Chapter-4: A Nightmare Or A Poignant Past Of The Villain?

So many thoughts ran bizarre in his mind before he fell asleep tired of thinking everything.

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Hael felt a warm hand on his cheek. He opened his eyes and was startled by the bright light that was hurting his eyes.

He blocked the light covering his eyes with his palm and slowly started adjusting to the brightness when,

"Hael..." He heard a soft voice that sounded familiar.

His eyelashes trembled as he glanced at the person who called him and was stunned to see his own reflection.

"You..." Hael was speechless.

The person in front of him was a carbon copy of him. He smiled at Hael.

"You have many uncertainties in your heart about why I killed my own babies, right?"

Hael was thunderstrucked.

"Y-You... are the villain..."

The person's smile didn't waver in fact it softened even more forming delicate creases making him look ethereal.

"Yes, I am that Villain Hael whom you despised so much for killing my babies."

Hael heard him say babies again and he realized.

"So, you were carrying twins too?"

Villain Hael nodded.

Hael was aggrieved.

"Why... why did you do that... did both of the babies die in the accident?"

The villain Hael's face which was smiling till now became melancholic as he shook his head.

Hael became shocked again cause that only meant one thing, he lost only one of the twins in the accident, and then in prison due to the tortures, he lost the other twin too.

"Did he know... Alpha Arik... did he..." Hael's voice became low.

Villain Hael shook his head.

"He didn't. He had no idea... but that was also his fault in a way."

As he said those words Villain Hael clutched onto the hem of his shirt tightly, his voice was grim.

"What do you mean..." Hael questioned.

He wanted to know the truth.

He was ignorant when he was reading the manga and just believed what was illustrated by the mangaka[manga author or artist] but after coming into this world and spending three months he knew not everything was shown.

There were so many things the mangaka had no control over in this world and his heart always hinted him something but he wasn't sure what was it about.

"All your questions will be answered when you regain all the memories of my... I mean our past life, Hael."

Villain Hael said with a bitter smile.

"Our... what do you mean?" Hael asked, perplexed.

"Relax and concentrate," Villain Hael put his hand on Hael's forehead and closed his eyes.

Hael did as he was asked and closed his eyes.

The memories started playing one by one. He became a transparent being seeing everything that was happening.

The memories started when Villain Hael was five years old...

He was a little boy covered in dirt. His hands were swollen and his feet were bleeding but the little one didn't care as he ran after something with tears in his eyes.

It was a truck on which the body of his dead mother was tossed and sent to the country morgue for a medical examination and then would be sent to cremation.

After that, her ashes would be shipped off and scattered into the ocean as she was an indigent with no one to take care of her funeral and her five-year-old son couldn't do that.

"Mama! Mama!" The little one cried hysterically as he tried to follow the truck but tripped on the road.

His mother was ill after giving birth to him without anyone's help. She was living in a poor hut but she took care of the little one until her health deteriorated.

One day, she died and the little one who didn't even know what death meant was trying to wake up his dead mother.

Getting the stench of dead the locals informed the officials. That was how her body was being taken away from that little one who still hoped his mother would wake up and smile at him as always.

But it never happened. The boy was left alone with his wounds to render himself and no one cared about him.

He lived in that hut for a week until he finished the last bread his mother saved for him. Then he started roaming the streets trying to get something to eat to fill his hungry stomach.

He used to eat the rotten things that hotels threw away by fishing through the garbage cans and even would fight with street dogs for that.

Until he turned eleven when his father came to pick him up from the streets out of nowhere.

Villain Hael didn't ask anything and just followed the man cause he didn't want to know if he was his real father or not.

He just wanted to eat something delicious for once and go to school like all the other kids he was envious of.

Cause whenever he used to eat the rotten things like a rat he saw kids of his age being pampered by their parents who ate something so delicious with all smiles.

He teared up every time he saw them but wiped them off harshly and imagined that his rotten food was also delicious and ate it forcefully.

So, he went to Lucian's mansion. There he was given a room far from the luxurious mansion which was in servant quarters but still, he was happy cause he had a roof over his head and also a small bed.

He was content that he no longer had to sleep on the hard road but on the soft bed.

He was given decent food so he just lived as quietly as a ghost not asking them anything.

A servant then came to him and told him that he would be attending the school. He was on cloud nine.

He bathed for an hour cleaned himself thoroughly and dressed up in the uniform that the servant provided him.

A car took him to the school joined him there and then brought him back home.

He didn't make any friends and never talked with anyone. He was a ghost there too who everyone ignored.

But one day he became envious again seeing his classmates being picked up by their parents.

It was a rainy day.

Little villain Hael was waiting in the rain seeing them walking under the same umbrella and having fun talking with each other.

That day his eyes brimmed with tears and washed away by the drops of the rain yet no one cared.

That was when he realized... he was all alone and had no one.

He grew up talking with no one just answering perfunctory when questioned.

But he was envious of his step-brother Maven who was loved by everyone and had everything that he didn't have.

Yet, he didn't do anything just observed them and did his work until three months after he turned eighteen and was presented as an Omega.

He heard his Father and stepmother talking about selling him to an old man who became interested and was ready to pay huge ransom in exchange.

Villain Hael didn't want to be sold. All this time he stayed quietly thinking that one day those people would become his family.

That one day someone would come to pick him up with an umbrella before he was drenched.

But to think he was picked up from the slums just to be sold off to an old pervert for some property exchange broke his already withered heart.

He retaliated and made his presence known. That was when he saw his step-brother Maven's friend who would always visit their mansion.

He heard that Arik Esmeray was a powerful blue-blooded Alpha and no one dared to oppose him.

So villain Hael thought if he became that person's mate then his father couldn't sell him off.

He started pursuing Alpha Arik even though he was scared. He learned things online on how to seduce an Alpha but none worked.

Finally, he decided to take a drastic step which was to drug Alpha Arik to sleep with him and become pregnant with his child then the Alpha would have no choice but to accept him as his mate.

So he did it. Though he was frightened to the bones he had done the deed with the strongest Alpha who used him like a rag doll under the drug's influence.

The next day, furious Alpha Arik choked him until he thought he was going to die and left him.

Villain Hael didn't know how he went back to his room and lied on his bed lifeless. His whole body was wrecked.

He had no strength left in him. Then for the next week, he had a high fever but no one to take care of him.

He just cuddled on the bed trembling, crying, and begging for the pain to go away.

He couldn't sleep a wink as the scene of Alpha Arik's angry red eyes became a nightmare for him.

Three months passed and Villain Hael noticed the changes in his body. He went to a hospital and did all the tests.

Though he was terrified to see Alpha Arik again he had to show them those reports and make him marry or else his father would sell him off.

So he gathered all his courage and went to the Esmeray's mansion.

At first, Arik denied it but Grandpa Esmeray asked their family doctor to do a paternity test and the results came out positive.

Grandpa Esmeray ordered Alpha Arik to take responsibility and thus they became a married couple.

But Arik didn't accept him either as his mate or as his husband. He just thought of villain Hael as a vessel of his baby.

That was also why Alpha Arik didn't know villain Hael was carrying twins... because he actually never cared.

But villain Hael on the other hand due to pheromonal imbalance craved his Alpha's attention more but got none.

His health started deteriorating and he knew to keep his babies healthy he wanted his Alpha to scent him, to mark him.

He tried so many ways but Alpha Arik in his rage thought villain Hael was just trying to get under his pants and tossed him away.

Hael didn't want his babies to die so he yet again took a drastic step and started blackmailing his Alpha that he would kill their babies if he didn't stay with him.

While doing that one day his step slipped and fell off the stairs. It was an accident.

Villain Hael never wanted to harm his babies cause for him... they were his only family.

Alpha Arik took him to the hospital and the doctor after treating him informed him that their baby was dead.

Enraged Arik slapped villain Hael who just became conscious and accused him of killing their baby.

Villain Hael's heart thundered as he heard him. He became blank void of all hope.

He wanted to laugh at the man who was accusing him that he killed their babies and shout at him that,

"If you wanted your babies to live then you should have helped me all this time when I tried to save them... instead of ignoring me... instead of going to your lover... instead of tossing me away..."

But he didn't and remained quiet with brimming silent tears. Alpha Arik left the hospital and never came back.

The doctor visited him to tell him that only one of the twins lost their life and the other one was still breathing and to take care of him.

Villain Hael became a little hopeful but then a lawyer came throwing divorce papers on his face and some police officers came arresting him for killing his baby.

Yet again his hopes were crushed and he was helpless. What could an Omega who had no one to support do in that situation?

He was sent to prison and there all hell broke loose. He became prey and was tossed around by different men who satisfied their carnal desires.

His other baby died in one such incident when his belly was cruelly kicked continuously because he raised his voice against it to stop the abuse inflicted upon him.

The blood oozed out of the womb made villain Hael go insane.

With the left out strength he managed to take a glass shred and slit his wrist several times laughing bitterly until he took his last breath.

His last words were...

"All... I-I ever wanted... was just a... family-"

And he was dead.

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Hael came back to the bright room after witnessing his death until the end. He cried hysterically falling to the ground.

"I am sorry... I didn't want you to recollect all these memories of ours... but I wanted you to know I... no we were never wrong... we..."

Hael looked at the villain Hael in front of him and chorused with him,

"...just wanted a family."

Hael sobbed hugging him tightly.

After a long time, Hael calmed down. His sobs became sniffs.

"You must already know you and I are the same, Hael."

Villain Hael voiced out patting his back.

"How... did this all happen? Isn't this just a manga world?"

Villain Hael shook his head.

"After our death maybe God pitied us and sent an angel. She gave us a chance to regress but even if we did go back in time we had no strength in us to go through all those things and change our destiny still we wanted our babies to live so we asked her..."

Villain Hael explained how they first wanted to reborn in another world to become strong before coming back here to this world and live with their babies again.

Surprisingly the angel agreed and sent Hael to another world where he lived as an orphan similar to his first half of life without any memories of his past life then lived a successful life all alone and became strong enough to tackle all the problems unlike his past weak self.

That was when God sent him back again to this world but he thought he was transmigrated into the manga.

Hael still couldn't believe he was the villain all along and that he misunderstood his past self without knowing the details.

"I am just a piece of soul that retained our memories to give them back to you so that we can take good care of our babies, give them birth, and let them grow healthily. So, Hael... I have done my part, now it's your turn. Will you let our wish come true?"

Villain Hael asked caressing his cheek.

Hael held his hand and nodded determinedly with red swollen eyes that were still wet.

"Our babies... we will have our family this time no matter what. I will protect them with all I have, don't worry, and now rest."

Villain Hael smiled brightly showing off his boxy smile and nodded, "Our family..." and disappeared into Hael's heart becoming a sparkle.

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Hael opened his eyes which were swollen like a puffer fish from all the crying.

He got up from the bed and opened the curtains of the windows allowing the warm sunlight to seep into his room.

He touched his belly, his eyes were resolute,

"My babies... I won't allow anyone to take you away from me. I will have my family this time... no matter what."

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