting on hot seat.

Two days later, Ai Meng started feeling as though the drugs weren't working. She walked to her desk and looked at the drugs on top of it.

She sat down and....

Maybe taking lots of them should work fine. I mean two isn't doing something. Ai Meng contemplated as she opened the bottle of drugs and took ten out of it. Thinking it was too small, she added ten more.

While she was carrying out her "plan" Feng Sui and Fang Haoyu decided to pay her a visit after forcing out Ai Meng's Location from Bing Rou.

When they got to the house, Ai Meng was in her room. She laid on her bed and she felt her strength drifting slowly she felt a subtle relief as though everything was going to get back to normal. She could feel her eyes getting heavy.

Fang Haoyu immediately walked to the guest room and knocked on the door but there was no answer

You sure she's in? He asked Bing Rou who nodded. Suddenly, He got a feeling of apprehension and then he turned the door knob.

Fang Haoyu walked in only to see something as pale as paper and thin to the extent that her skeleton was almost in full view.

Ai Ai Fang Haoyu called in a panic tone. When Ai Meng saw him, the subtle sense of relief she had vanished her heart felt heavy and sour.

Maybe he really cared for me but I didn't see it Ai Meng thought. She raised her hand to touch his face but couldn't and her hand fell by her side limply. Her eyes started drooping.

Ai Ai, don't close your eyes don't fucking close your eyes on me Fang Haoyu yelled jolting her a little as she forcefully opened her eyes.

Fang Haoyu carried her and ran downstairs.

Feng Sui go get the car now Fang Haoyu said as his eyes became watery.

Can't she see that everyone likes her? Fang Haoyu thought

Don't close your eyes Ai Ai, don't you dare Fang Haoyu said as he walked out the door and saw Feng Sui about to come out and ask what was going on.

Get in the car Fang Haoyu yelled at Feng Sui again.

What are you doing?!!!!!!!!!! Are you driving? You are driving at a snail's pace Fang Haoyu yelled at Feng Sui.

I'm going as fast as I can Feng Sui replied

Turn around let me drive Fang Haoyu replied

If you drive, we'll die so no Feng Sui said and they drove to the hospital.

Fang Haoyu called the doctor and then sat outside of the emergency ward pacing.

Stop pacing, you're making me dizzy Feng Sui said sarcastically

I don't know what I'd do without her Fang Haoyu said as he roamed his hand through his hair and sat down.

It's okay. That girl she's gonna be fine. Heard she's a fighter Feng Sui said

Doesn't the fact that she keeps wanting to be the cause of her demise worry you? Fang Haoyu asked Feng Sui.

It does. Just don't know why? Feng Sui said frowning