CHAPTER 10

( Katherine's pov)

I waved as his car drove away .

I walked slowly to the parking lot elevator I used to get to my apartment .

Counting each step with my hand caressing where he pecked me .

Jeremiah is a great guy handsome and smart , I would be happy if I was with him but I can't help my heart from longing to be with Xavier .

I got into my house , empty and dark , taking of my shoes off ,

I went to the kitchen to stock the fridge up with the ice creams he got me and went to my room laying on my bed ,

My life is so shitty .

Here's the guy I like but doesn't want me and another is a guy who's also been my friend but loves me and I don't.

Do I have to choose?.

My heart will forever remain with Xavier's .

But he doesn't feel the same .

I heard the doorbell and got down , going out to check .

- can it be Jeremiah ? I checked the time 8:30pm , no one comes to see me this late- i I opened the door to meet his face .

He was angry , he had a mask on but I know the colour of his eyes and the way he looked at me.

" Xa..." He put his finger on his covered mouth indicating I should be quiet, walking inside he closed the door .

" What are you doing here?" I asked , I had to I'm happy he came to see me but why ? And by this time.

He took of his mask and pushed me to the wall gently then using both hands to block the sides placing it on the wall, I was in-between.

" You let him touch you ?" That's what he said , his eyes was red and welled up .

" Let him?" I was confused , he just barged in and asked a weird question . Was he stalking me.

I thought he never wanted to see my face again.

" I mean Jeremiah " he said touching my cheek , I stared at him and my heart leaped for joy when I understood he was jealous.

" It was just a peck " we never had a normal discussion after what happened.

He just stared at me angrily.

" You gotta be kidding me .... ' just a ?' " Gosh he is mad.

" Why do you care ?" I asked as he leaned closer to me.

" Don't let him touch you again " he said No ordered

" Why ?" I asked .

" Cause he can't "

" Why ?"

" Cause I'm the only one meant to touch you" he said and I couldn't help but blush.

He said he hated me but yet he helped me , he said he doesn't want to see me again and here he is at my house , he said he doesn't care what I do ,, but now he's warning me to stay away from Jer.

" How are you the only one .... What if I wanted him to kiss me " I said

- gosh I looked for trouble -

He got angrier . Has he stared at my lips . Then at me .

" Then I'll do that for you " he said and his lips touched mine .

My eyes was widened as I was shocked at his sudden gesture .

He's never kissed me before.

Soft , and gentle .

My hands left my sides and went to his neck as he deepened the the kissed , I closed my eyes kissing him back , it was getting hot , well I was feeling hot .

My hands roamed to his hair and I pulled it , then he let out a moan , he left the walls amd went to my waist pulling me closer .

- is this happening , I'm really kissing Xavier Blackwood , my childhood crush , my best friend .-

He wasn't my first kiss but this was different , I loved him and I wanted him ,.

I could feel the longing and desire in his kiss , a little bit of tobacco .

He smoked.

He pulled me up as I wrapped my legs around his waist then he carried me to the couch laying me down he was over me letting go of my lips and trailing down my neck ,I let out a moan as it sent shivers and I felt wet .

I was WET.!

.Wait! what are we doing . I pushed him away and got up.

I ran my hands through my hair as he sat down , our breaths unstabled.

" What just happened? " I said still breathing fast.

What the heck was that question! Of course I knew what happened , I spoilt the moment , I wanted us to continue but ....

" I don't get it , why did you come all of a sudden knocking at my door and coming in here to kiss me !" I'm angry now , he has been the one pushing me away from the beginning , I get it , but he hates doesn't he .

" I'm sorry " he said standing up.

What's up with sorry these days.

" I couldn't help it , seeing you and Jeremiah together ..." He said

" Why would that affect you ?" I asked .

" Cause it does .... You are not the only one who grew feelings during our friendship " he said.

" Not the only one ?" I muttered.

- does he have feeling for me too - with that thought a smile crept in but I masked it .

" Look... Don't listen to Jer , I know I'm being selfish but I can't help seeing you with him again . "He explained holding my hands .

- is this real , yesterday I was the one begging now it's the other way round?-

" Why is that ?" I whispered loud enough for him to hear.

" I love you Kathy ..." His hands was on my cheeks now .

- F*** I think I'm gonna blow -

"... I do and I want you ... Badly .. but not now, I have issues to handle and you can't get involved ."

" What issues ?" I asked

" If I told you then you wouldn't understand "

" Try me " I said

Make me understand I want to know , you had feelings for me too yet you pushed me away making me think you despised me.

" You just can't .... Please understand , I promise it will be okay soon "

She said with a smile.

- yeah right - I rolled my eyes inwardly.

" Okay " I said .

- this guy's gas something on me ... I can't even say no to him-

" Good " he held my cheek and gave me a peck on my lips.

- what a play - don't you want me badly.?

I gave a smile , I had soooo many questions to ask him but he has his reasons I won't pry further I'm just happy he's mine now.

.....

He stayed for a while and left , I stood at the door and waved at him completely in a daze .

I got to my room and stared at the ceiling my face red from what happened .

I'm I still dreaming or what . Did that just actually happen.