Unexpected conclusions

"It's brutal out here"

I was nevesously tapping my foot under the desk when someone kicked my leg and as I faced my only friend and threw a glare at her. She said,Eraya calm the fuck down whoever is gonna sit beside you won't kill you. I stopped the tapping and quietly nodded at her and stared ahead . I admit she is right but still I can't help but feel nervous and helpless, all my life till now I have been a shy kid and

That being the reason it was always so hard for me to make friends easily. That was when God saw me and seeing my pitiful self he sent an angel to me , Ezra came as a new student when I was in third grade and her being the usual angel,she talked with me , she was always so kind to me and before I knew she took an irreplaceable place in my heart and we became friends and eventually deskmates.

But today my peaceful world is going to be shattered as I stare hard at the box kept at the teachers table in which my destiny belong , I know I am being a bit dramatic but when a person is closed off being an introvert it's difficult for them to pace up with new changes easily.

Ezra again kicked my legs and I came back to the reality, Eraya , yours turn up. mam is calling you,go. I stood up nervosly and went to the table and took out a paper from the box and went and sat on my seat. I opened the paper and there in bold capital number seven was written Ez too peeked , then went as her name was called when she returned I hurriedly looked in her sheet hoping for the same number but got disappointed by seeing the number two as if it was mocking me . She saw me looking at that paper and patted me lightly on shoulder.

Why is she doing this Ez? It's our last year in school. Of all the time why is she changing the seats now ? I wanted to scream in frustration. Then Ez said, Ayu baby you know how miss solane is . I heard my brother saying that she don't give fuck about our feelings and is so cold hearted . He told me she always makes new sitting arrangement of whoever class teacher she becomes. And unfortunately now we are stuck with her . But don't you worry this much it's not like we are in a different class , I will be here with you and what if this year you'll get a new friend. No one knows how it's gonna turn out. So let's just pray we get someone good. And this is a promise whether we sit together or not we'll have blast this year this is our last and final year and we'll make every inch of memory together.

I looked at her, at times like this I imagine how lucky I am to have her in my life . So I smiled at her reassuring to lessen her worries. As she said we can make this work and it will be totally normal. Motivating myself and chanting ' I can do this' in my head again and again, to overcome the nerves and have a bit of confidence left.

Slowly all students came and took peices till the box was empty and now the conclusion begins. Then miss Solane started calling each number and the pair of student having same number will be deskmates, as she called two Ez and Inaya stood. I was happy for Ez she was friends with Inaya. I have always thought she had the most beautiful eyes in our class.

Then came the dreadful number seven and I stood up , I looked at my side but no was standing but as I slowly moved my head back,

I saw him standing...

and my brain stopped working. He was standing there looking at me with a kind smile, that type of smile which you give a person whom you have met once or twice and see them somewhere around and nod your head with small smile to acknowledge them . I sat back on my seat, my background filled with whispers. Ez looked at me a bit worried, but mostly happy and excited, and this was because she knew my secret , a secret that I didn't want to accept but couldn't make it happen.

Suddenly the bell rang and just as miss solane went. Ez hurriedly dragged me outside the class and got us somewhere alone . And I knew something was coming which will make me regret ever telling her about that. Then Ezra squealed,

Oh my fucking god with all the mighty stars in the universe, Ayu baby you're gonna sit with your CRUSH!!

At that moment I knew my last peaceful year of school is fucked up.