Unnamed

Prologue

Homosexuality, the most forbidden quality and form of being sexual. The core attraction between people of the same gender, blasphemy as they'd like to call it. In a world full of envy, deciet and lies, murder, maliciousness, strife, and many more unrighteous and covetous acts somehow homosexuality is portrayed by the society to be the worst sin to ever be committed. However sexual orientation is not a choice, if it was up to anyone then I'm positive no one would willingly want to burn in hell.

I'm positive, feelings were created by God Himself. Feeling were installed in us with the purpose to feel every emotion that comes with it. No one chooses who to love and who to hate. It is merely a feeling, and feelings were created so they can not be controlled by us, humans. We can not choose who to feel the emotion of love to but somehow we get judged because of it. We get judged for expressing the feelings God created for us by the people who also have no control to feel their heterosexual emotions towards one another. Makes me wonder if the world would have been much better without the emotion to feel love.

CHAPTER 1: NEW TO THE CITY

Nurul

"Hey...what are you writing?" My cousin Gina whispered to me as sat down next to me and wrapped her hand around my neck to take a peek of my journal. I quickly turned to her and closed my journal. She fixed a hard look at me and i rolled my eyes. My cousin Gina was a touchy person meanwhile, i, the opposite.

"Hey, don't roll your eyes at me" she said hitting the back of my head.

"Ouch! What was that for??" I screamed at her.

"For not listening, i called you like 4 times and you didn't answer me" She said laughing softly. "What's your obsession with your journal anyway?? What do you always write in that thing?" She said and she tried to grab it from my hand, i quickly stood up and raised it high, luckily i was tall so she couldn't reach even if she tiptoed.

"None of your business, anyway you were in your room and you had your ear plugs on so i figured you didn't want to be disturbed so i came out here" i said.

"On the glass?? To write??" She asked as she raised one eyebrow nodding towards my journal. I nodded. She paused then took a deep sigh and looked at me shaking her head.

"That sounds so boring" she said as she rolled her eyes.

"Coming from the girl with listens to Taylor Swift all day?? Yeah sure...i can takea an insult from her" i said sarcastically.

"I'm just saying, you've been here for what?? 3 days and all you do is write in your stupid journal, we should be out there having fun...its been 5 years since you last came here i wanted to show you around town, meet my friends, get high and out...you'll only be staying with us for 6 months till you finish your internship then you'll back and God knows when you'll visit us again, we have to make the most of your time here cuz" She said.

I hesitated. "Fine, what do you have on your mind??" I asked her. She smiled.

"Well, we could go in town grab some food because i ain't in no mood to cook today,"

I looked at her nodding my head in disbelief.

"And... we could also stop by Chrissy's Cannabis for some joints because you know i need my weed and i can't smoke here when mum is around, i don't want to add more reasons why she should drag us to church tomorrow." She said as she looked at me with the puppy eyes. "Also you could meet a pretty girl there, we have lots of them this side and with the new haircut you have, oh boy be guaranteed you'll meet your soulmate"

"Okay fine" i sighed and laughed a little at the last part she said.

"Now you're talking, let's go" she said as she happily jumped at me as she grabbed my arms and closed it with hers.

Gina, an only child of my Aunt's was also my favorite Cousin from my Mum's side, the Christian side of my family. Meanwhile my mum was a muslim by marriage and although she got separated from my Dad when i was 9, she remained a devoted muslim. My aunt however was a devoted Christian but somehow the twin sisters made it work. I lived with my Dad since i was 9 years old meanwhile, my mum took Iman, my little brother with her as he was still a baby by then. Coming here to visit my aunt was hard after the separation. I would meet my Aunt and Gina only during family functions at our Grandparents place. Now 22 years old, I had just finished college and was only here for an internship i was working on in their city so I had to stay with them for 6 months, at most.

We first stopped by the Cannabis, i was not a weed person but i went inside with Gina to keep her sane because i know what she's like when she's high and it never goes well. After her first joint, strangely she said she was hungry.

"Gina, I'm not going there alone" i told her. The audacity of her to send me to grab some tacos for her at The Foodies while i leave her there till she finished her joint.

"Come on, Nurul it's just two shops to our right from here. Why should two people go just to grab food...can you please go...i beg you i'm hungry and if i don't eat I'll shrink right here and now" she said.

I hesitated. "You owe me" i said as i walked slowly backwards to the door.

"A million, yes! I love you" she laughed.

I got out of the shop and hopped in our car which we parked outside to quickly grab my phone and wallet. This is was really so different from the last time i came.

I walked in The Foodies, and there were 6 other people in front of me in line. More than anything in life i hated waiting. Plus, there was a couple on a table arguing with their crying baby and a toddler with a runny nose licking his fingers and pocking the taco in his plate which somehow annoyed me. I texted Gina, who texted back saying i should wait a little more and that it wouldn't take long to buy the tacos. I sighed deeply.

Just then, i noticed a woman walked in and stood in front of me, cutting the line. I looked up at the back. I looked around and there had been two more people at the back and she clearly cut the line. The two guys at my back didn't even notice because they were both scrolling on their phones. I tapped her shoulders,

"Excuse me Ma'am but you're cutting the line" i said to her. She did not turn or flinch. The 1st person on the line walked out after being served but still i wasn't going to let her cut the line while we waited.

"Ma'am, i said you're cutting the line, could you please go at the back," i said.

"Are we invisible to you ma'am??" I continued as she again, did not even flinch or turn. I tapped her shoulder again. "Ma'am??" I loudly shouted in annoyance so much that the other guy in front of her turned to us and the couple that was fighting stopped to look at us. I did not like causing scenes in public places but somehow there i was.

She then turned to me. The most beautiful girl i had ever laid my eyes on.

"I can hear you alright and no you're not invisible... and i swear to God if you call me Ma'am one more time..."She said angrily.

I froze.

She had the most bright brown eyes i had ever seen my whole life. Her lips covered in light lipgloss. Her cheeks spelt 'kiss me'. Her neck and her navel whispered touch me. I froze right there and then. Her ears looked so smooth like a talc rock. Her make up was light so i could tell she had no doubt a beautiful natural face too. She had no jewelry on and she had on a long peach maxi dress with long sleeves too and she carried a black Prada bag.

"Hello??" She snapped her fingers on my face. "You can't speak now?? Cat got your "tongue??" She asked.

"Uhhmmm....i..i..." what was wrong with me. "I did not cut your line Mr or whatever you are" she cut me off as she pointed towards my chest. Okay? Who is this girl and why was i letting her talk to me like that. She wasn't wrong to assume though. I mean...to be fair, i had on a long sleeve shirt with a puffy vest on top and black denim jeans.

Melanie

"Yes, we are just around the block Uncle George..."

"That's what black people say when they are nowhere near the place" Uncle George replied.

"No...but we are literary here...I'm i right Dad??" I turned to my father who was driving. He nodded in response.

"Dad...??" I whispered loudly to him.

"What??" He whispered back. I rolled my eyes.

"He can't see you, you're supposed to speak" i laughed.

"Hello???" My Uncle shouted.

"We're here Uncle, I'm coming in now, we're just parking outside, i can even see you at the back of the line" i said and cut the call before he could complain more. My Uncle was in line waiting for us at The Foodies. This place had the best tacos and it was mostly loaded on weekends because they did not have a delivery system in place yet.

As we were about to get out of the car, my Dad phone rung and he picked it up quickly and signalled me to go inside first. I got out of the car and pulled out my phone my my handbag. Just then i saw Her, the most beautiful and perfect girl i had ever laid my eyes on. It was as if the world had just then started working in slow motion. She was double checking if the car she just got out from was locked. I noticed. Her sight was breathtaking and i would have traded everything i had just to keep the view. They say no one was made by God perfect but putting her in a 'perfect' category seemed quite an understatement. She was beyond perfection. The way she carried herself. So gracefully. She had on a long sleeve shirt with a puffy vest on top and black denim jeans. Simple outfit but it was perfection at most. I suddenly a felt cold shivering feel down my spine. I watched her as she looked around before entering The Foodies. I froze. Nearly forgot why i was there in the first place. My legs felt so weak. My heart felt heavy, yet so light. My brain felt like i rented it somewhere. Who was this woman and why was i feeling so vulnerable. I had met and seen many beautiful women but what was so different about her. No woman had ever put me in a panicking position like that. I needed some answers as to why i was left on chokehold like that. I got back to my senses and slowly walked in too and there she was, standing in line just behind my uncle. I froze. She was tapping on her phone so maybe she wouldn't even care if you walked past her. I convinced myself as i walked slowly towards them. My uncle turned and saw me, waved and signalled me stand in line behind him. I walked slowly and stood behind him. Pheeeew i made it. Her cologne was so soothing. I closed my eyes slowly as i tried to savour the scent. Then suddenly i felt a tap on my left shoulder.

"Excuse me Ma'am but you're cutting the line" a voice behind me said. Her voice sounded so calm but yet deep and raspy. I froze at the sound of her voice.

"Ma'am, i said you're cutting the line, could you please go at the back," she said to me.

"Are we invisible to you ma'am??" Now i could hear the annoyance from her tone. She then tapped my shoulder again. "Ma'am?" I heard her call me again. Loudly this time that my uncle had to turn. I had to quicky turn to her too to Explain the whole situation. If it was even a situation. Her trying to make a scene was just unnecessary there and calling me Ma'am??

"I can hear you alright and no you're not invisible... and i swear to God if you call me Ma'am one more time..."I said angrily.

My heart was beating fast. I felt like i was sweating. Standing up close to her like that felt too much for my sanity. She had the most bright hazel brown eyes. Her scent smelt like heaven up close like that. She was looking at me from top to bottom, In disgust.

"Hello??" I snapped my fingers on her face, "You can't speak now?? Cat got your "tongue??" I asked, i needed her to stop looking at me and i lowkey wanted her to talk back to me so i could listen to her voice again.

"Uhhmmm....i..i..." She stammered. What was wrong going on?? Was i harsh??. "I did not cut your line Mr or whatever you are" i found myself saying. Pointing towards her chest. Stop Melanie, Shut up. I told myself. It all needed to be stopped.

"Pardon us Mr, my niece was just joining me because i called her in line but we are getting the same order, she's with me." My Uncle interrupted. Thank Heavens. Apart from the fact that he had just misgendered her, i was so glad he interrupted before i could say something worse.

CHAPTER 3

Nurul

"Crazy day huh" Gina said and she threw herself over the dry clean clothes i was folding on my bed.

"Tell me about it" i sighed. She looked at me and we both burst out laughing.

"Thank you for looking out for me Nurul." She said surprisingly calm so it sounded weird.

"You're just high" i whispered.

"Hey you guys" a voice from the door. It was my Aunt standing there smiling.

"Heeey" we both answered awkwardly. "You're back" Gina continued.

"Aaah yes...didn't expect me home so early?? I thought I'd find your Dad home..." she said walking in the room.

"He's not back yet" Gina replied.

"Ooooh..." she said tilting her head as she walked out. "And before i forget..." she said as she came back in the room. "We all are going to church tommorow" she continued. Gina froaned.

"Including you Nurul" she said.

"No I'm not" i laughed awkwardly.

"Yes you are" she said walking towards my bed.

"No"

"Yes. You. Are." She brightly said as she folded her arms against her chest.

I fixed a hard look on her. She was serious.

"This is a Christian Home, you stay with us then you have to live by our rules and on Sundays we go to church and that's a rule." She continued. I stopped folding my shirt and looked at her.

"I am not a Christian, Aunt" i said.

"You are not a Muslim either" Gina said.

"I am a Muslim..."

"Oooh please you haven't been at the Masjid in years, if anything you are a Hippie...a real lebel for that matter" Gina cut my sentence.

"What happened to having each other's backs Gina" i whispered.

"I'm sorry but ain't no way I'm going to sit in church alone when you'll be at home sleeping, and who I'm i going to gossip with there?" She replied.

"No..no gossiping at church, listen i know you come from a Muslim household and i respect that but I'd so love if you respected our rules too...it's not so hard...it's settled you're coming to church with us" She said walking out..."you can borrow one of Gina's dresses" she said.

"Come on, don't make that face, church is alright" Gina said as she walked out of the room too following her mum. "So in this case i could borrow one of your dresses for church??" Gina said to her mum. "No!" I heard her shout. "Come on, I'll pay" she continued as she shut my door behind her .

I angrily threw the shirt i was holding on the floor. Lay on the bed, facing the ceiling and took my deep breath as i closed my eyes.

The main difference between Christianity and Islam is in the nature of God. Us, Muslims refer to God as Allah and believe that Allah created all of existence as we know it. I believe Allah is the only God and must be the same God as the one that the Christians worship. Allah is just another name for the one God of the universe. And i believe Christianity teaches that God sent his son, Jesus Christ, as they call Him, to redeem all of mankind, and that only belief in Christ will allow someone to enter heaven. The Quran acknowledges Christians as 'People of the Book,' along with Jews, recognizing the divine revelations they have received from Allah therefore these religions have a rich culture interchange that connects them. Maybe going to church would not be the worst experience, i was a philosopher after all and maybe this would be good for me.

I walked in church quietly along with Gina in a middle of sermon. I was running late so my Aunt and Uncle rushed there and left me with Gina in case I'd make an excuse to stay back home. Also, it was hard to find a comfortable dress from Gina's closet. There were either tacky or just not. She even tried to force me to wear her heels. I finally chose a dress, not the best but i could see myself swallowing my ego for the next 4 hours. I obviously wore my black Dr martens boots with the blue dress, after a 30 minutes debate on why i couldn't wear any of my sneakers to match with the dress. It was a nightmare. I kept trying to pull it down my knees as we walked in to find our sits, to make things worse, the Usher was leading us to the sits slightly close to the altar. We had to receive a few judgemental looks from people who kept turning to us a we walked past their sits. Again, this was a nightmare.

"Didnt think we were loud enough " Gina whispered to me as we finally sat. I rolled my eyes.

"Were we not?? Your heels Gina...they were loud..." i responded. Suddenly everyone was clapping. Looking at Gina she was clapping too so i awkwardly followed.

The man who was preaching then walked off from the Pulpit and some people in matching blue and black gowns who sat facing us from the Altar stood up and walked towards the microphone put in from of them. The pianist started playing a chord and everyone in stood stood up clapping their hands again, ladies screaming and men whistling, i looked around and awkwardly started clapping my hands too. I froze in disbelief as i saw the woman i saw the previous day at The Foodies. I was in shock. I closed my eyes for some seconds hoping i was hallucinating. Didn't know what would have been better, for it to be a hallucination or if she was actually there because this woman made me feel things i had no explanations why i felt them. She made me feel numb. I opened my eyes and there she was still there, holding a mic with the brightest smile I had never seen before. She looked so much as ease and she had a beautiful and peaceful aura around her. The world had paused for me. Noone and nothing else really mattered in that moment. I froze as i loudly heard my heart beating so fast and loudly. It was almost as if i was having a minor heart attack. She took the mic and started singing, the other people in gowns followed. I found myself smiling awkwardly. Gina looked at me with a confused face as i just smiled back at her. Was this the best service i ever had?? Yes. Did i ever think i was ever going to skip church again after this? No. Might as well just convert to Christian.

After the service, i rushed outside as soon as i could. Leaving Gina with a startled face calling out for me to stop. I even had to push some people in order to get out fast. Sorry to those people but i had to. I needed answers.

I noticed at the altar that they had an exit door which i assumed was meant for the Preacher and the Choir so i was rushing out to go around the church to that exit door so that i should not miss the woman who stole my brain. I would have said my heart, but it was quick too soon to tell. I stood outside the exit and it flung open and some members of the choir were really exiting through that door. I just stood there as some of them awkwardly greeted me delightfully as they walked down the steps while some wondered why i was standing there. I checked my time. 7 minutes had passed and noone else was coming out of the door. Did i just miss her??

"Nurul...what are you doing standing there?" Gina whispered as she walked sneakily towards me. I turned to her.

"Oh Gina...what are you doing here??" I lowered my voice.

"What am i doing here?? What are you doing here??" She whispered loudly in response. "Let's go home" She continued. "And why are we whispering?" She whispered loudly.

"I can't...I'm waiting for someone" I said.

She raised one eyebrow at me.

"At the pastor's exit door??"

"Uh huh" i nodded.

"The pastor??"

"No..."

"Then who..."

Just then we heard a distant chanting. We both looked up. It was the lady i was waiting for coming down the steps with the preacher. She looked so confused as she looked down at me. Then she looked at Gina who suddenly let out a deep sigh and rolled her eyes at the sight of the lady. The lady kept smiling at whatever the Preacher was saying and avoided Gina's glances. Then the Preacher noticed us standing there.

"Good afternoon Pastor Kallos" Gina said brightly.

"Good afternoon Miss Samorra" The Preacher said..."And...??" He said as he looked at me.

"Uuuuhm Nurul...This is my cousin Nurul Kareem...she's visting us". Gina said. The Preacher came towards us and spread out his hand and i shook it.

"Nice to meet you" He said smiling.

"Nice to meet you too Pastor..." i said but my eyes where fixed on the lady besides him.

"Welcome to our church" The lady said as she also spread her hand towards me. With no hesitation i took it. Her hands were so warm. I didn't want to let go of her hand.

"I was actually waiting for you" i said.

"Pardon?" She asked confused.

"I..uhm...i mean we...we...were waiting for you" i said as i pointed at Gina and i awkwardly as let go of her hand.

The Preacher then cleared his throat.

"Then i guess I'll have to leave you ladies to it..." he said and turned to the lady. "Honey, I'll be waiting in the car". She nodded and he walked away. Oh so that was his Father. She was a Pastor's daughter.

She hesitated then looked at me.

"You and Gina were waiting for me?? But why??" She asked. "Do you need another rematch with me??" She then said this as she turned to Gina who rolled her eyes in response.

"Like you'd win" Gina said.

I was confused.

"Okay...what's going on?? You two know each other??" I asked.

"She's the bitch that stole my Aaron" Gina said. The lady rolled her eyes. "How do you know her Nurul?".

"It...happened...a lot time...ago...get over it..." She said slowly. "And he was never your man to begin with" she chuckled.

"Wait...Aaron the douchebag with the failed music career??" I turned to Gina who nodded yes.

"Okay...in as much as much you two have history I'd so very much like if you gave me 5 minutes of your time please" i said to the lady.

"How do you know my cousin??" Gina asked the lady threateningly.

"I do not know her" she replied.

"So what's exactly is going on..."

"Gina, could you please excuse us...i'd like to talk to her in private" i turned to Gina.

She raised one eyebrow at me.

"Nurul..."

"Gina...please" i said softly.

She looked at me then looked at the lady. Back at me again.

"Fine...you'll find me in the car" she said as she walked away slowly backwards. I threw the car keys at her.

"Catch...you're driving us back" i said.

She sighed as she walked away.

Now it was just the two of us with no one on sight.

She awkwardly looked at me and cleared her throat.

"So, why exactly do you want to talk to me about?? You want to apologize to me for causing a scene yesterday??" She asked me.

"You and assuming things. You want me to apologize for it??" I asked.

"You won't??" She asked with a serious face. I hesitated.

"You're a lesbian" she said awkwardly loud. I turned to see if people were around.

I chuckled.

"Thank you for randomly pointing that out and yes i am..."

I saw her mumbling something i didn't understand.

"I'm sorry...does that make you uncomfortable??" I asked.

She laughed out loud

"What?? Me?? Why would it make me feel uncomfortable?" She said. And she was right. Fuck, what was i saying.

"Right...uhhm...actually, i wanted to get some answers from you" i said.

"You have the questions??" She asked.

Then her Father pulled up on the driveway and hooted at us. We turned to him.

"Seeing as you know Gina i assumed you know her place. Come at 8 and use the small backgate...I'll leave it open for you, noone hardly uses it and it's close to my room's window sooo..."

"What makes you think I'd want to come??" She asked. I walked towards her slowly. I was standing at least 10 cm away from her. Where did i get this nerve from.

"Because leaving you without telling you like this will make you curious too" i whispered to her as i leant to her left ear. She flinched. She took a few steps away from me.

"Look i have to go..." she said walking away.

"Wait...i didn't quite get your name..." i said.

She turned to me.

"Melanie." She said softly. My heart raced.

"You look like a Melanie" i said.

She smiled brightly at me and i watched her walk away from me. Her scent filling me with pleasure.

I swear i could have fainted right there and then. I had just had a conversation with an Angel.

CHAPTER 4

Melanie

I had to control how happy i was when i got on the passenger's seat.

"You were taking so long " He said to me. I could not help but smile as i watched her watching me. Was she really watching me though, i highly doubted but i loved to think that she was watching me.

"I'm sorry Dad " i said to him.

"Next time you know you're going to have these after church meetings, take another car". He said. What was that about though?? What questions did she have for me that was so important. Should i really go??

I looked at my Dad and smiled. "Of course, Dad".

I watched through my side view mirror and she was watching us still, driving away. Wait...why did i ruin it by pointing out she's a lesbian?? So stupid. Now she must think I'm a wierd dork.

Nurul

'She's so amazing' i whispered to myself as i lay down on my bed that night. Looking at the ceiling. I stood up. Sighed deeply, went to my closet and unzipped my dress. Finally after a long day in a dress, couldn't wait to wear something more comfortable. I couldn't earlier after church because we had to visit the hospital. My Aunt loved donating things at the hospital. She made it a habit and i always enjoyed doing charity with her. Somehow it made me feel relevant knowing i was able to bring joy and a smile on someone's face.

I undressed myself, put on my towel and connected my bluetooth and deemed the lights a little. Hopped in the shower while my Brent Faiyaz playlist played with a big smile on my face. The sound of the cold water running down my body never felt more calming. I gasped as the water run down my bareback, rushing down to the back of my thighs. It felt ticklish yet so amazing. I closed my eyes as i looked up and let the water run down my face. There was a vivid image of Melanie in my head for a few seconds. She was wearing a beautiful white see through silk dress but the best thing she wore was her smile. I smiled back. Why was she was everywhere but here, physically with me. I gasped again as the cold water run down my breasts heading down my belly button. The cold water suddenly turned warm as it trailed between my thighs. I gasped yet again. My heart started beating so fast. I quickly opened my eyes as i heard a banging sound from outside. I turned off the shower.

"Hello??" I said. "Gina?" I said as i heard no reply. I quickly grabbed by towel and opened the bathroom door slowly. "Gina??" I said. I couldn't think of any other person who would enter my room without knocking. Gina had no boundaries whatsoever. There was noone there. I walked out of the bathroom and went to turn down the music a little.

"Aaaaaaaa!!" I screamed as i was turning back to go back to the bathroom.

It was Melanie. Standing right by my window

"Oh my God...I'm so sorry, did i scare you??" She said walking towards me. I blinked heavily. She was still there, and shockingly in a white dress. Not as see through as the one i imagined her in, in the shower but somewhat similar. So, it wasn't just my imagining everything.I cleared my throat.

"Who me?? Scared?? Noo!!" I awkwardly responded. "If anything i was just startled."

I continued.

"I'm sorry i just came in like that, i opened the back gate and shouted your name by the window but I guess you couldn't hear me with the loud music so i decided to get in through the window, banged over the wood box outside on my leg and..."

"Oh my God...are you okay??" I cut her and rushed over to her, quickly pushed her a little and sat her on my bed softly. And went on to check her leg, i noticed some scratches below her kneee. She blocked my hand with her arm.

"I'm so sorry" i said as i pulled back. I must have made her uncomfortable. She looked up at me. "I'm fine, its just a scratch" she said softly.

What now...

I noticed her staring at me deeply then her eyes went down at my chest. Oh shit, i was still in my towel. She noticed i caught her staring so she looked away. This was awkward.

"Sooo...I'll just.." i said pointing at my closet as i walked towards it. I opened it and quickly picked up a grey shirt and some black shorts and rushed back in the bathroom. Luckily, my undies, boxers and sportsbras were there. I don't know why i felt embarrassed all of the sudden. I quickly got dressed and went back in the room. I watched her as she gave herself a little tour of my room.

"Where did you get this??" She said, giggling as she turned to me to show me the two she was holding.

"You would never guess" i said smiling.

"There are so rare, but there are original, the closest I've seen these was on screen" she said.

"Well, what can i say...I'm a collector. " i said. "Stick around more i might collect something more valuable for you" i continued. She looked and me deep, blushed and looked away. She put them back on the shelf and walked towards me.

"Soooo..." she said.

"Sooo...??" I said it back mimicking her. She laughed.

"Questions, you said you had questions about me..." she said. I hesitated.

"I know...but right now that you're here my mind suddenly feels so blank..." i said.

She looked at me. I caught her again staring down at my breast. I cleared my throat.

"But maybe, and correct me if I'm wrong but i feel like you might also have questions for me" i said.

"Well..." she said. Then looked around my room. "I do have questions but i don't know how to ask them" she continued.

"Without offending me??" I asked her.

"No...without offending me..." she said.

"Uhhmmm....I'm confused" i said. I was indeed confused. She looked at me and smiled.

"Well...you see...after our encounter this afternoon i had to do a little digging and yes before you ask me why i had to...i wasn't going to meet a person i hardly know at their place without running a little background check on them so i had to do a little digging..." she said.

"Fair..." i nodded.

"Soooo...according to my finding, you're a Muslim, yes??" She asked. I nodded yes.

"And queer??" I nodded yes again.

"And again, according to my findings, marrying or having sexual desires for a person, same sex as you is Haram or Unholy or whatever term you use to justify such endeavors, and the fact that you participate in such acts just makes you a lebel, both to your family and religion..." she said this walking around the room. It almost felt like i was in court. She then stopped as she noticed i didn't respond to her. She turned to me. I hesitated as a stared down at her face. I signaled her to sit on the bed. She did. I walked to my book shelf and pulled out a Bible and a Quran and put them both on the bed besides her.

I sighed.

"I don't even know where to start...usually i hate having this argument with people but you're lucky you'll get schooled by me today..." i said as i walked back to bring a book from the book shelf and threw it on the bed besides her.

"That's a book by Scott Siraj al-Haqq Kugle, an Islam scholar, 'Homosexuality in Islam'. One of many of my favorite books." I said. She picked it up and started going throw the pages.

"It might suprise you but sexual and gender diversity were acknowledged by the Prophet Muhammad. Prophet Muhammad was also a scholar you know?? There is a well known Hadith about the life of Prophet Muhammad, he said and i quote, 'There are three things that were made beloved to me in this world, women, perfume and Prayer. In short, this Hadith indicates that sexual desire is something He cherishes. In another Hadith, He said, 'sexaul play' is a good thing and Allah rewards people for 'sexaul play', and even though sexaul play is not defined in the Quran, we understand it as sex acts other than sexual intercourse..." i said. She cleared her throat.

"Sexaul play does not necessarily lead to making babies so this just indicates that sex acts are considered good and healthy whether or not they lead to making babies" i continued.

"Our law, and i repeat our law in islam focused on straight and heterosexual relationships because they lead to pregnancy while us, queer may raise but can't get pregnant that's why it's forbidden because of the law simply made by people because islam itself can not say what is wrong and what is right. The Quran does not mention the term 'homosexuality'..."

"I'm sorry i have to cut you there, The Islam perspective is consistent with Judaic and Biblical perspectives as stipulated in our Holy Bible which means you're just spitting out nonsense to back up to your acts" She said.

"I'm glad you've brought that up yourself...Judaism was practiced long time ago, back then people were doing all sorts of things. Different things used to be practiced. For instance, marrying your cousin or your sister did not seem to matter by then and according to The Holy Bible, what God saw happening in Soldom and Gomola was Unholy because it was happening all out of lust and not out of love. Love makes everything anew. Brings everything to a new light. Sexuality is a lot more than lust Melanie. Yes, it involves desire but it also includes thoughts on how one sees oneself and others. It is part of a person identity. My sexuality and me being gay part of my identity.

With the Love of Jesus, everything became new. He did after all forgive and cleanse that lady who was into prostitution. His love purified him and as a scholar, i believe when Jesus died on the cross he portrayed love. The love He showed us on the cross is pure love is it cleanses everything and every sin.

God would not have made me like this knowing if was bad, then does that mean he doesn't love me?? No, He loves everyone equally that is why i stand with the fact that being queer, my sexuality perspective is pure and out of love for women just as men love women and women love men...i hope you're understanding where I'm going with this??" I asked her...she nodded.

"And that's according to the Bible, you'd be suprised how well i know the Bible. And now, among many scholars of Islam, show that common punishments for Homosexuality in Islamic countries have no basis in the Quran or Sunnah and in fact having sexaul pleasure is a blessing from Allah. Even the Quran describes Heaven as a paradise of a physical kind..."

She quickly stood up from my bed and walked towards me. "Shhhh...." she said as she put her finger on my mouth.

"I get what you're trying to say" she whispered.

"You do??" I sighed. She chuckled.

"Uhuh...i do..." she whispered back.

I looked down deep in her eyes. She was at least 5'6 tall. I was a 6'2 tall. The world seemed to have stopped once again for us.

"And now...my questions..."she said. I hesitated for at least 10 seconds...just staring down at her.

"You make me nervous" i finally whispered.

Melanie

I made her nervous?? She literally made me numb. I could not think straight

"I....i...i...i am straight..." i stammered as i blinked endlessly.

I saw her smile and walked a little closer to me that i could tell she could hear my heart beating so fast.

"Of course you are..." She said deeply as she touched my cheek with her right hand. Her hand felt so cold on my cheek but i needed that. She then pulled up my chin so i was looking up at her. Her lips looked so full and rich. I was so thirsty for her lips on mine. I gulped loudly at that thought. I felt a sudden coldness run down through my spine like electric shock, but the good kind of shock if that even made sense. This made me flinch more towards her and she sighed deeply.

"Damn...I'm not sorry for this" she said as she covered her lips on mine. I slowly closed my eyes as the time froze between us.

I needed that.

My nerves felt so calm. I so needed that.

I kissed her back softly. She then let go of my chin and wrapped her hand around my waist and pulled me more closer to her that i gasped softly in her mouth.

Nurul

I pulled her so close that i could feel her breasts rubbing against my libs just below my chest. Her warmth was everything to me. I kissed her more deeply as i noticed her hands wrapping my neck. I slid my tongue in her mouth softly and slowly and i heard her moan. Her moan drove me crazy. I could sense my brain waves flushing so fast that i couldn't think anymore. All I needed right there and then was to hear her moan like that again. I pulled away and looked at her. She was gasping for air. I was breathing heavily and my heart was racing. She blushed and looked down. I grabbed her chin and pulled it up so she was looking straight in my eyes as i was.

I needed more of her. I slowly pressed my hand on her cheek again and started moving it down softly to her neck. It felt so warm and the beam of light from the moon shone heavily on her neck. I was mesmerized. I slowly went down and kissed her neck softly. I took a deep breath to smell her perfume and she smelt like Roses and strawberries. She then grabbed my head and pulled it more closer to her. Her little fingers ran in my hair. I bit her neck softly. She moaned again, loudly that i lost all my control. I turned her back to the bed and pushed her down to the bed softly. I went on the bed too and turned her sideways to unzip the back of her dress. I pulled them down and they fell down on the floor as we kept kissing. She pulled me closer, i turned her again and pressed her on top of me. Good thing she was petite. My stomach was between her thighs. I looked up at her. She looked down at me. Her nipples erected and i could slighty see them through her lacy white bra...Damn, i was so turned on. I stared down at her belly button, down to her white lacy thongs. I could sense she felt shy in the moment because she then quickly kissed me on my lips. My left hand was rubbing softly against her right bum. She moaned.

"I love it when you do that..." i whispered through the soft kisses she was then giving me on my lips. She then kissed my neck and nibbled it with her tongue. Wow. I needed to switch it up real quick. I quickly unhooked her bra, threw it on the floor and quickly turned her over and went on top of her. Her breasts were so full they could fit my hand. Her nippled were so erect that they looked more darker than most nipples. I needed to touch them. To test them. I stared down at her. She was a work of art. I went slowly to grab her left breast as i couldn't hold it in me anymore. I then kissed her nipple before putting it deep in my mouth, i licked and sucked it till she clinged to my shirt. She was pulling it up. I quickly pulled away, removed my shirt for her. She stared down at my sports bra down to my torso. She then went to to touch my sports bra, i blocked her hand and grabbed it. I hesitated. I had never let a girl see my breasts before but to my suprise i was guiding her. I let her touch my breasts. She then slowly pulled up my sports bra and down to the floor they went. I was suprised by how comfortable that made me feel. I was in fact turned on by the fact that her face lighten up as she saw my breasts exposed like that. I went down to pull her undies and threw then down to the floor along with my shorts, boxers and undies. We were both completely naked. I went on to part between her legs slowly and slowly went on down to kiss her belly button, suck rather. She moaned again as she pressed her around my back. I was going below her belly button, i started kissing her groan and her on top of her pussy. She was all shaved it was as if she came prepared. She started breathing faster and loudly like a hungry dog as i nibbled her groan with my tongue while i pushed her left leg slightly apart. I looked up her before going completely down on her.

"Are you sure??" I asked her. Seemed a little too late to ask for verbal consent.

"Yes...I'm sure" She said.

I smiled at her but instead went up to whisper to her ear. "No you're not" and then teased her ear with my tongue. I could hear her still breathing so loud.

"I am..." she said as she guided my hand down between her legs to show me she was ready for me. I stopped her hand.

"Then ask me nicely, say you want me...." i whispered to her. She pulled me up to face her as she once again guided my hand to her pussy.

"I want you Nurul...i want you to touch me..." She moaned deeply. I quickly touched her pussy. She was all wet and slippery down her. I moaned deeply. I was so turned on.

Melanie

Her moaning drove me so crazy. I needed more of that. I went on to grab her right breast, started rubbing her nipple with my index finger. She moaned again. She moaned out loud. She was trying so hard to keep me satisfied but i needed her satisfied too. She touched my wet clitoris and started rubbing it with her finger, up and down before slightly putting her middle finger in my pussy. I gasped as it slowly went inside me. I clung to her as my fingers dug on her bareback.

"Fuck!!" I found myself mumbling. "Yes...i want you right there...don't stop Nurul don't stop" i moaned. She looked at me with a lazy stare. Her eyes were a little pale and her she looked so out of it.

"Like this" she asked as she fasten her pace.

I moaned and gasped at the same time.

"Yes!!Oooh yes...just like that....!" I kept moaning. I sat up so that i could also touch her pussy.

Nurul

She touched my pussy. That's the furthest I had let any woman touch me. I was so wet but i wasn't embarrassed by it. She made me feel like that and i was glad she did. She rubbed my clit and lost it. I pulled my head up and looked up at the ceiling. My back arched to her touch. This was a new amazing different type of high. I was moaning so loud and so was she. She didn't slide her finger inside my pussy and i was glad she embraced the fact that her fingers on my clit made me so turned on like that. I kept moaning out loud that now she was the one controlling me, she even shushed me to keep it down. I was so close to having an orgasm.

I fasted my pace as i run my finger in and out of her pussy. She was now moaning as fast as i was and a felt some warm liquid run down my finger. I fastened my pace more.

"Fuuuuuuuuck!!" She moaned loudly as she squirt all over my bed. I was so turned on, that and that she had then switched her index to the middle on to rub my clitoris that i orgasmed. Right there. I orgasmed. I felt some warm liquid running down my legs.

We both moaned deeply.

I then looked at her as we were both breathing so fast and loud.

We both started laughing. I then threw myself on the bed besides her. I kissed her forehead and lay besides her, both of us staring at the ceiling.

"That was..." she said shaking her head.

"Amazing..." i said as i sighed deeply.

I turned to her. "You are amazing" i whispered to her. She turned to look at me too. I touched her cheek. She smiled. Then i saw her standing up to quickly grab her undies from the floor. I watched her as she wore them quickly.

"You're not getting in the shower??" I asked her. She didn't respond.

I watched her as she wore her bra and her dress.

"Hey...hey..calm down..." i said as i stood up.

"Why are you in such a rush...?" I asked her. She hesitated as she was zipping up her dress.

"You want us to be all sweet with each other and cuddle now??" She aaked me.

"This is way past my curfew and i just realised that I'm sorry okay??" She said as she stretched her hand to me.

"What??" I asked her.

"Phone" She said. I looked at her more confused. She rolled her eyes.

"Don't you need my phone number??" She aaked me.

"Ooooh!" I quickly said as i rushed to grab my phone from my table and handed it to her. She typed in her number and gave it to me...

"See you around" she said as she headed towards to window. She then quickly turned back to me run to me and kissed me softly.

"Good night " she told me. I grabbed her hand.

"Wait, can i just hold your hands like this for at least 30 seconds??" I asked her. She looked at me deeply and nodded yes. I held both her hands gently in my hands. Her warmth was what i needed in that moment. Her hands felt so warm so much that i felt guilty that my hands probably felt cold to her instead. I held on to them for 25 seconds, as i was counting in my head. She locked eyes with mine. She then got shy and started blushing, she then let go of my hands and rushed out as she climbed down my window.

"Be careful!" i shouted.

And she was gone, i saw her going through the back gate through ny window. I turned around my room as the cold breeze hit my bare breast. I realized i was just standing there in the room, now it felt so lonely. I took deep sigh as i closed my eyes. I didn't want her to leave. I turned to look around the room and noticed Brent Faiyaz playlist was still playing on repeat. I smiled. I then looked around my room, noticed the mess Melanie and i had made on my bed. I had just had sex to the most amazing woman with Brent Faiyaz playing? I couldn't trade that feeling for anything.

"Damn" i whispered to myself as i smiled brightly.

CHAPTER 5

Nurul

Gina swore she heard me and Melanie having sex that night but i denied it. Not that i wanted to hide things from her but sharing my sex life with people was not ny thing. Well, my journal was my therapy i could write down everything and every experience i had. I know this was just my Aunt's place and i needed to respect her house but if you had a woman as gorgeous as Melanie and I'd bet a billion dollars with anyone to have some self control. That week, i had to go to week so me and Melanie would text back to back. She wanted my attention and i gave her my all. So much that i would sometimes sneak to the bathroom just to call her and check up on her. She was sending me random pictures of herself and what she was up to and i loved every photo she sent me. I was so gone. I didn't believe lesbian U-haul was a thing until then. If i had my own place i would have asked her to move in with me. Every seconds spent without her felt like Hell.

I decided to ask her out. I was going to eventually but I thought if i wanted to settle down with this woman i needed to get to know her first. I needed to know what she was like. I was so sure I'd even fall in love with all her flaws. If she even had any because to me she was perfect.

I was going to knock of Early that Thursday so i asked her to meet me out for dinner, of course, she said yes. So i went to there, in my peach suit and my white Dr martens roafers, with my light peach bag. My hair was just done the previous two days so i was rocking the dreads. i was going for a decent look but this made me look more outgoing. One thing about me, I'd dress for the occasion. I even arrived on time, so that was a bonus. I was so nervous like i had never met her before. I told her to meet me at 7:30 so i showed up at 7:28, i couldn't make a pretty lady like that wait. I sat on our table and requested for water. I felt so nervous that i thought i was lowkey sweating. I cleared my throat as i practiced my opening conversation for wheb she arrived. I felt so stupid that i would even do that. One time a lady on the opposite table stared at me and caught me speaking to myself. I awkwardly waved at her as a gulped my third glass of water.

"First date??" She asked smiling. I nodded yes and smiled back.

"Would you like to order??" Th waiter interrupted and i looked at her. "40 minutes have passed so i thought you'd like to order??" She continued. I cleared my throat as i checked my phone. 40 minutes had indeed passed. I stared at the unread messages i had left for her, asking her if everything was okay since she was running late.

"I'll wait a little longer..." i nervously said to the waiter. He left. I stared at the messages i had sent and was debating on whether or not to send a Seventh text to call her because giving her a call for the 12th time felt like pushing it. Really?? Who had i turned to?? Then i saw her typed for what seemed like eternity for the text to read that she couldn't come as her Dad left her home with her Dog.

Melanie

I saw her through the restaurant's glass doors as she read my messages. I stood outside with my Floral Peach dress. I also had on silver hoops on ny ears and a cute necklace from Rori Jewelry along with a silver bracelet. I grabbed on tight to my purse as guilt ate my up. I then saw her taking a big gulp from the glass of water in front of her. Saw her scratch her head nervously while she looked around the restaurant awkwardly. I couldn't watch it any longer so i walked away. To be honest, i still had not figured out why i was there, why i met her, talked to her, had sex on her bed, gave her my number, gave her my number and came there, i wasn't like her.

We came from two different worlds and not that that mattered much but what made me agree to all that, i wasn't even sure. I was straight. Above her i was a pastor's daughter well known in my town. I wouldn't bring myself to meet her like that. Being with her felt right but it was not right. I wasn't courageous like that. She knew who she was. I didn't. She stood up for herself. I knew I'd never be able to do that. She knew what she wanted and she took it. I wasn't even sure what i wanted. I wasn't even sure i wanted that. Just the previous week i fantasized about marrying a man like Keith Powers on a Yatch, having 4 children with him with our adopted two dogs. I wasn't like her. What she wanted was too much for me. I realised i didn't want all that.

Nurul

Falling in love with a straight girl, one of the worst nightmares a lesbian could ever have. One would never tell whether she was really into you or if she just wanted to experiment and pass time. The worst case was when the lesbian fell in love. At the end of the day, straight girls would choose men. Men, even their pronoun didn't sound right. I told her i understood she had to stood me up asked her to reschedule and she agreed to meet me the next Saturday. I had sat on our supposed table and ordered myself some mashed potatoes with some spicy chicken tenders and dumpling soup on the side. Luckily, i met an old friend there, also a queer masculine woman like me, i loved her great sense of

fashion and she had ginger dyed short buzz haircut at the time and strangely still had the most bright blue eyes i had never seen after her, used to debate in high school that she wore eye lens everyday and she'd deny it everytime. Laura took my number as we agreed to hung out more for the two weeks she was going to be there for her Vacation, she was a nice person, a little scary to approach but she was nice given the chance to know her.

In as much as the town was a small town, people loved it as it had great weather and amazing views. It was close to the ocean to so there were about three beaches surrounding the town. My lonely night did not end all bad. I had a chance to catch up with my old friend.

Came Saturday night, Melanie stood me up again, saying had to go church that night as they had an overnight Service that Saturday and her Dad wouldn't let her skip it. That time i had suggested for us to go out for a walk and an outside dinner at some place they sold black bean noodles. The Auntie that ran the food truck was the best, my mum knew her so when i asked her for a perfect spot for a date, she suggested that place. I ended up eating alone again. The Auntie gave me a complimentary egg as i mentioned my mum. She said she was an old friend and that was where my Mum met my Dad as my Dad was working there as a part time waiter. It would have been nice eating there with Melanie, i thought.

The night was still young, it was 9:15 and i was never that early back home on Saturdays. I thought of calling Gina but she was out with her boyfriend so i tried to call Laura to pass the time and she sounded like she was partying. She invited me over for some drinks, i told her i was sober but i agreed to meet her. No queer person ever denied partying before. She sent me an adress and i drove there. She was at a Gay bar with some friends of hers and i blended in just fine. The music was lit and i had fun.

Laura got so drunk that she almost passed out on me. I gave her a bottle of water to sober up a bit.

"How did you come here?" I shouted to her. She was drunk looking at me like i was a stranger.

"Tazii" She said.

"Huh?? I can't hear you" i shouted.

"Taxi!!" She shouted back.

I went closer to her and she pulled my top so fast and kissed me, on my lips. I was so suprised as it was so unexpected. I then pushed her away softly. She looked at me smiling.

"You are so drunk" i said laughing. I didn't think the kiss meant something to her at the time. "We need to go, come on I'll take you home " i continued as i put her hand around the neck for balance. She was staggering a little and she bumped into a buffy man who was grabbing tight a man's hand at the exit door.

"I'm sorry," i apologized to the man. He turned to me and quickly looked away. I had sworn i saw that face before but i couldn't trace where. Plus it was dark in there so i couldn't see him clearly over the disco lights. I stared at the other guy who was with him. He looked a little shy because he too looked away. Maybe he was just a bouncer trying to keep him in check. I didn't recognize the petite guy so i just ignored it and pushed the exit door and walked outside the gay club. I had packed my car at the small mall right next to the club as there was no parking space the time i got there. So we walked slowly to the mall. As we were walking down the corner to get the the mall's entrance gate, i froze and stood still. I saw 2 guys and 2 girls standing, facing each other in a circle. I recognized the back of the other girl in a floral blue dress and white nike airforce sneakers, with white socks over her ankles. Her scent was probably the reason i froze and recognized her. I walked up to her as Luara stood there staring at me with a suprised face. I walked to her and slowly covered her eyes with my hands. I didn't expect her to be so startled but yes it was the expected reaction to a stranger walking behind you to cover your eyes with her hands. She pushed my hands away and turned to me. Everyone turned to me.

"Melanie, Hie" i awkwardly said to her with a big smile on my face. I stared down at her full lips as they were covered in lipgloss and the brown eyeliner that had lined the edges of her lips made them so mesmerizing. My heart skipped a bit.

"Hie..." she softy replied. "What are you doing here??" She asked me. She looked more surprised that she saw me there than i was that i was there. Oh wait.

"What are you doing here?? I thought you told me you're at..." i hesitated as looked at her friends. There were all dresssed in party clothes. I nodded.

"I see what's going on here..." i said as i walked away backwards slowly.

"Hey...it's not...i...i.." Melanie stammered as i walked away. She tried to grab my hand but pulled away herself. I walked away as Laura followed me.

"Who is that, Melanie..." One girl from the group asked her.

"I...i...i don't know...i...don't know her..." i heard her reply or that's what i thought i heard i was walking so fast, Laura ran to catch up to me...she had sobered up a little. We got in the car and i froze in there as my heart started racing with anger. I punched the steering wheel so hard that i hurt my knuckles. "Fuckkk!" I screamed.

CHAPTER 6

Nurul

Again, that's what you get for liking straight girls. I told myself as i lay on my bed on my side, facing my window as the curtains flew in and out along with the wind. The sea breeze was so cold that night and it kept on slamming my face so hard. The moon was so bright that even after switching off my lights, i could see everything in my room clearly. I kept staring at my window in silence, for eternity. Then i noticed Melanie climb through my window and got inside my room. I did not move of flinch...or look at her as she stood besides my bed...i kept staring at my window...

"What do you want??" I whispered, almost to myself.

She did not respond then saw her kneel as she removed her shoes and laid them gently at below my window. She walked up to me.

Melanie

"Can you squeeze?? I wanna lay down with you..." i said to her. She looked up at me for a moment. Didn't respond and went back to stare at the window. I then walked to the other side of the bed and hopped on the bed and hugged her from behind as she kept staring at the window. She didn't respond nor welcome my hug.

"Hanna," i said. "The girl in a black dress and black long wig. Her name is Hanna...she was going through a breakdown earlier today and i needed to be there for her...I'm sorry o canceled on you to be with friend." I continued. She didn't respond again. I let go of her and sat up on the bed.

"Say something" i said.

No response.

"Nurul" i called her.

"Come on, say something...Nurul..." I said.

"What do you want me to say Nurul??"

"I don't know...anything at all??" I replied. She then got up too and turned to sit on the bed facing me. She looked at me and chuckled softly.

"I wanted to ask you where back there when i met...i wanted to ask you what you were doing here the moment you got in and asked you to leave my room, i was actually dabating on whether to block your number, delete it or just ghost you. All these were valid options you see, but now I'm stuck here with no option but to look at you like this " she said to me as she really looked at me. I suddenly felt nervous.

"I was going to go to church but then i sneaked out...i thought i could balance meeting you and her in one night but i failed, and earlier when i said i didn't know you i just panicked because you caught me offgaurd, i didn't expect to meet you there and I'm so sorry for that...i know i should have told you and I'm sorry i didn't...i..."

"Melanie..." she laughed. Okay now i was starting to think she was Psycho.

"You don't need to explain yourself to me, I'm not your girlfriend " she said as she stood up from the bed. Ooooh.

"Ouch" i whispered to myself. I saw her walk out of her bedroom. I just sat there in disbelief. Not only did i lie about what i just said about Hannah, i was also slowly losing her. I couldn't tell her the truth. The truth was that i was coward and that i panicked every time at the thought of us being seen in public. She then walked in with two glasses of iced coffee with frost cream on top with straws in them. He handed me one glass as she pulled her chair and sat there facing me. Seemed like she didn't want to be on the bed with me.

"My Parents divorced when i was 9" she randomly said. "So my Dad won custody over me while my baby brother stayed with my mom..."

"The two were a power couple, my mum and Dad, ask around. Till today no one believes that they parted ways and it's been years. I look at their picture there looked so happy together. Listening to their love story you'd assume it's true love and there were meant to be but life is not alm butterflies and rainbows. " She continued. I looked at her.

"I don't believe love exists Melanie, that's why i don't date, i have never dated anyone for real before but with you I'm slowly understanding why I've been like this all this time...I've had sex with 7 girls and noone can claim i gave them the intimacy they longed for...I'm not like this, i believe this is a free world and everyone should get to do whatever she or he wants, the sky should be the limit..."

"I'm not asking you not to meet your friends Mel, and I'm 100% positive you owe me an explanation as to why you are the way you are" she said. I looked at her. I removed the straw from my glass and gurped from my glass and kept 2 ice blocks in my mouth. I stood up from the bed and walked towards her chair with the half drank glass in my hand. I put it down behind her at the table as she stared at my navel. I took the glass of iced coffee from the grip and placed it on the table behind her. I looked at her as i went down for a kiss. She then grabbed my neck with her right hand and gripped it so hard that i felt a little chocked.

"I'm not a toxic person Melanie, so please...don't turn me to one" she said. I chuckled softly. I then went on to kiss her as i sat down on her laps facing her. I kissed her so hard that she had option but to kiss me back. I then went down her left ear and nibbled it with the ice block i pressed at the tip of my tongue. She whimpered deeply. She wraped her hands around ny waist. I arched my back and she grabbed my ass.

"You do this on purpose right?? You do know how sexy you are and you do this on purpose" She whispered softly.

"You like it??" I asked her as i slowly bit her neck.

"So so much" she said. With her right hand, she slowly unbuttoned my dress and pulled it down to my waist. She then grabbed one of my breast and kept strocking my left nipple against my black lacy bra. She then unhooked my bra with her other hand and threw it on the floor. She then kissed my navel and then put on rosy nipple in her mouth. I gasped as it was unexpected. With her kissing my navel, i assumed she was going down to my belly button. But, i preferred my nipple in her mouth like that. She teased my nipple with the tip of her tongue before licking it completely. I moaned deeply as i grabbed tight her shirt from her shoulders. Then with her right hand, she slid in my dress from the bottom and traced it up my thighs. She slowly went on untill she found the heat between my legs. I cretched her shirt more as i moaned again. My heart was racing. She then slid my panties to the other side and touched my pussy with her middle finger. I was so wet. She sighed in pleasure after noticing how wet i was. She then let go of my nipples and looked up at me with a grin on her face. She looked so confident. She then stood up slowly from the chair, carrying me up along with her. My legs were wrapped around her waist. She then lay me on the bed slowly and knelt down her left knee between my thighs while i lay down, looking up at her. She pulled her shirt above her head and threw it on the floor, she then stood off the bed and removed her pants along with her boxers. Her sports bra was still on. She then walked towards me and pulled down my dress along with my panties. She then went down to kiss my groin before teasing my clit with the tip of her tongue. Her tongue felt so cold on my clit. Her tongue kept strocking my clit up and down before she put it all softly in her mouth. She was eating me up and my sould felt like it left my body in that moment. I couldn't control my fingers running her hair that i started to press her head down so she could eat me out more. I needed more of that. I was moaning out loud begging her for more. Wimperibg like a sick dog. My inner thighs were literally shaking. She noticed i was about to cum so she quickly stood up.

"Not yet, Love" She said as she smiled at me.

She then knelt down again between my legs before putting my left leg up her right shoulder. I was confused as to what was happening. She then kissed my thigh softly. I looked at her in confusion but she smiled back in response. Then she came on top of me with her left leg across my upper groin to my right side. She slid my legs more apart with my left leg still up on her shoulder as she pressed her pussy against mine. I gasped. I've never felt so aroused like that before. She then started slowly moving her waist up and down my groin. I moaned. I liked what she was doing. She started moving faster and her pussy was rubbing against mine with more friction that i was getting more wet. I moaned out loud, more and more aroused i got. I started dripping so much and i squirted. I couldn't control myself. She was also moaning out loud and i knew she was about orgasm. I felt it too.

"Almost...almost" she moaned out loud as she squeezed my leg more. Her fingers dug on my leg as her legs started shaking.

"Ooooh my....fuuuuuuckkk" she moaned out loud and i felt cum dripping down my pussy. She was still shaking.

"Fuckk" she moaned again.

She then let go of my leg and quickly lay down besides me. I turned to look at her.

"Wow...that was...amazing" She said giggling.

I was just looking at her. Admiring her.

"I'm sorry" i whispered. She turned to me and lifted my chin up.

"No....I'm sorry for being such a jerk...saying all that i said like I'm non chalant. That was stupid. I'm not non chalant. I care about you Melanie. So so very much. " she said.

"And i don't want to waste time trying to figure this whole thing out. I love you and i don't want to spend another day wondering why you're not still mine...i want to be with you. " she said. I pulled her closer and softly kissed her.

"So is that a yes?" She asked as she pulled back from my lips.

"Yes...of course yes" i giggled. She smiled and kissed me.

"Now let's go shower " she said as she played with my neck with her finger. I laughed as it felt ticklish. "Stop it" i laughed beating her hand off my neck. She then quickly got off the bed and started pulling my legs. We were both laughing.

Nurul

I did not even notice how quickly the next 2 weeks flew past us. They say time moves fast when you're in love and i realized how true that was. Every moment spent with Melanie felt borrowed. But every second counted. I wanted so bad for the second to turn into minutes so i could have had more time with her. Time with her felt so precious.

Most nights i had rushed home from work I'd find her in my room waiting for me. I got used that i had to leave my window open for her and it was funny how noone knew she was in my room most nights. I guess she was more of a stay in girlfriend because she'd come in with her snacks and was ready for anything with me. Books, movies, games. It scared me how much she seemed to be into anything. I liked reading different books, both educational and entertainmenting. She was a singer, well, not a professional singer but her voice was something else. She applied at a music art school surprisingly she was rejected so she had signed up for a musical and her second audition was coming up soon so she'd practice in the morning to meet me later in the evening. I understood how tiring that was. Between my work and her rehearsals, we'd only make the most out of our evenings.

Some nights she spent with me she'd sing for me and I'd fall asleep in her arms but most night she'd fall asleep in mine as i read to her while strocking her hair. She was like a kitten.

"Gina!!!" I shouted as lifted my journal and shook it. Gina left a bowl of cereal besides me in a rush and the milk spilt all over my journal. Had to shake it off my journal.

"I'm sorry!" she said as she sat on the stool besides me.

I looked at her.

"Well, someone's angry" i said.

"No" she replied. I closed my journal and put it besides me on my laps. I then took a spoonful of the cereal Gina brought me.

'Nothing, i was just showering, what are you doing?' Message popped up on my phone. I had texted Melanie to ask her what she was doing.

"Well...it's just Aaron, he makes me so so angry " she suddenly shouted. I turned to her as i put my phone down.

"Aaron the whore??" I asked her.

"Yes...he has a new girlfriend now he just posted her on Insta??" She said.

"Uuuhm...why do we care again?? I thought you're done with him...and besides, do you have a boyfriend now??" I asked her.

"You don't understand women at her do you??" She turned to me.

"I guess not" i awkwardly responded.

She sighed.

"It just makes me so mad...like he was so private with me. He never posted me on Insta, then after he got with your girlfriend, he was everywhere with her, his Insta, his statuses, he even posted her pictures on Facebook and how nice and adventurous she was, how their dates went, movie theaters, picnics, it was so sickening, and now i have to go through all that again"

"Just block him" i said as i was about to take another spoonful of cereal. Then i realised.

"Wait?? Did you just say he was going out with Melanie, like outside on dates??" I asked, almost choked.

She rolled her eyes on me.

"Yes...her stories that time flooded with their dates...so much that i had to unfollow her everywhere" she said. I quickly stood up and took my journal. Took my car keys from the kitchen counter and then rushed out.

"Where are you going? I'm not done complaining...hey!!!" She shouted.

"Im going to change my clothes because I'm going on a date!!" I shouted back at her.

What Gina said got me thinking?? Yes, Melanie ditched me twice before but it was wrong for me to assume she liked staying in more than going out. Plus her excuses on how she ditched me kind of made sense so it got to me. Maybe she was just shy after everything to ask me out on a date, so i decided to suprise her. I decided to dedicate my whole Saturday with her. The weather was good anyway. Good for couples to be outside. I owed her so much for all the time i held her back to stay at home with me. I drove to her place with a grin on my face while playing The Weekend's album in my car. It was going to be a good day. I packed just outside her gate but i didn't know if it was safe for her to go in so i called her instead.

"Hie" i said.

"Heyy" She replied. "You didn't text back i was wondering what you were up to?"

"Oooh yeah... i was driving" i said

"Uuuhm...where are you??" She asked.

"I'm outside your gate" I said. She was silent. "To pick you up"

"What??" She shouted.

"Uuuuhm...you didn't hear what i said or you're..."

"What are you doing here?? Are you crazy??" She whispered, almost loudly.

I scratched my head as i was getting out of the car.

"Uuuhm...now i don't know what to say...you sound pissed..are you mad that im here or just suprised?? I don't..."

"Stay where you are I'm coming...and don't do anything else...don't even get out of your car..." she cut me.

"Uhhm..." i said as i looked around. She cut the call. "Right " i sighed to myself.

2 minutes later she came out. She came out, wearing some black cargos with a black long sleeve top and some white sneakers with a peach purse. It was my first time seeing her wearing something other than dresses. I could clearly see her body shape, i was mesmerized. She walked faster to me with her head tilted down.

"What are you doing here?? And did i not just ask you not to get out of the car??" She whispered loudly and then grabbed my hand. "Get in the car, get in before my uncle sees you, he's on to me and looked like he was coming outside too...quick" She said pushing me down to get in the car. Just then, the gate was opened and a tall bald buffy guy wearing a tank shirt and black gym shorts and gym grey sneakers came out. He looked at us surprised and started walking towards us while removing the ear pods he had on. Melanie faked a smile as she let go of me.

"Heeey...uncle...uhhm what are you doing here...i mean...where are you going??" She awkwardly said while scratching her head. Her left eye was even twitching. The man looked down at his outfit.

"I don't know...Where do you think I'm going Melanie?" He said sarcastically but in a serious tone as he looked at me sharply.

"Uuuuhm I'm Nurul...you must be Melanie's Uncle. " i said as i quickly stretched my hands towards him for a handshake. He fixed a hard look at me and then my hand. I pulled it back in embarrassment.

"Uncle, this is Nurul, a new friend from uuuhm church, she's still new to town so i promised i was going to show her where T&T's shop is" She said. "Eeeehr....because she is building a boat so uuuuhm the resources are found at T&T's...and....uhhm she likes inventions, building stuff and stuff" she awkwardly continued. Her uncle squinted his eyes.

"Riiiight" He nodded.

"Soooo...we have to go...will see you when I'm back home...eeehrr..later" she said as she slightly kicked me as i understood a sign to get in the car.

She quickly got to the other side of the car and got in the passenger's sit, still smiling awkwardly.

"Thank you Sir..." i awkwardly said to him as i got in too. What else was i supposed to say to this man. Everything was already awkward.

"Drive" She whispered. I reversed the car and took off while i watched him through the rare view mirror, still staring at us. Then he turned to leave, that's when i realized i knew this guy. I remembered him clearly as i turned the car on the corner to the main road.

"That was so close" Melanie sighed. I looked at her.

"A boat?? Really?? I can't even make my own bed when i wake up" I laughed. She looked at me sharply and started laughing too.

"That was the close lie that came cross my mind" she said. "I'm sorry I'm a terrible liar" she continued. "My uncle is one big strict scary guy??"

"Not your Dad??" I asked her.

"No...my Dad is the nicest human i have ever met, my uncle eveb controls him" She said.

"Because he's buff??" I said, almost chuckling.

"No..." She laughed. "My Dad has always been sweet. And ever since my Mother died, 10 years ago, he got a lot more softer. He was so lost he had no idea how to even raise me because all his life he depended so much on my Mother. His big brother, my Uncle came in just then, he was also studying theology too in Ireland back then but he left everything to come to his brother's aid. Of course he didn't tell him he was there to help him out as he had heard about the breakdowns he used to have but it's all good now. And i know my Father is thankful every day that he came even when he never asked for help..."

"Sooo...he just never got married ?" I asked her. She looked at me.

"He's just too focused on God, he sees women as an earthly distraction and he will never let anything like that keep him away from Cod." She replied.

"Wowww..." I said, almost loud.

"What?" She asked.

"Nothing...it just seened a little odd for a good looking man like him to devote himself like that...never marrying and shit" i said.

"He just loves us so much, i can't even imagine him leaving us" she softly said.

I reached out for her warm hand and slowly put it on my lips with my other hand steering.

"Focus....on the road..." She said to me.

"I know....but I'm not letting this one go" i said.

"But where are we going..." She asked me. I looked at her smiling.