Light
I realized voices in my head
Screaming loud with pain
But I choose to ignore it allI
got crushed by this world
with all my hopes
So, I embraced the darkness in my heart
I realized voices in my head
Wanting to be freed from the world
So, I tried but couldn't die
Petrified by society
I choose to escape into the dark
What was I truly lost I forgot
But couldn't return home
I lost the origin myself crushed by the weight of the world
As the pain started to protect my heart
I Meet burning light in the cold
In the form of fiction
So, I hold on to it
It lit my dead Soul
Under the dazzling moon
Making me believe happiness lies in our Soul
Death was easy to embrace
But I embrace the lifeI choose to live with the scars
My pain becomes a shield
And I learn to love myselfLosing all the weight from my back
I realized that screaming pain
Came to change my way
So, I lit my soul with the art
I write I sing, I dance, I laugh
It's not perfect but it's not bad
Light is dim but it's better than dark
With a handful of friends, I feel glad
I love this gradual change
While heading toward my dream
I love this light
Which tells me to be me.
"This must be the song telling your survival!", he exclaimed as he read it very carefully. She nodded with a proud face.
"I learned that I can change things. Death is not the only solution. Even though I have lost many things but now I have a true friend like Advika. Even though I don't need this life but my mom and dad need me so I should be heading towards light gradually and steadily constantly without giving up", she stated. She had grown up a lot.
Amygdala
I don't know my name
Wondering through memories of my hell
I don't know my name
The black figure I saw
In the corner of my amygdala,It chased me up to the edge
It choked me hard until
my mid-Limbic woke me awake
I don't know my name
Tired of apologizing without any mistakes,
My amygdala, amygdala
Save me from this pain
My amygdala, amygdala
Let me live again
I don't know my name
The cheerful person I saw
Was dying at the hands of her love,
All the harassment she saw and I stood helpless in front of my love
My amygdala, my amygdala
Let me free from this love
My amygdala, my amygdala
I don't want to love him anymoreI don't know my nameTrapped in my traumatized self
I don't know my name
The worst choice I made
When I lost my v card
The worst choice I made
When I kept quiet even after getting degrade
The worst choice I made
When I fail to keep my self-respect,The worst choice I made
When I lose my both best friends
When I kept quiet,
Even After getting accused of playing with boys' dick
and then suddenly thought crossed my headand
I saw a hand with a blood stain
I woke up in the middle of the rain
Trying to hide my pain
My amygdala, amygdala
Let me forget all these mistakes
My amygdala, amygdala
Let me erase all my memories
All these scenes from my dream
Which runs through my head
All those slaps I received
Makes me feel worthless,
and then covid suddenly came
Locking me inside my brain
All the loneliness I felt
Started to chain me away
The news of my mom's surgery
Came with news of his new loveI tried my best
But I couldn't able to keep myself sane
My first choice (is bloody hands)
My second choice (a glass of phenol)
My third choice dying in my dream
Seeing those vivid scenes until my mid-limbic woke me awake
The girl I knew I can't find her anymore
But the girl I become is still unknown
That's why I don't know my name
Still trapped in someone else stance
I don't know my name
My amygdala, amygdala
Let me break through my pain
My amygdala, amygdala
Let's erase this pain
I don't know my name
The panic attack I had
Had different triggers and frequencies
All those hallucinations I guided me to despair
All the sleep in my eyes gone
Panting is the only thing I had
Then I saw the pain in my parent's eyes
After knowing about my life
My amygdala, amygdala
Let me live free
My amygdala, amygdala
Stop choking me
I don't know my name
Now the first choice I made (anime)
and the second choice I made (songs)
The best choice I made (living with the help of med)
I don't know my name
Travelling through all the feelings I want to erase
I don't know my name
will you give me a new name
My amygdala, amygdala
Let me learn how to live with this pain
My amygdala, amygdala
I want to live againI don't know my nameTrapped with my broken selfI don't know my nameLiving with this fake faceI don't know my nameso, give me a new name.
He looks at her in disbelief. That's her whole journey. She wrote about her whole journey in one song. Feelings were oozing out from that song.
"You wrote this piece beautifully!", he exclaimed. "I... I... Thank you!", she suffered as she didn't know what to say. "If I ever get a chance to share my story, I would like to sing this song. I would like to tell anyone be it a girl or a boy to learn how to treat their loved one and at the same time, I would like to ask them to be strong. Strong enough to decide what is wrong for them and walk away from it before it destroys them completely. It doesn't matter if people call you selfish just because you walked away from an abusive person. Even if it's your family member just walk away in time before things get complicated. I don't want anyone to end up like me. I want them to learn things from my experience so they won't suffer like me", she said with hope in her eyes. She took a deep breath and continued.
"That's why I decided to compile my every single experience and every sing-song I wrote in a book. I realized that if I hurt myself with my hand after suffering because of others everything will be worthless but if I can save even a single life with the help of my experience maybe I can proudly smile and I will be able to say that my life was worth of all suffering. That's my new dream and reason to live", she stated and smiled in the end.
That's how Lasya found a motivation to live and dreamed about being the motivation for someone else. She is not a bit worried about her marriage because she lost her v card. She is only trying to live her life worry-free with the belief that she will find a good heart.
After months Lasya went to her college for the graduation ceremony. Even this time Dhani was the first to approach her. He knew about her new social media account. He saw her written work, her songs lyrics and illustrations she made.
They talk for a while and he got to know what Lasya decided to do. He loved the idea of helping others with the help of books. But he saw a bit of pain in her eyes. He felt like she didn't free herself yet. But the words he said touched her heart.
"You are an Idiot Lasya. See everything is over now. You are free. You can do whatever you want, and hang out with your friends. You have broken that cage and you have made yourself from the search again. And now you are something. You are a good daughter, a good sister a good friend too. Yeah, sometimes you act crazy but you are a good friend. Moreover, you become an author, lyricist and pharmacist too. Don't worry much I am sure there is good writing in your life ahead. You just started to live. Don't cry anymore you had cried enough. Smile! As much as you can. Always smile for your mother and father and also for me."
That's what Dhani said.
That was true. She started to live her life. There are many more beautiful moments she needs to discover. She had a dream and now she had her best friend with her.