Deep Regret

Sophie-

What was wrong with me? What had I done? I was ashamed of myself thinking what I had done. I had kissed this MAN when he had brought me here against my will. I decided to do my self pity session later and do something to get the hell out of here. This man had still trapped me on his bed. His hand was like a steel band around my frail wrists. If he pressed a bit more, I was sure he could easily snap them. I had never felt more trapped before and this feeling of self loathing. I got so overwhelmed that my eyes started filling with tears. I couldn't control them and they broke free. The feeling of helpless was so heavy that I started sobbing. This man was so much stronger than me and could do anything. I wouldn't be able to do anything about me. The traitorous voice in my head wasn't making me feel any better, you might even like it.This voice horrified me so much that I started full-on sobbing. It was then I realized that the hand on my wrists started loosening. I lifted my eyes and was struck with deep obsidian eyes looking at me intensely. They were swerving with emotion, I could not understand. He looked different, less menancing. He lifted his other hand and brought it my face. I thought he was going to struck me or do something which I didn't want him to do, so I just closed my eyes with more tears leaking out of eyes. I felt a feather like touch on my face and then he was wiping away my tears. "Don't cry." His rich voice sounded painful. I opened my eyes and saw that he had gotten up and realized that I was free. God, I was free. I got up from the bed like it was burning. It almost gave me whiplash. He was standing near me with an unreadable expression on his face." You can Leave now." He ordered me. I have never been happier. I ran to the door and quickly opened it. I got into the hallway and ran like my life depended on it. I didn't give a backward glance. Many people in the hallway gave me odd glances. I was running crazily like the devil was after me. Maybe it was, that man was really a devil. Thinking about him made me run even faster. I wanted to get the hell out of this place. After running for a while, I eventually reached the back door where I had come from. I got out of the place and it was in the garden that I stopped to catch my breath. I checked to see if anyone was after me but found no one. I gave a sigh of relief. I checked my phone to see that it was already midnight. Ava had called me many times. I checked to see her text messages,

Sophie, Where the hell are you? TEXT ME ASAP. I am dying here thinking that you have been murdered by a serial killer.

This was so like Ava. I texted her to tell her that I was perfectly fine and coming home soon. I was panicking thinking about how to get out of here this late. I didn't have any idea about where I was. I could share my location and tell Ava to come and get me but it was late she would be sleeping. I didn't want to worry her this late. I was standing there thinking how to get home when someone called me, I was about to flee thinking it was that devil," Miss Sophie, It's me." Oh it was the driver, Mr. John. I turned behind me to see that he was running towards me. He seemed out of breath, " I was walking after you but You didn't stop." Yeah, how could I tell him, it was his so-called boss which made me run for my life." Oh sorry Mr. John. I might have not heard it." I said apologetically. Anyway, Why was he running after me? The confusion might have shown on my face 'cause he said, "Miss Sophie. I am here to take you home." Oh that, he had told me earlier that he would take me home. But now I was not sure if I could trust him. What if he takes me somewhere or even worse kidnap me. I was terrified of this prospect. I was not willing to take the risk. I was about to tell him that my friend Mt coming to get me when he spoke," Ma'am there is no need to worry. I have been given strict orders to get you home safely." He looked earnest. And strangely, I trusted him. I decided to let him take me home. I gave him a nod. He told me to wait here and he went to get the car for us. It was then I registered the chilly weather, it looked like it would rain. I hugged my arms tightly against the chill. To take my mind off things that happened, I started to look around the garden. This was by far the best garden I had ever seen. The lights from the lamps were illuminating the whole garden. This back garden wasn't that large but looked well taken care of. The flowers looked beautiful under the lights. They looked like they were glowing. There beauty gave me comfort. Looking at them arranged meticulously made me forget about everything and appreciate the beauty before me.

I heard the honk of the car and turned to see John was waiting for me in the car. I gave the garden a last glance and walked towards the car. I felt like someone was watching me. All feelings of comfort left me, my thoughts turned awry. I thought maybe that evil man had come back to take me with him. I increased my pace and quickly got into the back seat. I was unsettled and this feeling of being watched gave me more anxiety. I hated this feeling of being watched, I had always felt it growing up with my parents. I was never alone, their were always people hired by my parents, watching my every move. That was the reason of my anxiousness. I was always afraid to do the wrong thing that would upset my parents and it made me anxious about my every move. The thought of my parents and already what had happened today was plaguing my mind,I was deeply overwhelmed by emotions. My heart rate spiked and my body started shaking. I knew if I didn't get myself together, I might have a panic attack in this car. This was the last thing I needed. I did the exercises of deep breathing which my therapist had recommended me to whenever I get overwhelmed by my emotions. It worked and I felt myself getting better. I opened my eyes to see John looking at me from the driver's seat. He hadn't started the Car, "Ma'am, Are you okay?"

"Yes. I'm fine. We should go now." I wanted to get home ASAP. Mr. John gave a glance to see if I was fine. I gave him a reassuring smile and he started the car. Yes God, finally. I looked out of the window to see the garden for the last time. It was already raining and I couldn't see anything properly. I tried to get closer to the window to see outside when I saw a silhouette of the man standing there in the garden. I couldn't see clearly but I can swear that it was Him standing there in this heavy downpour. It send a chill down my body but we were already out on the road away from this place. I sweared to myself that I would never come here again or even to go anywhere to deliver an order. I will tell Mrs. Jackson that I am not delivering ever again. She can send someone else for the delivery of orders. What happened with me today had deeply trautimized me. I can't believe that man took me to his bedroom and almost assaulted me just for a broken glass. I mean Who does it ? He was really out of his damn senses. I am never going near him again. If it had been Ava, she would let this happen to her. She would have kicked his ass. I sometimes wish to be more like Ava, courageous and strong. Thinking about my friend made me smile. "Madam,We are here." I looked out to see that we were in the parking lot of our building. It was strange I haven't shared my address with him, I thought he would stop at the bakery to ask to ask me for directions. I was lost in thought and we had already reached here but still how dis he know me address. I was about to ask him when, "Mrs. Jackson had given me your address so I could drop you home after the delivery." This man was like reading my thoughts. Whatever, I was glad that I was safely home. I got off the car and bade him goodbye. I walked to the elevator and saw that he was still there. It was after the elevator doors were about to close, he started his car. I was relieved that I was home.